Cheating my boyfriend

[desiguy4u]

Hi all I am following this site from sometime now and love this site. Finally I signed up and wanted to share a real incident that happened this 4th July 15, 2018 vacation. Little background I am in a relationship with my boyfriend for now 10+ years now. We are Indians and in India its not that easy to be gay. We met through a hooking site and from first date after months of chatting we were in love. We used to meet every weekend from Friday night till Sunday night. Sex was awesome atleast once everyday during the weekend. All were going great but then I had to relocate to US (which I was declining because of him as I didn’t want not to see him) but finally we talked and he said go ahead with the opportunity and be back in 2 years. I left for US but I made sure to come back and see him atleast 3 times a year for a week. In the meantime he also tried to come to US as we were planning to settle in US and get married. Finally he came to US after 3.5 years I have been to US. Though we are in different cities in US but we meet often
Lately our sex life has declined a lot we don’t have much sex  he says he is going through midlife crises and so libido decreased (he is 38yrs and I m 32) but I am very sexual and horny guy. He is total top and I am vers love to fuck and to get fucked. He is very safe kind of person and even we have condom sex most of the time. I was monogamous once I met him. Once he shared his gmail password and after many months I thought of reading his gmail chats and found out while I was in US he was meeting other guys that just devasted me and I was mad and I confronted him he said just couple of times and nothing much just coffee and kiss that’s all I thought of breaking up but I love him so much I could not leave him but after couple of months when I thought of him fucking others kind of aroused me. We patched up after couple of months of not talking but now I decided to have sex with others as well after all why I should be the only one. I started hooking up but safe always. In US also when I went to his place I found a half used lube bottle and 9 condom pack that means he is having sex even in US with others behind my back but I didn’t confront him time as I know I cant live without him. But I started fucking around too and we two know that we are fucking others but we never talk about it and we pretend to be monogamous.

This 4th July we went for a long trip to monument valley, zion, antelope and vegas. Now a days we don’t have much sex. We were in vegas staying a casino on stripe, we roamed around and then had drinks we went to our room and he ate and slept but I was still drinking. I was horny I went downstairs to casino and went to bar to have some more drinks and logged in to grindr. One gy from Ohio hit me we chatted a bit. i was drunk and horny as hell. He said he is with his friends and cannot host neither can I as my bf is sleeping in our room. He was a bottom and very particular about safe sex even his profile in grindr says in bold “ONLY SAFE SEX”. He asked where I am (he was also staying in the same casino) I told him the bar and in 5mins he showed up next to me. We chatted in bar and it got heated up he said at this time (it was around 2AM) we can go to pool area and he can suck me off. At that moment I just wanted to get sucked and either fuck or get fucked. I was scared as its public place and a stranger but after some chatting I said lets do it, lets go. Went to pool side and it was not dark at all and there was a guy sleeping there may be drunk. I was scred but he said its 2AM and nobody there and no one going to come. He then just went down unzipped me and started sucking me and man was he a good sucker!!! He sucked me deep and asked him to suck/lick my all and he was awesome. Then we kissed deep and then I again forced him to suck me deep and I lowered his shorts and started to fingering him. I started with 1 finger then 2 and then 3 while he is working on my dick. Then I turned him around and started eating his ass. After some time I started to rub my cock on his hole and whispered in his ear “condom?” he noded that he doesn’t have one and even I didn’t have one (I was with my boyfriend cant even think of hooking up with others). I was so disappointed and just kept on rubbing and I was so drunk and horny I started teasing his hole and started inserting tip of my cock to his hole and to my surprise he started moaning. I got courage (remember his profile says in bold safe sex and also in bar he said safe only) and inserted little more (I don’t know what I was thinking my bf is sleeping upstairs, he is always so safe event with me and here I am doing bareback). And finally I inserted my full dick bareback deep inside of him and he instead of resisting he moaned loudly (not that loudly, we are in public place near pool and its full lighted up). I continued to fuck him deep and deep and fast then I pulled out I didn’t want to cum inside him and made him to suck and boi he started to suck so nicely and started to lick my balls (balls and inner thighs are supper sensitive and turns me super horny). After sometime I just cant resist and tuned him and started fucking him again bareback he was moaning and started saying fuck me hard, give it to me and all. I was so turned on (I really take time to cum and can fuck for hour) and finally I came inside him. I was so feeling guilty and told him sorry and was pulling out but he said no be inside him it was awesome. Then he cleaned me up and I told him we are leaving afternoon may be around noon my bf will meet his colleague how works in IT in MGM and if possible I can fuck him gain. I went up to my room ate and slept hugging my boyfriend and he had no idea what I did. That feeling of cheating my boyfriend was so turn on I dont know why. Next day I got up at noon and my bf met and came back after meeting his colleague and I cudnt meet the guy again though he kept messaging.
I had hooked up but when my bf was in other cities but first time he was with me and sleeping in our hotel room and i was breeding someone else and then I went back and cuddled and slept so arousing. 
We are back to SF and he will be going back to Chicago. I already scheduled an appointment with clinic to get Prep next week. Now I want to get fucked in bathhouse and 442. Am I normal? Becoming a slut? I need to open up my relation but don’t know how, how to talk to him about it? Should I tell him that I am going for prep or he will think I am being a slut? I know he is also fucking others but he is very safe always. I love him cant live without him but at the sametime we are not having sex at all and I am very sexual. What u guys say? How to open up? By the way its real story not a fiction.
 
 

[bbinbpark]

Good for you, hope you enjoyed it and will do more. Whatever happens with your relationship make sure you're enjoying yourself

[bareback-flipflop]

If you are a slut, what can I say? I also have boyfriend for 17 years, and I cheat him regularly. Although we haven’t had sex for a long time. And in the last months I prefer bareback sex. I let the top decide whether he uses or not condome. 

Don’t be ashamed, enjoy your life. 

[desiguy4u]

It somehow aroused me so much, even now when I think of that night I am super horny! Just the thought of cheating my boyfriend and that too when he was sleep upstair and I fucked someone that to bareback just making me super horny. I think I am getting hooked to this concept now and I think I might do it more often now. Just probably need to be on PrEP as I dont want him to get something from me. I am thinking of even go to sex club when he is not in town or out somewhere with his friends or colleagues.

Do you guys feel the same way the way I feeling now? or am I weird? 

[ronnie4u]

Yes !  Yes !  I am felt really badly - he was on a trip for 2 weeks and starting to worry about him - less communications lately !  A friend stopped by - wanted to go shopping ! It was a Beautiful Spring day - shopping - having Lunch and a few drinks - just so wonderful times . That evening we went to a club I use to visit - one thing or another - we got closer - drinking was making me free and more wilder . Touching each other - having Fun - even a little bit lip kissing !  Finally went back my place - drinking a bit too much - tipsy - 1 thing or another - I could not stopped him - he came on me light and slow but he becoming more stud like and I let him - he had his hands all over be - he need me - I was giving myself - his massive dick 10 inches uncut - Truly he was Heavenly ! So we kept to ourselves but still having FUN !       

[Guest BBBoyfromTN]

I have two regular fuck buds who are Indian so I get the cultural stigmas and taboos. That said, guys will be guys. You wanted sex and you got some. You're at zero risk fucking him bareback and good for you...he clearly wanted your load in him and got it. I'm not surprised you enjoyed it so much because bare feels a million times better. But if you're going to get fucked at a sex club, ABS, or bathhouse you want to start Prep first! Guys there will find any way to fuck you bare whether you want it or not and there's a good chance they won't know their status and lie saying their neg or on Prep just so they can fuck you bare. I should know because I do just that. Now, will your BF find out you're on Prep? Not if you hide it fastidiously and quite honestly that may be difficult. You're going to have meds around and meds that you have to take on a schedule. It isn't always easy to do that unnoticed. Should you be honest with him that you want to open up your relationship? Um...I know Indian guys and I think you know the answer already. They are super possessive and jealous. He will dump you if you even suggest it and my hunch is you already know that. So the best thing to do is to keep this on the down low and have fun. I hook up with a lot of Indian guys who go to UTD and work for the many technology companies up in the Richardson/Plano area. They love that I let them fuck me bare and cum inside me and if they're down you better believe I fuck them bare and cum inside them. For many of them its something they want to do but are scared of. I get that.