Submissives: when did you know?

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On 11/4/2020 at 5:05 AM, Piggyybttmm said:

When I was 13 I used to have dreams  and fantasies that I was in prison and I was someone's prison bitch, I used to be rock hard... knew I was gay at 16/17....but I used to think I was a top even tho I used to fantasize about getting fucked...it wasn't until I was in my mid 20s that I realized I'm supposed to be a bitch

When i was that age, i also had interesting dreams and fantasies, but it was from a relative that was a sodomy level act, and it was me in a very submissive vulnerable position with him in a very controlling position, doing things to me, and saying comforting things to me…. To be honest, i think the dream is a flashback, it must have been something that happened much earlier. Either way, i acted on them at your age, but since i didnt really have a good concept of sex, i didnt really know how to express the sensation. I really liked the feeling of getting touched, so i would shave my newly growing hair, and rub lotions all over my body, then i found one of my sisters full gymnastics full bodysuit, and really like the feeling, suddenly inhad an idea to hang myself ( not dangerous) from the bodysuit at the neck collar, onto the railing on a bunk bed i had in my bedroom. I got up on a chair, and kicked it away still in reach with me hanging on the railing from my bodysuit collar. With all that tension on top, my body hanged within the suit, and all the pressure from the hanging was transferring to my thighs, legs, and crotch area, once there, i would start to hump the air, and i found out a way to let the humping motion place tension on my crotch pleasure me,its the exact same way girls like to hump and rub their clitoris on something for pleasure, i loved this so much i was able to cum from that position, by bringing my legs up and hooking my ankles or legs apart with my hands i was able to spread in a very vulnerable position to cum. At that point, i didnt know what gay or bi was, i just knew i liked that feeling, and i wanted more of it over time…………