That how I started. Did it once to try. 2 months later did it again and had a longer break in between the third time. almost a year later. Fast forward to today, 4 years later: I don't refuse any load. and those guys that I actually should refuse are the most pleasurable ones to take. They fuck so good bc they really need to breed someone and it's really hard for them to find someone. I also have these mixed feelings that are part of the fun too. makes me feel like a piece of shit unworthy fag. just a dirty pig hole for these scumbags to fuck. I love it.
