sse4me

Around the first of the year, I decided something was missing from my BB fucks. After some soul searching, I decided that taking a load from a poz guy would spark things up for me. So, I began posting on CL.

Of course, my first few ads got flagged. But I soon learned how to word a post to avoid that. Some responders turned me on to breedingzone and also related to me how they got pozzed. No, none of them ended up pumping a hot load into me - they were mostly fellow bottoms - but between them and BZ, I sure got a quick education about poz loads and getting bugged up.

At first, I guess I'd have been labeled a bug chaser, but I knew all along that even though converting will eventually happen, what intrigued me was the quest. Then I read a post about being a load chaser, rather than a bug chaser, and that summed it up for me. My thrill is in the hunt, not in the kill, or in this situation, converting. However, the quest for hot loads began.

I exchanged emails with a few guys. I ended up meeting one guy for coffee. We hit it off and I knew I needed his cock, and his toxic load, though not his "gift," up my ass.

Now, my opportunities to fuck are limited. But, he was willing to work with me on that. Also, after douching, I love taking a series of wine enemas. They make me really horny. I've also read that being well cleaned out makes you more fertile for the virus, but if so, that's just part of the thrill for me. Whether or not residual alcohol in there makes my colon safer or less safe is inconsequential. As long as my hole nice and slippery for my top and is not dirty or stinky, then everything is okay.

Well, the night to "do the deed" arrived. I was extremely well cleaned out and had enjoyed two wine enemas. They make me so damned horny! Now mind you, I don't want to convert for as long as I can avoid it, just to prolong the quest, but regardless of a guy's VLC, my hole will take any cock's load when drunk.

So, he finally arrived. We already knew each other so we dispensed with the "hellos" and got down to getting his cock into my holes. After hitting the bed, totally naked of course, I began sucking his semi rigid cock to "full mast" before lying on my back to take him inside me.

Now, I've been barebacking for about 7 years, but this was my first known hot load. After all the raw cocks that have erupted inside me, I know that, after having read a bit on BZ, at least a few have to have been pumping a toxic load in there, just based on the statistics I've read, but this load was going to be different. I knew this was a hot one from a guy not on meds. Though he wasn't recently pozzed with a sky high VLC, but he was still pretty toxic nonetheless, based on his success rate on cobverting neg holes.

After sucking his dick to get him nice and hard, for this first known toxic fuck, I laid on my back. I wanted to look into his eyes as he fucked my hole, delivering his charged load deep inside my fertile hole.

I guided his cock to my waiting, eager, well lubed hole. It slid easily inside me.

His cock - nothing abnormally huge, but not small either in length or girth - felt wonderful as he thrusted deeper and deeper until he was fully inside me, balls deep.

We looked into each other’s eyes as he stroked in and out of me. We both knew this fuck could change my life, making us "one." He varied his pace, but took his time. We both knew that it wasn't going to be a one fuck night, and what tonight could mean for my future.

At last, he began to build his thrusts in speed and depth. I knew he was going for his climax. He looked into my eyes and asked, "Are you ready for this toxic load?"

I nodded, "yes."

"The load that could change your life?"

I nodded, "Yes."

"Beg me for it. Beg me to seed your hole!"

"Fuck me with your hot load! Pump every charged up drop into me!"

And with that, he began pounding away until he slammed into me really hard, waiting a few seconds between strokes. I knew, from having fucked a lot of pussies, that at the bottom of every stroke, his cock was jetting its semen deep inside me, as I had done to countless cunts from now immemorable women. I gladly accepted his seed, as they had done with mine. I felt a bond with him, as well as to every hole I'd unloaded into as well. I knew how they felt, as receivers of what could be a gift that could change their lives.

Finally, he collapsed on top of me. I knew how "they" (my past cunt owners who weren't on the pill at the middle of their cycle) felt.

After a while, he rolled off me and we enjoyed a few glasses of wine. Soon, nature took its course and I began sucking his dick again. He rolled me over on my tummy, relubed my hole and then started to mercilessly drill it! He pounded away until he unloaded whatever toxic seed had been left in his balls.

Afterwards, he left.

Well, I'd also had a backup plan and later got nailed by two other cocks later that night after he left. Of course, I did not ask for their "status." A while back I simply stopped asking, accepting, in advance, the inevitable. Their loads mingled with two, known, fairly toxic loads.

It's been eight weeks and I've felt fine - no evidence of the fuck flu. But, another "seeding opportunity" is coming up in a couple of weeks and my toxic friend will be back to see whether or not he can succeed where he's failed before. Not to mention other cocks that will enjoy the use of my hole filled with toxic loads. I wonder whether or not any of those two guys from last time have been feeling well. Neg tops can get infected too, and hey, at the time, I was neg. Still am, for that matter.

"For how much longer?" is the question.

What isn't answered, though this is in the fiction section, is whether or not that brainless. naïve kid converted, as he was/is destined to do.

I read this story while taking/enjoying 3 wine enemas, and during a 4th. I was so hot for the poz cocks in the story I hairbrushed my hole before the 4th wine enema. My hole is bleeding and begging for toxic seed to ooze through it. Right now I'd take everyone of those poz cocks! Their toxic virus would be streaming into my bloodstream before sun up!

Assholes like that deserve every HVL that gets pumped into them.

Getting stealthed is one of the hazards of barebacking. It is one of the reasons I continue barebacking.

What a hot story. I'll bet any of us bottoms would love to be you, taking every cock that its owner deems us worthy of receiving his gift of seed.

What a wonderful way to receive the gift! Multiple, planted, highly toxic loads are always anal nectar!

I too, would have willingly taken every drop of load after load from that poz cock.

I'd take as many of your toxic loads as you deemed fit to pump into me.

What a hot story! It makes me want to be insolent to you ;-)

I agree about the term "clean." Just because someone is poz does not mean they are dirty! Perhaps it was simply an ill chosen word.

As for rude people, as someone pointed out, just because some of us are older, have gained a bit of weight, are poz, or whatever, does not give some young guy a right to treat us rudely.

If you've got prep, then become the pigslut you know you really are. From what I've read, you can take incredibly toxic loads and remain neg. Enjoy yourself! (And all of those cocks and pecker snot).

I only started getting fucked by men when I got into my late 50s. I'd always been totally straight until then. I'm still attracted only to women, but am now also addicted to BB anal from guys. I'd always hated using latex condoms when I fucked women, but the natural skins were almost as good as their bare vaginas. From what I've read, natural skins won't work on blocking the virus.

Anyway, right from my first times taking cock from men, I took their loads BB. I simply love knowing that my stud's load is deep inside me. I have always felt that cum was intended to be pumped into body holes, not into rubbers. That's why I BB. So, I never transitioned from covered to raw. As a top (just to women) I know it feels lousy to wear a rubber. As a an anal bottom, to be honest with you, perhaps because I am always so well lubed, my hole can't feel the difference. If indeed there is more friction to my hole, then that's actually a plus to me because I like a good, rough pounding. The sorer my hole feels afterward, the better.

I've gotten fucked mostly by bi guys, most of whom are married or in a fulltime relationship with a woman, but there have been more than a few exclusively gay cocks up my ass too. One gay guy always used condoms when he did me. If I had to guess, out of the 4 dozen or so partners I've had, about 80% of them barebacked me. About half of them pumped in a second load.

I honestly think that most guys playing around out there, who are not gay or almost exclusively gay, are neg. I've been reading a lot here about chasing and getting stealthed. Though there are definitely some married chasers (or men whose primary partner is a woman), I most of the chasers are gay - virtually none of them mention sex with women. Stealthers also seem to be primary gay and very into spreading their bug, especially to non-suspecting neg guys, who the stealther seems to believe have "it" (getting pozzed without knowing he's getting a highly toxic load( simply because the bottom "is stupid enough to be taking it bareback in the first place." Some stealthers seem like to tell their bottom about the toxic load they just took (or are taking as the load is being pumped in) while others seem to be content with letting the bottom discover he's been infected once the fuck flu sets in.

I found this site a little over a week ago after being referred to it by a chaser I encountered on CL. He responded to an ad I placed looking for a poz top to fuck me. I suppose that makes me a chaser now too. I posted the ad because I find the risk of taking a poz load is exhilarating. I've done a lot of reading here since last week and have become fascinated with bug chasing. I do not want to get infected, if indeed I am still neg (I had what may have been the fuck flu 2-1/2 years ago - thought it was 1-1/2 yrs, but it was back in 2013), I know that by continuing to bareback, sooner or later I'll get seeded with a toxic load.

I don't want to deal with the consequences of converting, both health and otherwise. But, I know statistically, my time is coming (there's that 1:70 figure from one study). One guy I've chatted with got pozzed after only 6 loads and then went on to poz another guy with only 2 loads in one night. Yet, other guys have BBed for years, having taken hundreds of loads, and are still neg.

Now that I have progressed to placing ads for getting seeded with hot loads, I know I may get targeted by a stealther packing a load with a high VL. Quite frankly, that's pretty scary. Taking a raw load from someone who is undetectable is okay with me because I know my risk of getting pozzed is lower than it is for a recently pozzed guy who doesn't know he's poz yet. Regardless, I can't wait to get my next load and may even post another ad in an hour or so.

Poz cock or not, poz bottom or not, who could resist a cock like that?

Us neg CL posters deserve to get stealthed. Barebacking is stupid, but it's also the only way to fuck! And I, for one, am not going to stop fucking raw cocks!

I know I'm going to convert some day. Which one of you will impregnate me? Will you tell me when you do seed with your load of toxic seed or just let me wonder which cock did it to me?

In the end, it doesn't matter when I'll get pozzed. My day is coming. I do know that. But if you tell me you seeded me, then you'll have the satisfaction that I'll know it was you.

Or, maybe I ought to go to a bathhouse and just get it over and done with. For that matter, I just posted on CL looking for a breeder with a "hot" load. I'm certain someone will get the idea.

Rather than piercing the condom, my option would be to make the sub think you had it on, and then, as he knows you're coming deep inside him, hold it in front of him and make him understand your raw cock is pumping your load deep inside him. Let him wonder about whether or not he'd just been toxically seeded. He'll have to think the worst, even if you're neg.

I've been told to wait to find out whether or not I'd just been pozzed. So far, I don't think so and this has happened to me a few times. I'm not on pins and needles like I used to be. I know I'm gonna get converted. It's simply a matter of when, whether I get teased or not as my top pumps his load inside me. Hey, that's what I've opened myself up for (latterly!) and the thrill of each new cock. Is this the one? Not that once I get converted my BB days will be over. Just the wondering will be over.

When I get taunted, I just respond that it's about time I got pozzed and that just maybe, "don't be too proud, because maybe the guy who fucked me last night made me pregnant, not you."

Hot story! To be neg, not intending to convert, to video your buddie's induction, then to fall asleep and then wake up to find you are being impregated too? The thought is making me air headed!

What a hot story! Getting converted would definitely be worth it just to stealth poz that idiot.

I understand your desire for BB. My first time was BB (2 loads) and on my drive home, I couldn't stop thinking about his loads being deep inside me, being absorbed. A much better experience than if he'd been covered. 4 dozen cocks later, few have been taken covered. Nature meant for seed to be pumped into other people, not into condoms.

Are there risks? Of course! Everything is life has risks. If you want to reduce the risks, use PrEP or try to be selective (and hopefully your top will be honest and also truly know his status). But, if you are a committed barebacker and take enough loads, accept the fact that sooner or later you'll be converted. You may even become a bug chaser, if only to get it over and done with, but then, you'll be into a new phase in your life. But life is simply a series of phases, some more significant than others. Everything has consequences. Some things, like the pill, can reduce the chances of the consequences, or supposedly eliminate them. Whether to take the pill is your choice. With or without it, take every cock's load deep inside you and accept the consequences, either neutral or not.

Life is a process, an evolution. Given time, you will accept that someday, some load will convert you. Either do what you can to evade that moment, while still enjoying life, wait for the moment to happen and accept the consequences when it does, or chase the bug to get the transition past you so you no longer have to worry whether or not the next cock has a load with your name on it. But go bareback and savor every load.

I'm not on Prep and have been taking a dozen or so bare loads a year. I really believe most guys who play around are ddf and neg. Mind you, I haven't gone to bathhouses yet (thought I think they are in my future), and am still (I think) neg. I found this site and BBRT earlier this week and, after reading the posts, I no longer care about my status. Note that I am 64 though. But I have been a committed barebacker (unless my top wanted a condom, once in 3 years) for 8 years! \

Though married (we rarely fuck - she is so inhibited - I've gotten fucked by guys on VL more times than she's fucked me - she is very inhibited), I am totally up for finally converting

Get the poz part over and done with! Get fuck any by any cock that is willing to take your ass (some questions are answered afterwards, by or you hole's choice) and enjoy the moment, whewher a cock is in your hole or your cock is in some one else's hole. The bottom line is, just FUCK!

I don't whether or I remain ddf and neg (ddf is ok) and am ready for a conversion party. Regardless whether or not I get to look into my converter's eyes and kiss him as he conducts me into being infected, I am ready to be converted. This ia a pivotal event which you need to get ready for, and embrace.

You need to wrap your mind around this idea too, and embrace being poz. It is your destiny. Your parents, unknowingly, brought you into the world to suck and fuck poz cocksl This is your karma, as it is mine and others of us here. Embrace our destiny (sorry, but I have a BA in Philosophy). The bottom line is, if you see a cock, suck it t get it hard, then take its toxic drop deep inside you!  And stick your cock into mouth or, prerferably an asshole, sinice is it more succeptble to your toxic seed, and ten hump your load There are no odometers on cunts and cocks. Use them well.

To be totally honest, my rectum doesn't feel my lover's seed as he pumps it into me. <y anus doesn't feel his cock spasm. But.... from fucking numerous women, I know what his cock is doing and what he feels. I am simply grateful that is load is inside me, Due to a recent personal evolution, I hope is highly toxic! It is high time I was converted after so many BB loads. If you are near Niagara Falls, NY, and I', not yet poz as you read this, please contact me so I an get my conversion over and done with, 01-30-2-16

sse4me@yahoo.com

And if I have finally converted, let's play anyway.

I recently found this site, but what I have learned is what I already know. If I am not yet pos, I am going to be soon, based on statistics. I don't care. Bareback is what I want, What I have been doing unless my top wants a condom. Fewer than !0% of the cocks that have seeded me have been covered and most of those were over 5 years ago. What, one covered load in the last 3 or 4 years and I'm still "okay?" I haven't been tested, and may have had the fuck flu in 7/15 (I hope so, just to have gotten into my past) but I feel fine.

The bottom line is BB is best, the way nature meant it to be. Take your loads. If you convert, it was meant to be. If I Haven't converted, I hope to soon and now am actively looking to do so, if for no other reason, to get it out of the way, like virginity.

I've only been bred by about 4 dozen guys, but my hole doesn't feel each spurt of my top's cock. Oh, from fucking plenty of pussy, I know when he's unloading inside me. But my anus and rectum cannot discern the moment he's seeding me.

Never mind what may happen to you, or whatever happened to you, you are an anal sub and are destined to get pozzed, if you haven't been already.

I'm much older than you, but have accepted that I am a BB bottom and that maybe haven't already been infected,(not likely) I am finally ready to convert and get it over and done with. While I hope your conversion is special, like my first fuck with a girl (and my first getting jazzed by a guy), getting converted is something to get over and done with. I hope you know when you are getting converted and have fond memories, but if you already got seeded unknowingly with toxic seed, just know that is a milestone that is behind you, rather than one to savor, and enjoy the rest of your life.

You are young. Follow your heart,

I probably ought to get tested, but in a way, I hope I'm not poz. I've taken a lot of BB loads and what I have learned since finding this website earlier this week, I may have had the fuck flu in July 2015 and am indeed, poz. But, I have been fine since then. So, am I actually neg? I know only a test will tell.

While I'm not looking to become poz, since finding this site, I know that as a committed bareback bottom, I am going to get converted sooner or later. That is simply a fact of life. One site stated that, on average, after being an anal sub 70 times, you'll convert. I've easily taken loads from 4 dozen guys, so my time to convert is coming. At least one, if not more, have has had to (hopefully) have been poz. Yet some guys state they've taken over 2000 loads and are still neg. Am I poz? Only a test will tell for sure. I say hopefully because, dang, it's time already to join the club!

But if I'm still neg, I definitely want to savor the moment of being converted. Instead of taking my toxic load in the doggie position, as I usually get fucked, I want to look into his eyes as he pumps his toxic seed into me, I want him to tell me he is about to impregnate me. I want him to kiss me as he pumps his HLV load deep inside me. I want to treasure the moment in which my mover converted me.

This won't be for every future encounter, It will need to be with someone open enough to tell me just how powerful his load is and that it is going to convert me, no matter how resistant I've been up until now. But now, I am actively looking for someone to convert me. While I hope he doesn't, I want to experience this special moment as many times as possible.

Please feel free to contact me if you'd like to try to be the special stud who impregnates me. I am ready to convert.

I "think" I'm neg (I got what might have been the fuck flu in July 2015 but have been fine since then). I've been BB for a while (8 years) and not being a player, have only had about 4 dozen cocks in there (multiple loads though) and have fully expected any of them to be poz. I've made the choice to BB. I know the risks and the possibility that someone either has been recently converted (in which case they are probably very toxic) or is lying to me, and are stealthing me  Lying comes with having a hard cock. Whichever, shame on me! If ';m not already poz, I know I will be someday.