lostforever916

God, what a beautiful image!

Thanks ! It has become a lifestyle choice I crave.

I had recently moved to Sacramento as a junior at sac state. I moved here after finishing up my two year stint at a community college in a small town in northern California while living with my parents. Being gay and living with my parents I only had the opportunity to play with a few men before moving to Sacramento. From a young age I always had an attraction to dominant older men. Looking back on it the craving no doubt developed from a few experiences I had at a much younger age. I moved into a studio in downtown Sac and I was free! For the first time I had privacy and could get online and find men whenever I wanted. I had been in sac for a few months and already had my fill of random hookups with men. Mostly older daddy types. There was one particular guy who caught my interest. We hooked up on several occasions. He was in his late 50s. I met him online and didn’t know much about him. I would walk a few blocks to his apt, give a knock and walk in, He was usually sitting there naked in the living room, stroking his 8 in cock watching some of the nastiest porn I had ever seen waiting for me. He was a scary character, He had a look in his eye that he was one sick mother fucker, he lived in a very seedy area of town, and his apartment always smelled of cigarettes and cum. This particular night he had offered to get me high. I loved smoking weed before having some fun with a complete stranger. Took the inhibitions away. But I was young and dumb I had no idea what this stuff was going to do to me. I walked in and he was stroking his dick as usual , I came in stripped down and started blowing him. I worshiped his cock while I watched him smoke the clear glass pipe in his hands, after a while he said it was my turn. I sat next to him on the couch as he helped me light my first hit. I relaxed as I watched the young guy on the television get fucked by three older men in what looked like a very poorly done possibly home made porno. But none the less it was very real, very sick, and very fun to watch. About three or four hits in and stroking my cock with the old man next to me I realized it had hit me. All I wanted was to swallow the guy being jacked next to me. I got on my knees like we had always done and continued to worship his cock. After what seemed like ages of drooling all over his cock he gave me another hit and asked me to get on the couch and take another hit while he ate my asshole. I remember blacking out to the feeling of him massaging my hole with his tongue. The next image I remember is opening my eyes and looking up at him as he was fucking my ass, I felt my hole literally throbbing for more, I struggled to slide my ass down a little so He could get his cock deeper inside me, I slipped in and out of consciousness as he fucked me for what must have been most of the night. When I woke up I was alone on the living room floor, I gathered my clothes , and stepped outside into daylight. As I walked the few blocks back to my apt the full weight of what I had done set in. About six months later as I looked for my usual weekend hookup and I saw him online, As I read his profile my heart sank when it read he was HIV+ as of only two months earlier. Sure enough I went in for my own test and I was Poz. I had fucked several men bare before that point but I know deep down in my heart that was the night I was lost forever.