Pozguyinchi

I don’t consider oral as losing my virginity. That happened around 10 or 11. Now as a proud gay bottom a blowjob is like a handshake.  My anal virginity was lost at 13 to my step dad. It was consensual and I actually seduced him for years prior. I have told this story before on here but I can tell it again. My real dad died when I was very young and my mom remarried. They eventually divorced when I was 9. I considered him my father. When my parents divorced my dad moved about 400 miles away to start a new job. Through a series of situations I asked if I could move with him.  Everyone was in agreement. My dad had rented a one bedroom apt in his new town. When I came to live with him he said I could sleep on the couch. I asked if I could sleep in his bed with him. He agreed. For a point of reference.. I have never made it over 5’5” so I was always a little shorter guy. My dad is 6’3” 190’s built with a hairy chest and huge 9” cock. I fell in love with his masculinity. I always knew I was different and he embraced that and made me feel safe and that males come in all flavors so to speak. It stated around 9 with me just cuddling up to him at night. I think he was a little wierded out at first but grew to enjoy my attention. It changed to me grazing his cock “accidentally “ while sleeping to holding it like a pacifier for comfort. He had “the talk” with me about sexuality and how there should be a separation between feelings and actions but I didn’t hear any of it. lol. I was enamored with cock. Once when I was holding his cock and he got hard I didn’t ask but I instinctively licked the tip. He has a little bit of pre and I tasted it. I was like an addict tasting my first hit. I couldn’t get enough. Over the next 4 years continued to get more acquainted with his cock. I think it was a way for me and my dad to bond but also for him to help me learn about my role and what I was to become. Over time I would back to him when he was side sleeping and let his massive cock rub against my ass cheeks. Then I started to sleep without underwear. He did as well. It was easier for him to slide between my crack. When I was 12 almost 13 I started to develop. In my mind I was a man but of course I was not. We had gotten to a point in our relationship where I would suck him. The best I could, and then he would dry fuck my crack and shoot his massive load on my back. I knew that his load was suppose to go inside but not sure hot to get it there. lol. I would put the tip at my hole and rub the precum on it to make it slick. He would push a little but his massive cock was not going to go in easily. Around this time I started to jack off and he showed me how to do it with lube. He then started to rub his lubed cock against my hole. As a 13 year old bottom you can imagine what that did to me. I wanted him inside me so bad. He would put the tip at my hole and push it in. Over time he would get a little more in me. Eventually he was fully inside of me. He would hold it there and my body got accustomed to to his massive cock. The first time he came in me was just before my 14th birthday and we were playing and he started to fuck me. It felt incredible. I knew there was nothing I wanted more than to get bred by him. I had built up his resistance so it took him a good 20 minutes of fucking to breed me.  Even at 13 almost 14 the feeling of his cum inside of me made me feel complete. Of course from there until I went to college he was fucking me like I was the last pussy he would ever get. Lol

On my way home from work today. I left early because of the holiday weekend. I thought that it may be a busy day at the video store. It was steady. I got there around 1:30 and I saw a daddy that has a big dick that I know. He won’t fuck me but he loves when I suck him. We went into a booth where I proceeded to make love to his cock for awhile. He fed me his load and I was off to find more. There was a booth that was open and playing a video so I went in to watch. An older black guy wanted to come in so I let him in. He pulled out his beautiful 8 or 9” cock and I did my job and got on my knees and started sucking. A few minutes later after he was fully hard he pulled me up turned me around and yanked my shorts down. I instinctively reached back to grab his cock to guide him in but he slapped my hand away. He pushed my head down so I was bent over. Kicked my legs apart. Spit on his hand and rubbed it on my pussy. I knew he wasn’t going to use me gently so I grabbed my poppers and started to inhale. He slammed in me hard and started to pound my pussy relentlessly. I was happy to be used like this. He fucked me hard and then came in me even harder. I tried to tell him thank you and how grateful I was but he just pulled his pants up and left. I noticed the video had stopped so I pulled my shorts up and walked out of the booth. I walked around a little. I gave another blow job to a hot black guy. He shot in my mouth unceremoniously. I walked around a little more and found a door open with a older guy with a nice body and hairy chest stroking his above average cock. I went in and started to suck him. He plumped up nice so I stood up and turned around and gave him the fag stance. He slipped right in and started to fuck me. I felt the need to tell him that I already had a load in me and he said that it was hot. I asked him what gets him off because I wanted to earn his load. He said pigs that have loads in them and want more. It sounded like me. Lol. He fucked me slow and hard and really used my pussy. He finally gave me a really nice load to top me off. I said to him “ your load makes me feel all CHARGED up now.” He just gave me a dirty grin. My pussy was now leaking cum and I was on a mission to get more. I left the booth and walked around some more. I  couldn’t find anyone that wanted to play and I was just about to leave when the first guy that bred me came back. The older black guy. I said “ do you need to breed another load in me sir?” He just looked through me. Like I wasn’t human. That made me want him to fuck me even more. I kept watching him walk around. I didn’t want to push it. If he wanted to use me he just had to let me know. After about 30 minutes he walked by me and right into a booth. I walked over and open the door and he motioned me in. It was similar to the first time he bred me he took out his beautiful cock and I started to suck him to get hard. His cock tasted like cum and pussy. He pulled me up again and I assumed the gag pose. I got out my poppers and started huffing hard. He started to pound me again. I told him that I had another man’s load in with his. He said I was a good pig and fucked another load in me. I left to go to happy hour with friends. I kept thinking what they would think if they knew I had three loads of strangers cum inside me. 

I would love to see it sometime 

As a total bottom my whole life I can say it’s very rare (for me at least) to feel the actual cum getting shot in me. I do feel his cock pulsate and after I feel it sometimes but that is rare as well. The emotional feeling is much stronger. I feel I have served my purpose and that feels great. 

I have been bred many times by men with piercings. I like the feeling. As a loose bottom it feels great to have metal sliding inside of me. Unfortunately not many men are getting it done anymore.

I honestly have done it a couple of times now. The first time it happened I was a little wierded out but did my job well. The second time I was being told by a really dom daddy to suck his cock and I happily serviced him. I also ate the bottoms pussy in between.

I have never had that issue. My hole is always loose. I don’t think it will ever be tight. 

Sucking cock is a skill that takes practice and patience.  I enjoy it. As a sub bottom it’s a way to show any man that I’m with how much I want him inside of me. My first two long term relationships were with really hung alpha men. One has a 9” cock and the other is around 10”. Both men enjoy getting sucked. I had to learn right out of the gate how to please a large man. That’s where the patience comes in. Trying to cram it down your throat is not going to work. Over time that will come but you have to work your way up to that. Using your hands and mouth together will get the job done at first. There is nothing more gratifying than seeing a man’s head tilt back and a moan leave his lips while you are giving him pleasure. It’s also gratifying to taste his precum as he is getting the service he needs. Every man is different in the way he likes to receive oral. Most want to use your mouth like your pussy. Some however, like to let you savor the taste and work his precious seed out on your own. There is an older man at the video store. Probably in his late 60’s or early 70’s that has a beautiful cock. It’s thick and girthy with a slight downward curve that allows it to slide easily down your throat. He has a sunk in face and looks sickly so most guys and bottoms pass by him. I love it when I see him because I know what a treat it is to suck his cock. He doesn’t fuck. Not sure why. I have begged him many times. He does love to get sucked to completion though. He will take me into a booth sit on the bench and get out a bottle of poppers. He likes to feed his bottom poppers first. Then lets me go down on his beautiful cock. I make love to it. Kissing his big head and licking the shaft. I love to watch his approval. I squeeze the tip a little to see if he has a little pre for me. It tastes sooooo good. I then take my time and work his cock slowly always looking at him for approval. He will stop me every so often and feed me more poppers. He does not like me to ram it down my throat but rather suck and slowly work it down. When he does climax( and I am in heaven), I let him decide how he wants to deliver his precious seed. He sometimes wants it all the way down my throat and holds it there until he is totally spent. There are times he wants to see it shot on my tongue and I lap it up. He is ultimately the man and it’s his decision. I am just the very lucky recipient. Although I would love to use my pussy to milk a load from his beautiful cock I am still grateful for what he does give me. Giving oral sex can still be very intimate and gratifying for subs. 

2 hours ago, PozBearWI said:

@Pozguyinchi would you remind me of when this was?  I think it is relevant what year we pozzed in our overall experience of it.  Two years in for me and starting out poz when HIV is pretty well understood, with a whole lot of options on how to manage it.  

WRT Fuck Flu - truly at this point my big concern with the whole Fuck Flu conversation is that only about half of us infected ever experience.  HIV manifests in each of us differently, sometimes profoundly differently.  I have some concerns when it sounds like guys are using "Fuck Flu" as their indicator they are infected.  

You are correct. This was 2001. When I discussed this “conversion” flu many of my friends had not experienced it. Some believed to have had it long before it manifested any symptoms.  If my mom was not a medical professional I would not have known what a symptom was. 

I didn’t recognize mine at first. My mom that was a hospice nurse did. I was sort of in denial. Looking back I was sick (achy, chills, fever, etc.) in the middle of summer. Not typically when you get a flu like that. My mom told me to go get tested and I did. I had been chasing so it wasn’t a big surprise when it was confirmed.  I had a faggle of bottom friends that were really supportive. Most were poz already themselves. I would say because I was young my flu was short lived. Only one full week of bed rest and another week of laying around feeling tired and worn out. 

I get them too but it’s not consistent. Sometimes men will almost have me there and then they cum. Other times I orgasm right away and have to really focus to get there again. Most often (on average), it doesn’t happen at all. It’s a gift when a man can give you one. When it happens it really bonds you to the man breeding you. Most times nothing happens but I understand I’m just a hole for his gift. 

A man’s natural instinct in to breed so I usually don’t have to say anything at all.  Sort of funny story…. Yesterday I was getting bred at the video store and there was a guy in the next booth talking to us under the wall where there is an opening. The first thing he said was can I watch. My top said no. They a few minutes later the guy said can I come in. My top thought I said… you can cum in me. Of course he did and when he was finished he said to me…. I was going to cum in you anyway you didn’t have to give me the go ahead. lol I said ..I didn’t say that it was the guy from the next booth. Lol

On 11/18/2024 at 8:26 PM, Pozguyinchi said:

Mine was not good. I had aches everywhere. I had a high temp. Even though I was sort of chasing, I didn’t realize I was converting. My mom was a hospice nurse and worked with some aids patients. She suggested I get tested. I did about a month after I got sick. Tested poz first time.

Looking back I was sick. I remember laying in bed for about a week. It was warm outside and I couldn’t get the air in the house cold enough.  A lot of my bottom friends say that they had throat issues like thrush. I guess I was lucky in that respect. I also have friends that say they had very few symptoms. 

I have spent so much time in Bath houses over the years. I really enjoy them. I like how there is something for everyone there. I have learned a lot. Men need an outlet like this to breed freely. After converting it was the easiest place to meet men that were also Poz. 

A clear nonverbal for me is when a man slides his hand over my ass and slips his middle finger between my crack. Either over my pants or on my bare ass it’s a clear indication that he wants to breed me. Another is when they turn me around. Then I know they want me to bend over for breeding. No need for talk. I know what he needs.

I like men that have hair and are naturally dominant. These days I am really attracted to HIV ravaged older men. They make my legs go up quick.

My regulars are really hot and incredible fucks. They are just not consistent and feel random most of the time. They will often call in the middle of the day or they want me to drive an hour to get to them. It’s not always convenient so I have more random than regulars lately. 

My preference is to have him hold the back of my head after I have worked him down my throat. Not always what happens but it feels like a head hug. Lol

My Gp is gay and has a whore for a husband. lol. I see him at steamworks often in a sling taking all the dick he can get. I’m not sure if my Dr is hiv poz but he is very comfortable with it. My gp has been there for every STI.  

When I got it I also didn’t have any symptoms that alerted me. I went to my Dr. for my routine HIV follow up. I casually mentioned what I thought was a hemorrhoid. He took a look at it and said it may be syph. Treatment was quick. Not sure where I got it but when you are a human biohazard receptacle it happens. Lol

Sort of funny story. Tonight I stopped at the park on my way home to cruise. I saw a young Latin guy checking me out so I followed him into the woods. He was on the phone to what sounds like his mom. He pulled out his dick and I assumed the position and started to suck him hard. He continued to talk to the other person while I got him hard. He grabbed me by the. Arm and lifted me up and spun me around. He pulled down my shorts and worked my hole with a few fingers. Next thing I knew he was fucking met with his beautiful dick. Never once wrapping up his call. He fucked me for about 5 minutes and then came loud while still talking to the other person. He pulled out and left. Never speaking to me at all. It honestly was not a bad fuck though. Lol

On 11/29/2024 at 12:04 AM, Jimmi said:

Sadly, i am proof that being a bottom doesn’t stop you from getting prostate cancer. i sometimes wonder if the time i spent in chastity made my prostate cancer come on quicker. 

I sorry that it happened to you. I have spent a lot of time in chastity as well. I usually make sure that I empty my bladder prior to getting bred. Not sure if that helps but I do feel better.  

21 minutes ago, SubOhioBttm said:

I typically get a locker, not a room. Start by making sure I see who's checking in at the same time. Make eye contact with anyone who looks like they could be fun. I start in the sauna and steam room because I like the benefits of both of those rooms, and sometimes you can find some hot fun (pun intended). Then I walk through the areas to see if there's any groups playing or men looking - gloryhole area, sling area, video rooms, or at Flex Cleveland, the asylum. I like playing in the public areas. It's a turn on to suck someone or get fucked with guys watching. 

I also check to see who is coming in at the same time. Then it gives you a time line on when they are probably wanting to dump their loads. Most guys hold off until the end to cum. Those are the guys I want to play with.

It’s been a while since I have gone but my usual routine is to walk around and look for guys that I have played with in the past and let them fuck me if they want. Then I look for the oldest nastiest man in there and work to earn his load.  

My first long term relationship was with a black man. I was infatuated with him. To this day he was the single greatest influence on me sexually, spiritually, and gave me the confidence to be who I am today. With that said, I really didn’t think about his color until someone brought it up. Sometimes it was him. lol. He was and still is incredible in bed. I do tend to gravitate towards black men over white. I am not sure if it’s because I have an overt attraction or if it’s because I attribute who I am to a black man. Either way I really try not to make it a factor in my experience of pleasing men.