NWBottom

Well, it was actually early Monday morning. I had quite a weekend, I'll have to write about it in the backroom later as it leads into this, but includes chem and cross dressing. I'm new here but I think I've read all the rules and understand them, and I think it's ok to post this pic. If not I'll remove it, I digress... I wasn't sure why I was so horny. My girlfriend gave me a blow job while massaging my prostate just a couple hours ago and I came really hard. I should be set for a day, but not this day. Little did I know what was gonna happen. I was supposed to be doing homework but I was drinking and still horny and easily distracted. Maybe it's because my girlfriend was encouraging me to get fucked? After I had been cruising on Grindr and BBRT off and on for a few hours looking for action, and reading stories on here to keep me in the mood, I had just about given up. Nothing was panning out, until I got a message on Grindr a little after midnight thirty. This verse guy, 20 years younger than me, was looking for action. He had been out drinking with friends and was horny so who am I to so no? He wanted to suck me as well but I told him I was a total bottom so he gave in and said he'd be ok with that. I sent my address, and jumped in the shower to get cleaned up real quick and I prelubed myself with some Boy Butter. The app said he was only two miles away so after 20 minutes had passed I asked if he had changed his mind and got no response. 20 minutes after that and I had all but given up on him when he finally gets back to me. He asks if it's too late and that his ETA is 11 minutes. I was a little put off but really wanted to be fucked so told him ok. He got lost and asked for my number to call me. I'm not too keen on giving out my number to someone I haven't even met yet, but being almost uncontrollably horny I give it to him. He calls and I tell him where to go. He finally shows up a little over an hour after I gave him my address. I answer the door and invite him in. I ask if he wants the couch or the bed and he says the bed, so we head there. I lose my robe and crawl on the bed. He takes his clothes off and joins me and starts kissing me. I'm not normally into kissing guys but I was turned on and would do whatever he wanted so we made out for a bit. He laid down on his back and I hungrily took his uncut cock in my mouth. It's only the second uncut cock I've played with and while I prefer cut I really didn't care at this point. I needed to get that cock hard and get it in my hole. After I got him hard I straddled him and we started making out again while I was grinding on his cock. I was loving the feeling of it sliding across my hungry hole and occasionally pressing against it, wanting to gain entrance, just teasing me. He asked again if he could suck my dick and I relented. I didn't care, I would do anything he wanted at that point, other than fuck him, so I laid on my back. After a couple minutes I told him I can't take it anymore and needed to be fucked. He told me to turn over and he got behind me. We hadn't talked about condoms, but I had some right there so gave him one and smeared some more lube on my ass. I could feel him press against me and then slide inside me. I asked over my shoulder if he had put on the condom and he mumbled something, but I didn't hear what he said as I just lowered my head and started backing onto his cock as he was thrusting. I had entered full on slut mode. I couldn't believe how good it felt. His hands on my hips pulling me into him as he pushes into me. I'm not sure how long he fucked me. 5 minutes? 10 minutes? His cock was only 5 inches or so and not real girthy, smaller than any of my dildos, but it was just hitting the right spot and I thought I was gonna cum when he suddenly pulled out. I didn't hear him moan and he didn't thrust deep and hold it like he was cumming so I was confused, and wondered why he stopped. I turned around and there he was with his cock in his hand and a big puddle of lube on the sheets. It was unmistakably the boy butter he had fucked out of me and, from the looks of it, cum. i asked if he came and he said yes. I said "well at least it looks like you pulled out first and he grinned and said no he didn't. What? He came inside me? Why didn't he tell me he was cumming? He saw the surprised look on my face and just smiled as he got up to get dressed. As I laid there, unsure of how I felt, he said to me "Don't worry. I'm clean. You don't have anything to worry about. Thanks for the fuck. Do you mind if I save you number?" I replied the only way I can, "Yes please." I got up to walk him out but quickly asked if he could take a pic for me so I hand him my phone and get back on the bed and spread my cheeks and he takes the pic. While walking to the door he mentions he has to hurry back to his friends. I ask "So you left your friends to come fuck me and now you're going back to them? You came here with the intention of pumping me full of cum, didn't you?" He grinned and said yes and I felt so used, but I loved it! I secretly wanted to tell him to bring them next time so they could take turns. He left and I went back to my bed. I was wiping up the huge puddle of lube and cum and thinking that with all this cum there's no way there was any cum inside me. I knew how much lube I put inside me, and this was a lot more than that. I grabbed my phone and looked at the pic and there was no signs of anything dripping out. He must've just been fucking with me I thought, although the thought that he wasn't joking had my mind racing though and making me more horny and I needed to be fucked some more. I grabbed a dildo, shoved it in my mouth to get some spit on it and sat on it. It slid in without hesitation. I was riding it and cruising Grindr and BBRT to see if I could find someone else to come over when I felt something running down my balls. Surely there can't be that much more lube in me. I let the silicone cock slowly slide out of me and while holding it in one hand I held my other hand over my ass and I could feel it. I felt it running out and I scooped it up. I smelled it and tasted it. It was cum, and a lot of it. How much did this young stud cum?!?! I licked it out of my hand. My head started spinning and I started fucking myself again, pulling it out and feeling more come out. It was just like when I fuck my girlfriend after someone else cums in her. I think I get it all cleaned out with my tongue but as I fuck her my cock pulls more out. How much more cum was swimming inside me? I grabbed my phone and reached between my legs and took a pic. I wanted to see it. I was in pure ecstasy. As I continue to fuck myself I text the guy and tell him how hot it was and that he is welcome to fill me up anytime. He replied saying he enjoyed himself and was looking forward to it. So there I am, fucking myself with a dildo coated with cum and cruising online trying to find someone else. What should I do? Should I leave to door unlocked and wait on my bed, my sheets stained and showing what a pig I'd just been. Face down ass up for whoever I could find to invite over? The thought was making me lose control and I'm back to cruising the apps. Shit, I can't see the last few people to tap me so I renew my subscription to Grindr. I'm running out of emails I can send on BBRT so I quickly joined. I couldn't believe how horny I was as all this was happening. I wanted another load. What is happening to me? I'll tell you what happened. IT happened. I became the piggy slut I always fantasized about, and wanted to be, but was to scared to let it happen. Pandora's box has been opened...

I'm not sure that this counts, as there was no condom involved, but this is what happened to me. It was the end of December and I had been chatting with this top on Grindr, on and off for about a year. Schedules and distance kept us from hooking up. He was turned on by hairy guys in pantyhose, and as that is hard to come by in this crowd, I would fuel his fantasy of bare sex in order to keep him around. I would tell him he needed to wear a condom if we ever met up because I have a girlfriend and I'm not on PrEP and he would state something like, "It would be a shame if it broke," and I would agree. He always mentioned that he was on PrEP and tested regularly. Fast forward to exactly two months ago, I was up late and got a message from him, wanting to hookup. I told him I was tired and going to bed. An hour or so later I get another message from him, asking why I was still up. He says he really needs to cum and wants to cum in my mouth. I'm tired and tell him I'm not prepped for fucking but I'll suck him off if he comes over now and give him my address. I jump in the shower and clean up and lube up, just in case, and put on some pantyhose for him. He arrives and heads to the couch and takes off his pants and starts stroking himself. Having not played with a cock for quite a while my inner slut took over and I kneeled down and took his cock in my mouth. As it grew in my mouth it was just big enough to hit the back of my throat and gag me. I asked if it was ok if I hit some poppers and he said yes. As I grabbed the bottle and sniffed he laid down on the couch. With the help of the poppers I was able to relax and take him balls deep and he enjoyed that. Having rearranged himself he was able to start rubbing my ass and legs, telling me how sexy I was. That fueled my inner slut and was making me so horny. Every time I started to gag I would hit the poppers and he would shift slightly to get better access to my ass. He pulled my pantyhose down and was rubbing my hole and pressing on it with his fingers while I was working his cock. Maybe I was concentrating more on him fondling me than my cock sucking skills but he started getting a little soft. The next time I reached for the poppers he slid out and got behind me. I said "I thought you only wanted a blow job", to which he replied that he did, he just wanted to look at my ass for a couple minutes. He was rubbing my ass and started sliding his now limp cock between my cheeks and I was grinding back into him. Within 30 seconds he was rock hard again, and pressing his head against my hole. I was so horny, and had condoms and lube next to my bed just 10 feet away... I expected for him to stick his cock back in my mouth, so I hit the poppers again, and no sooner had I set the bottle down that he pushed my head down and I felt him enter me. My puckering hole pretty much invited him in. I was lost in the moment and let him thrust a couple times before I said anything. I asked him what he was doing, to which he replied that he was cumming. I freaked out and reached back to try to push him off me. He got up and I got up and grabbed his cock and said I want to ride you, let's go to my bed. He said "it's too late, I already came," and went to the bathroom to clean up. I squatted down and ran fingers between my ass cheeks and a quick smell and taste test confirmed it was cum. I was kinda freaking out and he left right away. I later messaged him and apologized for freaking out. He said he didn't mean to fuck me, but my ass looked so nice he had to feel it, and due to our previous chats thought it would be ok. His profile disappeared a couple weeks after that, but I secretly wish I could get fucked by him again and feel his full load inside me.

I have the same dilemma! I want it, I want to feel it, I just can't get over the hurdle.