submissivefaggot Posted December 14, 2010 Report Share Posted December 14, 2010 Click here to see Submissive Faggot's original blog post... I'm 23 years old. I always thought I liked women. I still think I like women. But up until the age of about 21 I was a very shy boy who had no self confidence, who still has low self-esteem and never knew how to get with girls. When I first started watching porn I very quickly got into rough porn, sites like facialabuse.com or meatholes.com. I used to fantasize about being a guy who could be that macho and dominate and abuse women in that way but quickly realised I couldnt. This is partly down to my mental attitude - I like to think I'm a nice boy, brought up well, university educated and with a standard job. But mostly it's physical - I'm skinny, weak, have hardly started shaving properly and don't have much body hair. Moreover, I'm not well hung, at all - about 5 inches when erect but I have substantial issues getting and maintaining erections. To top it off, even when I do cum, which is mainly when I'm semi hard, I cum very quickly and not much. Because of this I quickly started exploring femdom and consequently rough gay sex, or I imagined myself being the girl in the rough straight porn I watched. From there it's been a spiral into now fantasising and partaking in abusive sex with anonymous men. I don't do it a lot, and this blog won't be about me racking up the number of loads I've got in a year etc., primarily because when I do get fucked I feel guilty and dirty and ashamed for a time after. I try and persuade myself that I want to be with girls and so it goes on but eventually I resort back to gay sex. I have been with the odd girl, but I don't get sexually aroused by them. I don't necessairly get sexually aroused by men and I'm CERTAINLY not into relationships, or any form of luvvy duvvy aspect to being with a man. I on't like kissing other men or cuddling other men. It's just about my holes and body being abused and molested by men. Where does bareback come into this? Well, when I lost my virginity at 19 the man who fucked me used a condom. It remains the only time I've ever been fucked with protection. It just seems that an inherent element of being a submissive, masochistic young twinky bottom is bareback. Because I get off on being made to feel like a useless piece of meat whose sole purpose is being fucked like a whore, being fucked bareback by men I don't know adds to that pleasure. I'll say this once and won't repeat it - it's naive, irresponsible and will doubtless cause me health issues at some point in time. I know that and I'll probably regret it later down the line. But right now the only form of sexual arousal I get is from being a dirty bareback fuckhole and I've come to realise there are plenty of men, especially older ones, who are quite happy to take advantage of my naivety. More... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
evilqueerpig Posted September 16, 2011 Report Share Posted September 16, 2011 Rather than worry about the consequences, accept yourself as a bareback bottom faggot and be happy as you are Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Willingbottom Posted September 16, 2011 Report Share Posted September 16, 2011 WE cant all be macho brutish he men, take what you have, adjust to it, play it up and accept what you are. It doesnt mean you are anyless of an individual, learn to love what you have and who you are with. Kissing and cuddliing are all part of the scene, so experiment with that. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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