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I was going to post this in the Backroom to see what those who are HIV+ and enjoy bugchasing think (in fact I think I will), but nonetheless, Fox news suggests Joe Biden plans on decriminalising spreading HIV. [think before following links] https://www.foxnews.com/politics/biden-campaign-promises-included-decriminalizing-hiv-exposure Thoughts? Is the article lying? What if it was true and the bill was passed how do you think it will affect the LGBT community and/or the straight community or just hookups and sex culture in general? Do you think more people wouldn't morally care about spreading it anymore since it's legal to do? I would love to hear your thoughts.

0 and I'm pissed off about it.

Recently a bottom guy who was a cum dump contacted me for a Grindr hookup but when I looked at his pictures, I was instantly repulsed. Guys, by no means am I body fascist but we got to discuss the differences from being a body fascist and being downright ugly. Especially if you are a bottom, how is a guy supposed to get it up if it looks like you don't even take care of yourself? This guy was bastardly overweight (260lbs), hadn't looked like he took a shower in years, messy facial hair and what was left of his hair, the scruff on his back and sides was messy as well. Didn't even shave if off clean and just looked like he's never groomed himself a day in his life. Glad he didn't show me a picture of his ass because I may as well have fainted. Combine all of that together and the fact that he was a middle aged man, and you have a true recipe for disaster. Needless to say, I ended up blocking him.

Yeah I did. Recently I met a top who I wasn't all that attracted to and that's fine. I'm used to that. But to top it off, he smelt of curry (he was Indian) and I was totally turned off by it. Then while he fucked me he was being rough in all the wrong ways. You can tell he was just some barbarian who didn't really know how to fuck and was just being unnecessarily rough because he wasn't competent enough. It got boring really quick. Also he want to fuck in so many positions rather than doing any one position right. Anyway I told him I'm gonna position myself doggy and you cum in my ass and go. So he did. He didn't last long either and he kept saying I'm too tight when he was missing my hole all the time lol. So yeah it was a total fuck up but he shot deep inside. Afterwards he tried being a dick to me like I wasn't all that good even though I literally made him cum in seconds lol. Such a strange encounter. However, this experience no matter how shitty it was, was my turning point to do BB only because after he went, the smell of cum mixed with my asshole WAS so sexy. I just loved putting my fingers up there and smelling it. It smelt like pure man hormones. Euphoric. Such a turn on

I like normal body scent. Enough to smell natural and not caked up with cologne but not enough to be smelly and disgusting. Just normal. Maybe a little bit of pit smell is fine because I like the fact that it shows a man is hard working.

This is exactly what I like but a lot of those tops lack self confidence. I don't want to be that guy who says, "all you need is confidence" but it's actually true. So many of those tops disappoint me again and again it makes me puke. Like just stick your dick in me and pound me hard. I don't care how you do it. Just do it. But they cum in seconds and if they get to penetration without cumming (some cum when just making out and penetration is skipped altogether.. like thanks you jerk) the slow strokes are ridiculous for their small cocks. If you have a small cock I don't care. A cock is a cock. But at least dominate the fuck out of me in at least two different positions. How hard is it? Needless to say, I block the fuck out of them as soon as we're done. Then a lot of older tops don't have the libido anymore to agree to a meet but they will talk for ages and even ask, "have you fucked any other men recently?" Like why do you even care? That question alone just weirds me out. I'm not your boyfriend or even know you personally. I just want to hookup but you just want to talk. Then there are those older guys who agree to top but end up wanting to bottom. Older trolls are a hassle as much as young pretty boys.

Although I generally prefer older tops and troll looking guys because I love giving to the "needy" because I know they will appreciate it more especially being a younger guy. I feel like I'm making their day better and getting what I want in return. Also they are less hassle. However recently I have had a lot of bad experiences with older guys because they get too excited and cum too quick before they even fuck me. So I don't know what I like anymore. But that's awfully disappointing and happens way too often. I'm not even a twinkish bottom. Just an average younger guy. I will say this much though, I once had a troll top who wanted to fuck me bare but we ended up making out and kissing and he was more bottom than I was. Which I really wasn't expecting and was a total turn off. He started sucking my dick and even though he was good, I just couldn't cum (even though he started masturbating me like crazy to get me off.) So he came before we even fucked and left. Awfully disappointing. I hate older troll bottoms. They can give me head a million times and I will never cum. Contrast that to a super hot transsexual escort I met, she was topping me and started sucking my cock all of a sudden and I had to tell her to stop because I was gonna cum too quick. I like older tops but I don't like older bottoms. I have to be physically attracted to bottoms.

80% better. All symptoms healed except for some minor wheezy coughing and a bit of runny nose.

Also you're right. I need to re-evaluate what I want from my sex life. I don't want HIV. I have been an inactive member of the forum for a while. There was a time where I was big time into this fetish. But for the longest time now, I managed to "come clean" and haven't looked back since. The only reason I came back to the forum was because of this encounter I had, which lead me to be fearful, which in turn the fear lead me to the fetish I once had. Crazy how a fetish never really goes away. It's like a negative feedback loop on your mind that cannot completely go away. But yeah I already know what I want in my life. I don't want to be Poz. Why be Poz? The fetish is hot for a minute when you're bed bound and horny but when you get up and actually have to live life a Poz man, I question if the reality is the same which we all know isn't.. that's why many chasers get cold feet when push comes to shove. We all know, it's isn't what it's made out to be. I want to socialise, meet people, have fun, being safe you can still have a lot of fun, then eventually find a girl and settle down with family. Being Poz makes 99% of that more difficult.

I wouldn't say ignorant. I know the chances are small, there's guys here who have taken Poz loads and are still neg. I get it. But I'm just going off what I feel. To fall sick, extremely sick and almost having the premonition of it happening after being throat fucked hard, which inevitably caused wounding or sores or whatever.. and then swallowing HIV cum (I'm not sure about that yet) on top of that WILL increase the chances of getting the virus significantly. I'm just panicked and trying to make the best of it. And sometimes when you're trying to make the best, you make even more impulsive bad decisions. Which, thankfully I dodged a bullet last night. I am getting better now though. One question I will admit ignorance to, is testing. Considering the fact that the encounter was 5 days ago. Should I get tested now or in six weeks time? Because I know sometimes it takes time for the virus to show up in a test.

I know. Me too. I didn't go to the meet. I managed to regather my senses and think I will.. just wait for the flu to subside and maybe get tested? I'm already say, 75% better.

Frozen Poz cum is debatable. Some guys say yes the virus will still exist others say no. However, the guy was Poz himself and from what he says he's not on meds. In the screenshot he shows me a 12 second video which he deletes where he is verbally pozzing some guy saying shit like you want that Poz cock? He was Poz. He wouldn't say those things if he wasn't. If anyone wants his contact details. He's a male escort from London UK so.. you can PM me if anyone thought those screenshots were hot and want to do it themselves lol.

Apologies for that. My accounts kept reaching the daily posting limit and couldn't be bothered to keep making new accounts. Anyway, with regards to the meet yesterday. I got cold feet. I didn't go. In regards to my health and how I'm feeling today, symptoms: sore throat is much better. Yesterday I couldn't drink beverages, plain water would feel "fizzy" at the back of my throat. Today I can drink just fine. Cough yesterday had a lot of flem and mucus and when I say a lot, I mean A LOT! I guess that's more of the throats way of naturally healing itself. Today I have far less mucus at the back of my throat and also my nose as well. Besides that, I don't have any diarrhea or burping anymore. Temperature has also stabilised. I no longer feel randomly cold for no reason. Night sweats are also not there anymore. No more headaches. Energy levels are good but rest is still important for me to get back to 100% asap so no more gym until then. And this is all within 5 days of my encounter with the tranny. Whether I think I am Poz or not. I'm still not sure. I hope not. What makes me skeptical is that I have deepthroated before but I have never got my throat rearranged in several places by doing it. I believe either the wounding of my throat made it easier for bacteria to form and that coupled with the cold weather of winter made me sick or her cum which may have been toxic made me sick. That I am 100% certain about! Whatever it was the encounter with her caused it but whether it was because she was HIV+ that I don't know.

I knew it lol! I knew I was on the verge of a fever. Just the whole way my body was feeling even more vulnerable than being on accutane, I could tell something was about to come crashing down in a couple of days that I couldn't do anything about. You know, it starts off with the ever so subtle queezy feeling mentally like something is about to wear you down and you wish to god you won't wake-up with fever but at the same time you know it's inevitable. So I woke up in the middle of the night, cold as hell! You know the typical fever symptoms when you feel colder than you actually are. Not long later did I develop night sweats, I guess because my body was trying keep me warm but yeah I started sweating moderately. Wasn't too annoying. Then I started weezy weezy coughing with tons of flem in the back of my throat and nose had the same amount of flem jammed inside it. At that point yupp, I knew I had a fever exactly as I expected when I first caught hold of the symptoms. Whether this is HIV or not, I don't know. What I can say is, I went back to sleep about 45 minutes later and woke up fresh, hours later i.e. now. When I say fresh well, I kind of mean it. I don't feel cold anymore, I didn't wake up sweating, the sore throat and weezy coughing is there but I don't feel like my throat is so fucked up like someone rammed Legos inside it, like last night (kind of felt like my throat was healing itself through excruciating flem and pain, which makes sense because now it feels a lot better and coughing is no longer a death sentence) temperature and headache is noticeable, but is not bad; I'm not bed bound. I feel like the fever is subsiding and won't come back (again, I just have that bodily feeling that this was a one and done episode and with more rest I'm going to better and better, my intuition isn't always right but 99% of the times it is.) But yeah, this typical flu can honestly be fuck flu and even though it's only been 4 days I was fine before this, didn't have any sex with anyone else and in fact that day was the only day I have went outside the entire week because I work from home (besides the home gym in my back garden which could have also given me this flu because cold iron.. man. I have been consistently going however despite the cold weather, maybe it just caught up to me now I don't know, but from the symptoms to go from zero to hundred over night.. I don't know if th gym caused this). so it's a shocker that I caught onto the flu really bad at this moment. One other thing, as guilty as this sounds, in order for me to go back to sleep again in the middle of the night, I was actually stroking over the thought of a guy today to load me up and maybe hit the baths later. I mean, this is the time that many people consider 'best' and even the mere thought of it made me find peace, solace and a deprived sense of horniness about the whole thing made me feel better. I don't know if the guy is Poz, but someone at the baths may be. I do like the thought of not knowing makes me feel better! It almost feels kind of gives me a way to 'seal the deal' without entirely slamming the door shut. Leaving that little inkling of doubt to spread itself. The bottom line is, I don't know if it's HIV or not. But the way the symptoms just came down like that overnight, is pretty telling.

Maybe you didn't understand. I usually play safe and would like to keep it that way. What happened recently was just an impulsive decision. I didn't even expect her to cum because most Trans escorts don't do it unless you pay extra for it which I didn't. So yeah, guess my naviety got the better of me.

Not really interested in Prep because I don't do this thing too often. I wasn't even expecting it to be honest. Just in the heat of the moment she asked to cum in my mouth and I was like okay. I am yet to be tested. Definitely early next week. Unfortunately I missed the window for PEP. So that isn't an option as someone above mentioned.

I think so because the symptoms I'm having are already inconsistent.

Feeling somewhat more ill now. Coughing and really sore throat. Temperature has gone down though. Burping gone down also and diarrhea.

Well, I feel a lot better today. The burping is there but not enough to affect me eating I am sure. I'm also not needing to go to the toilet constantly anymore - alhough the early morning episodes I had were painful but they cleared me up pretty good. Throat feels super fucked up but I guess that's just the body's way of healing itself. Probably just a bug. Couldn't have gotten HIV from anyone else. I haven't had sex in a while to be frank.

I don't know. What I do know is that they don't offer bareback for their own safety. So they should be clean. But in this rogue industry you never know. She looked healthy and looked very strong and stocky (her calves were so muscular they would put most men to shame, felt like holding onto two bricks they were massive lol). I know contracting HIV through oral is rare but she did bust my mouth open with her dick. I still have.. I think they are called ulcers or some scabs/wounds in my mouth from it? So combine that and swallowing her cum which like a dumbass I didn't swallow right away either which I heard is more risky the longer it lingers around in your mouth.. I thought it was a good idea to pop my tongue out before swallowing to taunt her like I have your cum in my mouth lol.. so yeah I probably increased the risk. I am going to get tested either tomorrow or early next week. But yeah any input is helpful. As you can imagine I am going through a lot just thinking about it. And the whole experience sucked as well (I have had good experiences with trans women before too) So it's not like something I want to think of. It really makes me think that I should have just saw a male escort instead who would bareback me and leave a sticky load between my cheeks. I actually had a guy who I asked to bareback me, and he said yup. You up for taking a load too? The thought of it was so hot and even though I backed out. At least it would have been more thrilling than this if I went through with it.

Yeah I will get tested and update you guys.

I know. But because I am taking accutane my immune system is already vulnerable and stressed out (swear this drug is poison). So who knows if the symptoms could show up earlier. In any case I totally wasn't expecting this to happen.

Two days ago, I met a trans escort and I wasn't expecting HIV at all. She topped me but not bareback. However, I think I may have contracted HIV because I have a couple of wounds in my mouth from deepthroating her cock and her cumming in my mouth after which I swallowed. I am already experiencing various flu like symptoms and I can just tell I am on the verge of a fever: Headaches, high temperature, sore throat (this is most likely from sucking her cock), diarrhea and CONSTANT need of going to the toilet to poop - it doesn't hurt, it's just runny poop, acid reflux which is a killer, I can't digest any food because it keeps coming up and makes me burp (although I haven't vomitted yet but I can't eat as much as I used to more than 3 days ago otherwise I will vomit. Meals have gone from 4 meals a day to 2 meals), loss of appetite, fatigue but I'm not concerned about fatigue because I am also on Accutane which has had me feeling fatigued for a couple of months now. Literally all day I'm constantly burping and shitting. My acid reflux is that bad. Admittedly, I haven't been on the forum for a while but I guess the purpose of this thread is to express my desire of not wanting to be Poz and reaching out to the community for support. I mean even if I was to become Poz now, I just couldn't live with it because for one I wasn't expecting to become Poz from this, I would have liked something to refuel my fetish and to entertain more of a 'chase' and for two, it was a really underwhelming experience. She wasn't really up for it so she kind of just took my money and sent me out the door. Something I don't want to relive, but I guess if she gave me HIV I would have to relive it. Which will make the whole thing suck for me even more. I just hope it isn't true.

Amazing asset indeed. Not everyone is born with those kind of genetic gifts. I know I should top if that's what I feel like doing, I just can't get over the insecurity part of it. On the bright side, I was doing some research and came across a website that is dedicated to penis exercises to gain some length and width on the shaft (won't mention it here because I don't know if that's allowed), I might try it for a couple of months and see how it goes. I'd definitely feel a lot better if it all works out. Until then I'll just reap all the amazing sex as a bottom. lol.

Lastly, I needed some advice. Being a guy on the more modest, smaller side of the spectrum (5.5in) I feel discouraged about the whole idea of topping. It's one of the many insecurities I have about myself. I really want to try topping but I just feel like I can't because my penis doesn't necessarily wow guys over or girls either for that matter (I'm BI) so I just skip the idea and play bottom. Any thoughts or advice you guys could give me? Should I try topping or should I just learn to adapt to being a bottom and just forget about being a top? I will say, some of the best sex I have ever had was when I was a bottom but still a part of me feels like I would be better suited as a top although I just can't get over the insecurities anymore. Your advice would be appreciated. Thank you.