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I've been taking poz loads, and not all fro guys on meds, and am still neg too. Perhaps it's that hormone, but as I've alluded to in some of the (not really) fiction I've posted, I tend to take white wine enemas before I get fucked. I've read some websites that state many (over 50%) of us douche before we play (and not just in the US), and that normally we use soapsuds enemas which still the intestinaly mucosa which renders us more susceptible to absorbing the virus. But white wine is very acidic, almost as acidic as stomach fluid, which tends to kill the virus in swallowed loads. So, perhaps white wine enemas also kill the virus in the rectum and colon? Regardless, I'll continue to take raw loads after indulging in my wine enemas.

- So my question is for guys who bottom raw: What do you get from barebacking that you couldn't get from being fucked with a condom?

I sense what you enjoy sensing as a top, knowing my lover’s seed is inside me, not in some ridiculous rubber. I want to absorb that semen into the walls of my rectum and colon, to be part of me, If it has a virus in it, so much the better! I love the risk of getting impregrated!

- Do you really feel when a dick is raw inside you, is there a difference in how it feels in your ass?

My hole can’t feel the difference between a raw cock and a covered dick. It’s a mental thing, knowing it is skin against skin.

Then again, perhaps I haven’t felt enough covered cocks to know the difference. Just because he said he rolled one on doesn’t mean that he actually did. Or, maybe my hole is too loose to be able to tell the difference,

- Would you be happy barebacking if the guy pulled out before cumming or is the load very important to you?

Absolutely not! I need to have his cum inside me! I need to know that I am absorbing his semen into me. I won’t let even one drop of it leak out!

I have barebacked, with rare exceptions, since my very first fuck. I wanted to know my top’s load was in me that first time and my mindset has never changed, regardless of the HIV risk.

Second, third and fourth guys breeding my hole have been able to tell that someone else has been there before them, even without being tipped off. I know I’m slippery inside there after my enemas, but those loads of pecker snot must make me really slippery in there.

In the beginning, I was happy just knowing my lovers semen was inside me. Now that I am more aware, I love knowing that his swimming sperm will travel deeper into me, and hopefully will carry a special gift even deeper into me.

Once I heard of PrEP, after starting to look for known charged loads, it sounded interesting at first. But I quickly realized that being on PrEP would remove the sense of risk that I was searching for. Besides, as a hetero top, I hated using condoms and simply didn't believe in them. I have always felt that semen was menat to be deposited into holes. It was the responsibility of the one with the hole to provide the protection. Now that I'm the one with the hole, my opinion hasn't changed, and I am fully ready and willing to accept the consequences.

It wasn't a fantasy...... Boy oh boy, I went home with a totally wrecked and raw hole, in more ways than one.

Getting your hole and innards ripped up by a spiked PA is beyond words.... Be still, my heart...........

I can still remember the pain, and the excitement. Ah........................................

Whiskey will work too. Just use common sense and work up to your limits bit by bit. The carbonation in beer makes that option less desirable, but I suppose flat beer would be okay. But good beer (as with good wine or distilled spirits) is too good to inject back there.

Very nice writing for your first ventures. Keep it up. I'm looking forward to the next chapter. I'm thinking there may be an "encounter" with the guy at the rental counter, and then of course, there is his brother who is in trouble. This could work out to be a very nice, multiple chapter story!

I know I've commented before on the writing of lancguy14, but need to add more.

Getting nailed by two cocks like these need to be on your bucket list.

Dicks tend to be 6" long or a bit better, and straight. Once in a while you encounter:

a. A cock with a thick, bulbous head like Gary's. That's rare, but incredible, as lancguy has described. The entry of a cockhead like that is incredible, and once inside, with its tapering shaft, you want to savor the expansion of your anal canal as your top works it back and forth, almost dreading the pain when he finally pulls it out. If he's long enough to enter your second ring into your colon, so much the better! This is a rare and wonderful dick to experience. Lacking that (a real cock like that), there are toys available that are similarly proportioned, that when wielded by a pegging buddy, are almost as good.

b. Cock's that are sizable, but which get thicker toward the root, toward the balls. Those are very nice too, though I prefer cock's with a thick, bulbous head that then tapers down its shaft to yet a still nice diameter.

c. Cocks with piercings: Whether it's pierced with a PA or there's simply some sort of straight bar with balls on the end, a pierced cock, properly thrusted (as many women avow, it's not just what you've got, but how you use it) in and out of your hole as well as inside you, can make up for what may be lacking in length and girth. Add a piercing to a thick, long cock, and get that guy's number as you'll want him back for more fun!

But, back to cocks with thick, bulbous heads... My head swirls with thoughts of reliving being blessed by the sight of them, the anticipation of, and then, entry, of that huge head. Then the bliss it renders as he strokes it back and forth inside you, up into your second ring (sigmoid sphincter), dreading, yet yearning for the stab of pain as he pulls back out of your anus...

Rereading this post brings back those special moments, with an incredibly shaped cock, regardless of the status of the semen which it will deliver, impaled deeply within me, and is why I have this story bookmarked.

My first fuck as a bottom was bareback and with few exceptions (my tops' choice every time) was raw too. I just love knowing his load is inside me.

Playing the CL game, I always advertised for ddf/neg tops, but had no illusions about lying, even though I didn't know the term "stealthing" at the time. I simply knew that a guy would lie to be able to pump out a load, (I certainly lied to enough women) but I figured most guys were indeed neg. During that period of time, who knows how many poz loads I got, but if your took loads from over two hundred cocks up your ass, statistically, at least three had to be pumping a hot one. No matter, I recently tested neg, but a while ago I decided that sooner or later I'll take a load that will convert me. Some guys take hundreds of poz loads before converting, if indeed they ever convert (it seems most eventually do, even if it takes years of barebacking) and others get knocked up from just one load. In the end, what happens, happens, and enjoy the journey.

The bottom line is that you, and the rest of us, need to simply enjoy doing what gives us enjoyment and pleasure and accept the inevitable, whether it means we remain neg or convert to poz. I'll continue to take bareback loads while enjoying the pleasure of taking them. You can enjoy the fun of going to bathhouses and taking loads you may or may not know are toxic. Simply enjoy the fun at the bathhouse and live with and accept as your destiny, whatever happens.

On ‎10‎/‎27‎/‎2017 at 1:47 PM, lancguy14 said:

"Are you ready boy? I'm starting to create a small pool of drool here."

Yet another deep breath I took.

"Yes, I want to feel you inside me."

He stood back up behind me, and gently pulled me back upright. But this time, as I stood, his well positioned cock head found itself sandwiched between my ass cheeks, just below the entrance to my inner body. Despite my ass feeling incredibly wet from his saliva, I could feel the wetness of his precum as his head slid easily within my crevice, painting my skin with his noxious fluid. He again wrapped his arms around me, his hairy chest again tight against my back as his hood slowed its back and forth until it was right on my hole. He gave a slight push and then it was there; against my hole, almost painfully spreading my cheeks due to its girth, and wet as anything. I knew he was ready to begin his toxic conversion of my young body. But how that painfully large head would make it through my tight ring was enough to give me pause. And then he spoke, almost as if he could read my every inner thought.

"Shhh, I'll go slow, but once I start I won't stop until I'm in, and it will hurt as the base of my head finally enters you. But then it will be over and you will feel a pleasure deep inside your body you can't even imagine."

And with that I felt him slowly push forward, the tip of his head emerging from under his foreskin as he slowly began to separate my opening, his piss slit ever so slightly entering my chute. His cock flexed and I heard the words that told me there was no looking back.

"Mmmm, I just leaked some precum inside you. The start of my toxic seed. I've never taken a pill; there's no regimen for my strain. And there won't be for you anymore, your soft asswalls are already being lined with my death."

He pulled back slightly and pushed just a little deeper this time. I knew barely half an inch was inside me, we had just begun. And he pulled back and pushed again, begin a short repeating rhythm. Each time he pushed a little further and my ring separated a bit more. Gradually I felt my hole begin to reach the limit of what it had ever opened to before, and still I knew he barely had half his head in.

His rhythm continued each time pushing deeper as we stood there, him holding me tightly. My hole was beginning to feel a slightly painful stretching each time he thrusted, and that pain continued to grow as more of his massive knob entered me each time. Involuntarily I began to rise up on the front of my feet, but his bearhug tightened and he pulled me back down onto my flat feet, spreading my hole more than it had ever been before as our opposite motion slammed his head deeper than it had yet been.

"Shhhh, we're getting there, don't worry, it will be in soon."

My eyes closed and tightened as I tried to ignore what was becoming a significant pain as he pressed even more. A few more thrusts and then he spoke.

"It's time, I'm going inside you now, take a deep breath, and it's okay to let out a yell."

He withdrew almost completely, and then began his final thrust; he was giving me the final half inch of a nearly two inch head this time. He pushed and slid forward, the stretching beginning one last time. As he again reached my point of discomfort, I tried once more to rise up but he knew I would and held me tightly. The thrust continued and a moan slowly turned into a groan of pain that grew as the pain achieved a level I had never felt. I cried out.

"Oh shit, please stop. I can't go any further! It's too much!"

Tears were beginning to form and leak from the corner of my eyes.

"Shhh, no stopping, one little last thrust."

And with that his hips bucked forward and I screamed out in agony as the base of his head ripped through my opening and my poor, overstretched hole clamped down gratefully on his shaft in relief, no longer past its ripping point. I felt an instant relief from my hole, but a dull ache from my chute as that monster still stretched the soft lining of my rectum.

"There we go boy, I'm in. You did it. You have my head inside you, leaking my generous AIDS lube to prepare you for a fuck you'll never forget."

My knees, weak and wobbly from his breakthrough, nearly gave out, but somehow his frail body held me in place. Just two inches of head inside me, and another seven inches of shaft behind it, waiting to join its leader in the soft, wet, and warm recesses of a hole that was already doomed.

His entrance was complete.

What writing! My hole could feel his entry, yearning for for that toxic gift.

Toon, you are really good at writing dialogue!

Very good writing! This, being the leadup to Halloween, many Dracula / Christopher Lee movies have been on TV. This story is a nice alternative to all of those winsome young girls getting their necks bitten, without their pussies being loaded with vampire cum. Oh, the young lovelies experienced rapture while being bitten and having their blood sucked from their necks, but to have been injected with toxic vampire semen just wasn't in the cards back when those movies were made. How sad.... Also, as Lee has passed way, storylines along this veil will not include him.

That was an excellent story, and the kid got what he deserved for dissing the older, chubby guys. Now he's their cumslut.

I'm a bottom, so I'm just imagining how good it feels for the top when he knows the condom has slipped off or has broken and he's now about to stealth his victim with a good, hot load.

What a great way to take a charged load! Never trust that a cock is covered. Even if he says it is, by the time he's finished cumming, chances are it will have broken or slid off his cock, even if he didn't mean for that to happen. Condoms break all the time. Besides, cocks aren't supposed to be covered and loads were intended to be pumped inside holes. Nature didn't invent rubbers. If cocks were intended to be used, then they would have been part of a cock. Play the "covered game" if you wish, but know that accidents happen and other times, you're getting stealthed and getting the load nature intended you to get, tame or lethal.

I've been stealthed and love when it happens.

I posted a story here, supposedly fiction, about a fuck buddy I used to play with. Bill always insisted on using a condom. I thought it was because he simply wanted to be safe and not get infected.

Well, in the story (and in real life), during a get-together when he was having a difficult time cumming, I told him to just fuck me as hard as he could and to not worry about my hole, as long as he came. Well, he came alright, giving my hole quite a pleasurable workout,, but he paniced as he pulled out and saw that the condom broke and that he'd cum inside me. I told him that there wasn't a problem as I'd recently tested neg. He said that my hole wasn't the problem, but that he was poz and not on meds. That's something we never discussed as he had always insisted on using a condom.

I didn't convert and we continued to get together a couple times a month. Another time he unloaded into me after the condom rolled off his cock. He fished it out of me and, of course, it was empty, though obviously, I wasn't. I'd taken another one of his hot loads.

The same things have happened to me with other guys, condoms breaking or falling off, and I'm certain most of those times I was being stealthed, but I honestly don't think Bill ever stealthed me. We were simply buddies for too long and were too close for me not to know whether or not that was his intention.

Regardless, if you bareback, expect to get stealthed, not by everyone, but by someone.

In my earlier post, I was wrong - the result - pozzing - was noted. Anyway, I just re-read the story and it's one of the best on this site. A young gay kid gets well fucked and converted on vacation.

Some of the lies men tell women is simply one of the lies men tell:

1. I'll only stick the head into you.

2. I won't cum inside you.

3. I'll pull out. (Yeah, after I cum in there.)

4. I'm not quite ready to cum. Just a few more strokes and I'll pull out. (Yeah, after I spurt balls deep in your hole.)

Brad deserved every drop of the tainted seed he received that night.

What a wonderful way to get pozzed, by being stealthed and then being told about the load's toxicity so you can sweat out the arrival of the flu.

Yes, excellent writing! I wish this medical practice actually existed so I could get treated, the old fashioned way, with every toxic drop deposited into my rectum, or, if the cock is long enough, into my colon.

Peter did the right thing. Poz-neg relationships are too complicated to work. The neg partner needs to get converted by someone, either by his partner, or better yet, to get it over and done with properly with a good conversion party, whether the neg guy is willing or not. It's simply better to get the conversion over and done with in order to move on with life. The conversion is for his own good, whether or not the relationship lasts. It frees the neg partner to take any cock without worry and stress.

As for slurpy sounds from pricks thrusting in cummy holes, what a wonderful background sound to the grunts of your top pumping a huge load deep inside you.

Nice.....

This was a wonderful story. An emerging gay kid getting raped, and then gang raped, by toxic cocks. It was his destiny.

That tease got exactly what he deserved, a good stealthing! Even though it's only a fantasy, it ought to be real.

I already replied to a different thread posted by you, about your same worry. I understand your fear of getting tested and finding out you're poz, but for gawd sakes, man up and get tested. I'll bet you dollars to donuts you're neg. As others have written, to answer your question, the tops who are poz are also versatile and got infected by a hot load.

I'm a total bottom and at one point about 6 years ago, I got loaded about 3 times a week for three years. I lost track of the number of dicks that had loaded my hole, some who fucked it so roughly, or who were doing sloppy seconds or sloppy thirds, and made it bleed. Then there were the bathhouse visits and a few randy evenings at, or after a bar, as well as quite a few fuck parties. If my hole is still uninfected, yours must be too.