Anyone New To The Bareback Scene?

[Guest Saturn1]

Well, I just wondering how many guys on here are new to the world of bareback. What made you decide to ditch those damn condoms?

[jigetts]

got to just shoot my load  in  the  real world

[irebb]

Got a load shot in me, loved it so much and I wanna be a cumdump now.

[tallbtm]

For me it was long-festering Condom Fatigue. I lived through the "bad old days" of HIV and AIDS and the deaths of friends and lovers. The fear made me a strict condom user for years. I hated the damn things but saw them as necessary for staying alive while still having sex occasionally with other people. Gradually, I started watching only BB porn and hating the condom even more. When I didn't use a condom (for the great sex!), I would beat myself up with worry afterward. 

 

I saw how much hot the sex in BB porn vids was. I read about other real men's experiences here and yearned for the some of the same. So when I heard about PrEP, I eagerly researched and learned a lot about it and finally decided it was right for me. (I also learned a lot about TasP and how undetectable HIV+ guys are essentially non-infectious. And I started meeting HIV+ guys in person and online who were living normal, healthy lives.) I stopped fearing the HIV monster I'd been taught about. 

 

Before I was on PrEP, I avoided opening an account on BBRT. But once on PrEP, I signed up with BBRT right away to finally meet the sexual partners I really wanted.

 

These past couple of years I'd say I have been having the best sex since college: I enjoy it a lot more, now free of all that worry that came with condoms and the hassle of having and using and negotiating their use. 

[Guest descartes70817]

I tried to play safe but it was never as good as barebacking had been when I was a teen. The first time a bottom just lubed me and sat on me without putting a rubber on my dick first I knew it wouldn't never use another condom. That was 15 years ago.

[berlinboi]

For me i've been such a `good boy` for 30 years i can count the times i've barebacked on the fingers of both hands yet my eyes were opened by a brief experience at my local sexual health clinic.

 

When i was first out on the scene to `catch HIV` was a death sentence. You could die a horrible death and then AZT came along and you'd just have a horrible life. It put the fear of death in most Gay guys - it's something that younger Gay guys should learn about and one day a film will be done from then to the present day of PrEP. It will help them understand what people have fought for.

 

A friend of mine had, in pasing, mentioned PrEP and I didn't think much of it just looked into it dipping in and out.

 

At a sex club in London I `slipped up` or rather when I was drunk a guy `slipped up` me I really enjoyed it yet felt so fearful. After ten days I went to the clinic and was feeling quite vulnerable. I just felt that they used my vulnerability to push their own agenda and insult my intelligence. I asked about PrEP and the subject was simply closed down and diverted to condom use and PEP.

 

The things that I was seeing and hearing were not syncing with the orthodoxy being peddled. It was as if the information was there to help them rather than help me feel better or navigate the new.

 

In the meantime I'd met one undetectable guy and, once I had psychologically dusted myself down from the clinic experience,  i'd met another and realised that if they were taking their ARVs and doing the associated bloodworks they were safer than those who were negative who never get tested.

 

I then spent many hours researching HIV statistics, PrEP and the relative safety of barebacking. I came to the conclusion that the sexual health professionals are not really there to serve me but to serve themselves. For instance, I've been on Tetralysals for years for a seperate health condition - no one felt fit to tell me that this acts like a doxycycline against chlamydia and syphilis. Yes, that's not the full range of infections yet it was only by looking up what it is that I found this out. It was as if `that's good - keep on using condoms`.

 

When you really look into PrEP you learn quite a few things. 1) homophobia and pleasurephobia is rife in the NHS 2) there are `approved risk taking activities` and `disapproved risk taking activities`. No one ever tut tuts skiiers and says `you know you should only do safe skiing why not just stick to the nursery slopes?` or `best not to do Rugby matches - they're dangerous`. Yet when it comes to Gay sex oh fuck me no - what, you want real pleasure how fucking dare you? Why don't you become a monk or wait for the right man? 3) PReP will change everything and sexual health profession is shit scared of the change it will bring. It will mean more testing of stds yes yet also will mean they can't fob you off with the old condom argument. What do they say instead? They'd have to properly engage with the full gamut of MSM sexual behaviour which let's be honest with ourselves some of the married lady doctors really don't want to think about.

 

The best people i've come across working in these places were single young women, gay men and lesbians. The doctors seem paralysed by fear about what sex activity takes place although the nurses are lovely. I suppose they are there to care not to judge.

 

My advice is to embrace change at the pace that suits you - look up everything and take PrEP.

[badboy69er]

Great to hear everyone's thoughts I've only recently decided to experiment with men and absolutely love this site!

So I'm very new and have to make the decision if I go bareback straight away

[garsento]

In my particular case, I began experimenting with bareback sex late last year. I'd had no problem following safer sex requirements, including condom usage, up to that point.

One long-term partner I'd been fisting for years had begun suggesting to me that I might want to begin fucking him, too. He did not like using condoms, did know of my HIV-negative status, and suggested, on the basis of his own undetectability and the PARTNER study, that I might want to begin barebacking him. It took me some convincing, but I ended up fucking him, first doing just-the-tip then doing full-on fucking. It was a bit of a head trip for me, but eventually bareback fucking became a routine.

 

The other person is also someone I've known for a while, an older daddy who was out about his HIV undetectability. We had been fucking with condoms for a while, but then we began fucking with condoms. First it was me fucking him, then it was him fucking me as well. We've talked about things and set boundaries--I can cum in him, he won't cum in me--and I think things will continue for the time being.

 

No, I'm not on PrEP. Yes, I would like very much to be on PrEP. No, I don't think I'm having unsafe sex, in that HIV transmissions from long-term undetectable people are exceptionally rare and that I trust these two people to be honest to me.

 

Can I see myself barebacking more? Maybe, if PrEP was available to me. For the time being, I'm comfortable in engaging in condomless sex with people I know well, as a sign of trust and intimacy. With other people, I'm quite happy to use condoms.

[calgary84]

I'm about a year and a half into the BB culture, though I'm sure i've been bred prior to that without my knowledge/remembering (lots of bath houses whilst drunk/high in my late teens).  I was with a woman for the entirety of my 20's, and as such I was terrified of catching something and infecting her accidently, so I was a condom nazi.  Oddly enough, after we had split I fell in love with a poz man (undetectable), and after about three months of me making myself more informed and working up to it, I made the decision to go bare with him.  He never once forced it upon me, and I have the utmost respect for him to this day for it.  We've been bare since, and I have no regrets in that regard.

[Locomotion]

I am new to barebacking (at least full time, dedicated barebacking).  I am also new to the concept of seeking out positive tops as sex partners.  I have been thinking of this and planning this for a long time....years actually.   Eight days ago I started and in that time I have been with 9 different guys during 10 sex sessions (one came back for more).  I have averaged over 2 supposed positive loads per day.  

 

For the first time in my life (and I have been enjoying gay sex since i was 16), I am unsure of what the results of my next HIV test will be.  Let me be clear.  That moment with the first guy, feeling him enter me without a condom,  watching and feeling him build up to orgasm and feel, in those last moments, him preparing to inject his toxic cum into me was intense.  The voices in my head were screaming.....on one had I wanted to pull away from him, on the other hand, I could not wait for him to get his job finished.  He quickly recovered and repeated the act.  

 

Sleep was a bit fitful that first night.  Knowing what I had done, knowing what I had allowed in me, knowing that I had just had a major exposure to the HIV+ causing virus was a powerful burden.   But with each additional man, I have gained confidence and clarity in my action.  I know that I will continue this path.  I know that it is quite likely that I will become infected.  It is possible that my conversion is already starting.  There seems to be a power and a pride in knowing that.   I would be lying if I said that this has not been a very satisfying start to a very dark, taboo, but so compelling journey.

[Guest kazore]

I started to bareback last year in June. It cane gradually. I enjoy taking multiple loads and once in a while dumping my load in a hole.

I always wanted to bareback i never knew it would come that fast.

Taking loads is very addictive.

[Guest]

Although I am not new to barebacking, I am pretty new to actively seeking out getting bred.  I could never keep a  hardon with a condom even in my 20s, so resigned myself to being a safe bottom - until about 12 years ago (not new obviously).  I will fill out some other topics here regarding the progression of that timeframe, but that was pretty much all as a top.  The "new" part of the story is me getting on PrEP and recently turning a lot of long term fantasies into reality and knowing this is just the beginning of a new phase!!  

 

A few months ago a casual bottom buddy of mine asked me to come top him with another top buddy of his.  I was totally into it since I love sharing bottoms and getting their holes sloppy wet - I can last a lot longer sharing a hole and getting a break so I don't cum too fast.  He gave me the other top's name on bbrt and we opened pics for each other.  Turned out we knew each other, and I had sucked his cock at a pool party the summer before and we had traded numbers.  I knew he was a top and wanted to fuck me raw, but his cock was huge, and I wasn't really comfortable as bottom yet.  After I went raw years ago, I pretty much never asked a top to rubber up again since I knew how much better it was.  I just rarely bottomed anymore.  By the time this tag teaming came around, I had gotten on PrEP and wanted to be more of a vers slut but hadn't acted on it yet. 

 

Even though I was heading over to tag team this bottom bud, I decided to clean out - just in case.  Just before I was about to head over, the bottom text me to ask if I would bottom for the other top.  I told him I'd think about it, but his cock was so big (9 and fat and uncut latin) that I really wasn't sure about taking him.  No more conversation.  When we were all at the bottom's place, we made some small talk since we actually all knew each other.  The bottom went to piss, and I got down on my knees to get things going and started sucking the big latin cock I sucked at the pool party.  When the bottom came back he got down on the ground and started sucking my cock then moved around to start rimming my ass.  He could obviously tell I was cleaned out, and within a couple minutes, the first one with a cock in his ass at this supposed tag teaming was me - getting fucked raw by the bottom  while the top stepped back and watched    I let the bottom fuck me for a minute or two, but then we got down to what we were there for.  I ate the bottom's ass DEEP which I love and then we took turns fucking him doggy style and making him suck our cocks.  We then did a couple minutes of DPing the bottom.  The bottom then got on his back fully on the bed and pulled his legs back, and we took turns fucking him missionary position.  That's the point when one of my long time fantasies came true.  While I was fucking the bottom missionary, the "other" top slid up behind me and started poking his huge raw cock against hole - which he had already watched the bottom fuck 30 minutes earlier.  It would have been rude to tell the top he couldn't fuck me when I let the bottom go for it - even though the to was so much bigger.  I had fantasized about being in the middle of a 3way bareback fuck for such a long time, I decided there was no time like the present and didn't resist.  I was really glad the bottom had opened me up some first and found out later that that was totally planned by the other two.  Anyway, it felt so fucking amazing pumping my buddy's hole while my own ass was packed full of huge latin meat that I knew I wasn't going to last all that long.  I can't say the rhythm was all that great, but I couldn't care less - I was sandwiched in between two hot guys and knew I was going to get bred this way.  I started getting close and purposely started getting louder and louder so the other guys would know I was about to cum.  The top guy fucking me timed it perfectly, and just as I started loading the bottom, I could feel the top swell up even harder and dump his load up my ass.  We lay there satisfied, and I told them that was my first time doing that.  I knew at that second that I'd be trying to make it happen more and more often.  That was the first load I had allowed up my ass in about 3.5 years.

 

The next one was exactly one week later.  The top guy told another buddy of his (another top) about our 3way, and told him my bbrt name.  The new guy casually hit me up asking if he could fuck me.  I told him I was usually a top, but then relayed the story of the previous weekend and how hot it had been.  He then admitted he already knew about it and told me he was buddies with both "x" and "y" and they had all fucked before   I had been online for at least an hour by that point and was horny.  It was early afternoon, and I had not eaten on purpose and already cleaned out - just in case.  this guy's cock is way bigger than average (8 and thick prob), but not as big as the Latin's from the prior week, so I knew I could take it.  I told him that even though I usually topped, it felt so good getting fucked the week before I was kind of in the mood.  It was a quick agreement, and I started getting ready....this time for a one on one with a top guy - fully knowing I'd be getting fucked over and bred this time!  I rinsed my hole again and got it ready with a butt plug and some baby oil so it would be slick and I wouldn't resist (I hate fucking a tight resisting hole).  I am already running late for work (in real life as I write this), so let's just say the new to guy fucked me in every position we could imagine foe the next hour and a half until we were both couldn't hold back any longer and I begged him to breed me, and I came at the exact same time. 

 

2 loads from 2 hot tops in one week.  I had definitely never done anything like this before but knew this was the beginning. I was now a fully vers bareback "load taking" and giving slut! 

[Guest yelrom]

i want to feel cum in my arse and be the slut i was born to be

[Bobby]

I am a teen and would like to bareback and advice