On why I started barebacking

[rawfuckr]

I'll explain my story here.

I came out in the early 2000s and spent most of the decade using condoms religiously. I got fucked many times with condoms and it was never a pleasurable experience. It felt like a piece of plastic rubbing my ass. It wasn't until 2009 when someone randomly fucked me raw in a bathhouse and somehow I let it happen. The feeling was so many orders of magnitude better than using rubbers that I had to try again. The next year I barebacked with a few more guys and I just couldn't get enough of it.

At the same time I had/have ZERO interest in seroconverting. I know a lot of HIV+ people and they are doing great, but if there is an option for me and for anyone else you just don't want to seroconvert. It is tough. Not wanting HIV is diametrically opposed to any sort of barebacking so I didn't know what to do. I started serosorting heavily for the next few years and stayed neg. I would also ask most partners not to dump their load in me. Contrary from most of the people here I don't get much of a thrill from it so it's pointless to take the risk in exchange for nothing.

Then PrEP came along. Was on it right after approval. No side effects, and still neg after a few years. I haven't used condoms for a long time now, but I go out of the way to use every other safer sex practice there is, like serosorting, pull outs, PrEP i only let a selected group of people come inside. I got chlamydia in the butt and the mouth last year but that's about it. HIV neg so far.

Barebacking feels so much better for me that I'm at a point where I'll forgo sex with condoms because it feels sort of pointless. Barebacking comes with huge baggage and risk so at the end for me it's tradeoff of living life. Do you have a sex life that is not that fulfilling but you don't get any diseases, or you let it go have a great time and risk getting stuff. It's a difficult question and I haven't really answered yet.

[bearbandit]

Other side of the coin: long term poz (seroconversion rash in 1980 when they didn't even know what it was). I've always hated condoms - they bloody hurt! My last long term partner wasn't into fucking (well, not with his dick) so condoms became irrelevant. I had a period of celibacy after his death - who wants to fuck with someone who's carrying the baggage of grief and mourning - and when I started getting laid again I still used condoms. I found this site in 2011 and joined to "understand the bareback mentality" like the good little condom nazi I was.

I've had rubbered sex once in the past couple of years, and that was with an escort who said he couldn't afford other STIs, which I thought was reasonable. (And if you'd seen the size of his dick, you'd have paid too!) Otherwise, since PrEP isn't approved here I rely on treatment as protection: my viral load is zero (that's a number not a euphemism). I serosort as much as I'm able to: if he isn't poz I bottom, just in case I've blipped (my hospital appointments are now four months apart).

I've got a trade-off too: STIs (especially syphilis) can really mess your numbers up and, of course, can be more difficult to treat. To me, it's worth the risk. I used to love my motorbike, but accept that the accident that wrote him off and left me with a permanently broken ankle was equally worth the risk.

[rawfuckr]

Other side of the coin: long term poz (seroconversion rash in 1980 when they didn't even know what it was).

You sure are a survivor!

One friend of mine recently seroconverted and it's having a really rough time getting back to the sex life as poz guy. He gets many rejenctions outright when he discloses his status which I'm sure it's not fun. I've told him not to say anything and use condoms, and only if they ask he should tell.. not sure how I'd handle this.

[seaguy]

You sure are a survivor!

One friend of mine recently seroconverted and it's having a really rough time getting back to the sex life as poz guy. He gets many rejenctions outright when he discloses his status which I'm sure it's not fun. I've told him not to say anything and use condoms, and only if they ask he should tell.. not sure how I'd handle this.

Online I would only go after poz guys so that rejection is nullified, but that is harder to do out at the bars.

[bearbandit]

Online I would only go after poz guys so that rejection is nullified, but that is harder to do out at the bars.

One of the reasons for a biohazard tattoo... Mine's on the back of my neck, just the tips visible if I'm wearing a shirt, but I'm more likely to be wearing a singlet, in which case it's totally visible. My VL is undetectable so I feel okay about getting fucked raw by neg guys, but I don't fuck guys who don't know they're poz. Online, unless he's exceptional, I only go for poz guys.

[fillmyholeftl]

Same reason here for my Biohazard Tattoo...One difference is I DON'T Fuck guys....TOTAL BOTTOM. Have to admit, I've been getting fucked regularly "SAFE" by a REALLY REALLY HOT Latin Top...

One of the reasons for a biohazard tattoo... Mine's on the back of my neck, just the tips visible if I'm wearing a shirt, but I'm more likely to be wearing a singlet, in which case it's totally visible. My VL is undetectable so I feel okay about getting fucked raw by neg guys, but I don't fuck guys who don't know they're poz. Online, unless he's exceptional, I only go for poz guys.

[NuttinmyButt]

Rawfucker,

I don't know why but I find that so sad about your friend. I guess I understand. I used to ask too. At first I asked and wouldn't do a Poz guy, then I did but asked them to pull out. Now I ask purely out of curiousity. I think Poz guys for the most part (and I hate stereotyping) are better at fucking. I think there is an empathy for people that is gained and even In a raw, rough, anonymous fucks somehow Poz guys seem a little more tender and caring. Although still negative, my preference is to get fucked by Poz guys.

[Guest ff-whole]

Ditto @rawfucker and yes, condoms hurt and don't feel good at all.

[HotJon]

Much more intense and fun!

[glen]

I was stelth pozzed by a dude I brought home from paradise a gay bar in Asbury last February. He got me high on Coke and the rest is history. After that I became a BB poz cum bottom slut..I was always a top before that. I was taking loads from so many guys I lost count…I have HIV 1 and I had to start meds because my viral count was over 1 million. My cd 4 ct dropped from 450 to 400.

[HotJon]

Love the feeling of a man raw in me and me raw in them. The feeling of connection and knowing you you both are raw is extreme! Love the smell of sex and smearing cum all over, tasting and regaling feeling a man! Nothing like it!

[Newportwp]

I completely agree with mywholeraw I always found the best sex has been with Poznan guys, they always fitter, attentive, and experienced with technique. I tend to have reoccurring fuck buddies with pox guys than anyone else for those reasons.