First jerk off fantasies

[germancumbear]

I was wondering what you guys were fantasizing about when you first started to jerk off. 

I was born in the late 80s and porn wasn't really around when I started to jerk off as a very young teenager. Without really realizing what being gay was I noticed the good looks of some classmates and especially the older brother of a friend from the neighborhood. Two of my classmates would brag with their boners and how they could uphold a towel with their cock after swimming classes in the locker room. That was about the first time that I noticed how I was attracted to some guys. I would think about those short moments and jerked off so many times to just that. 

The other big turn on was the older brother from a neighborhood friend. He was a little older than we were (around 16) and quite a scally lad. He was smoking like crazy, burping, facial hair started to grow and I got so massively horny seeing him and being around him. Today I wish he had taken me at some point and make me suck his cock and then rape me. That hunk would have been the perfect first fucker and I still get hard fantasizing about how delicious his cock would have been and hearing him grunt while raping my little virgin ass. 

[Loveitraw]

On 3/16/2021 at 5:42 PM, Loveitraw said:

Plenty of interesting origin stories here. I remember vividly how I got started, essentially I was a very horny young man even though I didn't know it at the time. I basically used to rub myself up against things to create very pleasurable sensations, more or less like a horny puppy. It genuinely never occurred to me to take things in hand, so to speak.

Long story short; I was caught one day by one of my older brother's friends who found it deeply amusing but was kind enough to explain a better way that would let me be more discrete.

I never looked back.

This was my answer to an earlier thread about learning to wank. It's kind of a similar theme. To expand the answer somewhat, when I first learned about masturbation and how good it felt I didn't fantasise about anything directly. It was much more abstract. All sensation without any context. It felt good and I like feeling good ergo I did it.

I can't speak for anyone else's experiences but when I was a kid you didn't have to look far for porn and when I discovered it it was a game changer. I grew up in the 80's so by the late 80's, early 90's I was wanking pretty much constantly. No home Internet but there were plenty of magazines available and some of the "rougher" newsagents, (if you remember the days you know what I am talking about) had some continental titles that gave a thorough education.

To start with I discovered my older brothers stash of Mayfair and Club magazines. All very interesting to a boy just learning but it wasn't exactly what I was looking for. Although in one copy of Mayfair I distinctly remember reading a story about bisexuality and it described guys sucking each other off in detail. This one I read and re-read avidly while stroking knowing I wanted to learn all about this side of things.

With this new found knowledge about guys enjoying each other I started looking at things differently. Very differently. I knew enough not to discuss it with mates for fear of being labelled a fag, or worse getting a kicking, but I was looking for new ways to learn and find out everything I could.

Back to the newsagents I mentioned earlier. One such place near my childhood home sold books, magazines and if you were bold enough to ask, had a back room with bootleg vhs porno. If you had the confidence the old guy who was always there, every day, all day, never asked your age or cared what you took to him to buy.

He catered to every taste. And I learned from those early forays into illicit pornography exactly what men could do with each other and how much I really liked the look of it. From then on every wank was all about my burgeoning desire for cock.

Edited April 27, 2021 by Loveitraw
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[Bokkierob]

My jerk off fantasy was my best buddy’s dad. He was late 30s, husky, hairy and bulged out the front of his jeans and sweats. He’d take us swimming so I got to see what made that bulge. He had a beaut thick cock with real hairy balls. I used to jerk off even more after seeing his junk. Finally I worked up the courage and told him. He took my oral and anal virginity - well, I practically jumped him. I was a horny kid.

[fskn]

This thread is the best! Thanks for sharing these very personal, formative memories. Mine won't seem erotic in the least, but hopefully they'll make you laugh.

I started masturbating very, very young. I had no idea what it was. I had discovered it while sprawled on the carpet, playing. Today I'd describe my early method as frottage or humping. Moving back and forth over the carpet, clothed, made my dick hard, and it felt good. After doing this for a certain length of time, it felt really good, and then the feeling stopped. I don't remember daydreaming/fantasizing at first. Soon, I did start propping open the underwear pages of the Sears or Eaton's (I grew up in Canada) catalogue. The catalogues I looked at had not evolved much from this somewhat older example: [think before following links] https://www.bac-lac.gc.ca/eng/discover/postal-heritage-philately/canadian-mail-order-catalogues/Pages/item.aspx?PageId=4047#shr-pg-pnlShareMain (link goes to the men's underwear section of the 1975 Eaton's department store catalogue, on Canada's national library Web site).

Actual fantasies came later. They involved recalling TV or movie scenes showing attractive men in non-sexual situations, or showing glimpses of straight sex. Though we didn't have pay-TV and didn't even have cable at first, there was just enough nudity and sex on-screen to pique my curiosity. French-language films were broadcast unedited, whereas English-language material was heavily censored. (There was still a strong British, read, Victorian, influence in those days, but even today, airing the word "fuck" can cost a Canadian TV station its broadcasting license.)

By Grade 5, I had learned to masturbate conventionally, with my hand. That, however, was painful at first, because the membrane attaching my foreskin to the head of my dick had not separated yet. I remember working it little by little, on days when I stayed home from school and was free to jerk off.

New fantasies involved real men, like the man I'd seen in a swimming pool change room. He was fully erect and had a long, though thin, dick. (Nothing happened in the moment, even though no one else came in for a minute or two, because I was so completely clueless.)

A favorite source of visual fantasy was the Canadian National Exhibition, a sort of giant county fair held in Toronto at the end of the summer. I enjoyed the fair in its own right, but I'd recall the hot, shirtless men weeks afterward.

Another inspiration was softcore porn. Every summer, we'd drive to the US to visit relatives, staying in Holiday Inns or other similar hotels on the way. My parents had their own room, so I was free to sneak some late-night TV viewing in mine. By then, the hotels all had HBO. I still enjoy softcore/"Eurotrash" films, now for comedic rather than erotic value. I remember very clearly watching Emanuelle's Daughter (Laura Gemser, Gabriele Tinti) and an English-dubbed version of Les folies d'Élodie. 

When I was in Grade 7, my dad brought home a 2400-bit-per-second modem. (For modern people, that is barely fast enough to transmit two tweets in a whole second.) Eventually I stumbled upon phone numbers for "pirate" Bulletin Board Systems, and on those BBSes, I stumbled upon porn. It took a half hour to download one still picture! I downloaded straight as well as gay pictures. My favorites showed guys getting blowjobs, though once again, I was clueless about any real-life blowjob opportunities.

I didn't have sex with anyone until I was 21, but my early masturbation fantasies still influence my sexual interests.

Edited April 30, 2021 by fskn
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[Oldercumslut]

I"m old.  The first "porn" i used to whack off to was the sears catalog. 

[BBSMKR]

My masturbation journey started at 13 when I first lit up cigarette. I exploded in my pants and was my first ever orgasm. I’ve had a smoke fetish ever since and used to masturbate growing up to pics of smokers, online porn wasn’t available in my youth unfortunately. Smoking is still a thing for me, but watching sloppy raw fucking is my go to for masturbation now.

[germancumbear]

Thinking about the good old days as a horny kid I also remembered my love for my parents massage device. It had a handle to hold it and a heavily vibrating end. Once I had discovered the great joy it gave me when I massaged my dick I would use it very very often. Another thing that I used were the water jets in the public swimming pool. More or less hidden from the sight of others would I position my junk right in front of one of those jets and get the blast right on my dick. I don't remember if that ever made me cum but it sure felt like heaven to get sich a nice dick massage