Who the hell am I?

[PozBearWI]

Yikes, mid 77th year sure got here in a hurry!  

Unmedicated poz old guy with ED.  CRAP!!!!  One thing I did not expect was how sexually undesirable that makes me.  A stark contrast to not so many years ago...  I've no regret whatever about being poz.  I knew at some point that would be the case, and that it waited for 3/4 of my life be done has been a blessing.  Some harsh lessons I haven't had to personally experience.  Not lost on me....

What I crave?  I have loved hiking.  And notice joints and tendons beginning to show signs of age.  So I need a regular hiking bud.  If that were hiking with mutual stroke or such, that would be a delight too.  But conversation while hiking is such a pleasure.  And my sweet  husband, his other lovely attributes notwithstanding, is big into the whole "silent type" thing.  He listens.  But he is much more thoughtful than conversational.  Still, even then, we enjoy walking with each other.  

Sex:   A couple times a week I jack off.  It isn't that I don't want to so much as it takes a fair amount of focus to get the plumbing responding.  Rusty pipes?  🙂  Evidently the universe misunderstood me when I wished for a larger dick; and instead gave me a prodigious prostate.  In that case, size matters, but not in a good way.  So ED a serious issue that is difficult for me to overcome; especially in the last year.  Improving that is another  hoped for benefit of regular hikes.  So most of the time it is better to focus on other enjoyable things than sex; and perhaps truly appreciate those couple times I go on a mental journey to orgasm and ejaculation....

[akula]

That sucks man getting old is not for the weak, I deal with ed and am only 58 not fun at all.

[PozBearWI]

@akula I would love to say it get's better.  Mostly, it pays to tap into other things we love...  Which isn't to give up, but to accept ourselves as we actually are.  

[akula]

Oh I understand that I do other things but like you said I miss fucking and getting nasty with some hot guys.

[BlindRawFucker1]

I envy those that are comfortable in their skin, and supposedly truly know themselves.

 

But, most of us conform to our surroundings.  So, who are we?  Who am I?

[PozBearWI]

1 hour ago, BlindRawFucker1 said:

I envy those that are comfortable in their skin, and supposedly truly know themselves.

 

But, most of us conform to our surroundings.  So, who are we?  Who am I?

We do @BlindRawFucker1 conform to our surroundings, and out abilities.  I suppose we can resist what is, but over the long haul, accepting ourselves seems to be one's life mission.

[PozBearWI]

1 hour ago, akula said:

Oh I understand that I do other things but like you said I miss fucking and getting nasty with some hot guys.

Oh fuck yes.  I crave my boners of old when I could flip fuck all night; and did.  Sensations just aren't as powerful as they were.  Nerve damage perhaps?  When I truly connect with stories of other poz guys; often that lead to my strongest and furthest spurts, but my eyes are safe.  🙂