My Addiction = Cum

[Jamie85]

            Hi!  I’m Jamie and I think I’m addicted to cock.  I kept having fantasies of being the sex slave of one or more dominant males long before I finally sucked my first cock.  My fantasies finally led me to taking advantage of having free time while temporarily unemployed and that the wife was doing a lot of traveling due to her job at the time.  I started reading Men Seeking Men ads on Craigslist.  It was the only source of possible male on male sex I knew of at the time since I had never acted on any of my then subtle urges before. 

            I was lucky in finding an older gentleman who I ended up sucking to completion and swallowing cum for the first time.  He and I met on occasion for about six months then I never heard from him again. 

            That turned out to be a life changing event.  Good event or not, choose for yourself.  I was in my early 50’s when I became a cocksucker.  From that point on, I continued fantasizing about sucking cock and, especially, swallowing cum.  I found that I had turned a significant corner in my life.  From the time I felt cum shooting into my mouth, I had to swallow.  I was addicted to swallowing cum from that point.  My mindset is that if I’m taking a cock into my mouth from this time on, and he wants, I’m swallowing his cum and will continue if he can.

            The problem for me is, that at some point I met a younger guy that had responded to more than one of my ads looking for cocks promising to swallow.  Once I finally invited him to feed me for that first time, fate took another turn in my sex life.  I had advertised, offering to suck and swallow.  He impressed me by feeding me two loads during our first encounter.  I invited him back and, he’s become my regular feeder for the past two and a half years. 

            What turned me into a true cock addict though was more fantasizing.  I kept reading more and more gay porn and it changed my life completely when I finally looked him straight in the eye after swallowing his first load, telling him that I had never been topped.  He broke me in that day and has left me happily fucked numerous times since.

There are two downsides to our situation now.  My cock/cum addiction is growing.  I’ve listed myself as a cumdump on this site despite my fear/intrigue that someone will answer and I will do exactly what that entails.  So far, I’ve only been fucked, safe or otherwise by one man but my urges are growing.  I know that, sooner or later, someone else’s cock is going to be up my ass, bare and pumping cum inside me.  Then that won’t be enough and I’ll have to have another, then another. 

I prefer the idea of a regular cum donor so that I could rely on a steady situation of feeling cum oozing out of my ass into my panties, but I’m feeling the urges increasing.  I’ve not only been reading about anonymous pump and dumps, but found myself looking for and getting more and more excited by finding videos of them.  I’m finding myself being drawn into the fantasy of being fucked raw anonymously.  I’m afraid of my sagging self-control leading me into becoming that cumdump that I’m fantasizing about.

[Guest ff-whole]

         I know that, sooner or later, someone else’s cock is going to be up my ass, bare and pumping cum inside me.  Then that won’t be enough and I’ll have to have another, then another. 

I prefer the idea of a regular cum donor so that I could rely on a steady situation of feeling cum oozing out of my ass into my panties, but I’m feeling the urges increasing.  I’ve not only been reading about anonymous pump and dumps, but found myself looking for and getting more and more excited by finding videos of them.  I’m finding myself being drawn into the fantasy of being fucked raw anonymously.  I’m afraid of my sagging self-control leading me into becoming that cumdump that I’m fantasizing about.

You can bet your fucking ass cheeks, that you are going to be that cumdump...

I know the feeling and the transitioning you are going through...

I am going through it myself, although unfortunately, I am in a place where there are not enough oportunities to get the loads I want, as many as I want, and as often as I want...

If I were somewhere in Europe or the USA, I would already be beyond any help, beyond rescue... I wouldn't want to... I don't want to be rescued...

Go forward my friend and let the cum overflow thei "cup", or should I say: "ass"...

[Bttm2go]

You are definitely on the path to becoming a cum dump. Once you start to get fucked raw and take loads in your hole, you will only crave it more. That's what happened to me. The feeling of cum leaking out my hole is amazing.

[drscorpio]

Don't fight it. Give in to being what you are meant to be.

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