Crap, I'm not sure if I should right this right now. Feeling like crap right now so maybe this will help. But before I do just to get it out of my system. Missing exes, wish things could have worked out and sad with shit they are dealing with unrelated to me. Learning more about topping now and because of where I live I'm dead to former Sir. Being poz has really gotten to me lately especially being single, alone, and can't talk to roomie about bb and being poz. Feeling guilty for sexing so much being not on meds.

...Now that that's out of the way.

Friday Night.

The first day of being back from my trip to Florida and I was home alone. Roomie was a work. After unrelated stuff around the house I get on craigslist. I see a hot fucking guy on craigslist who advertises as a poz top wanting to be serviced by an obedient bottom and fucks raw. Can't tell you how many times I see every fucking craigslist post say "raw but safe and clean only" "bare for neg bottom". But the guy also looked familiar. His pictures reminded me of someone familiar too. I took a chance. I sent him a lengthy email. I went to the credit union and when I got back he replied. My suspicions were right. In the email he told me his name. I replied, with exactly what he wanted to hear. He was the same man from cumunion a few weeks ago.

After dinner wth roomate and watching some tv we planned to meet in a few hours. I cleaned myself and apologized for running a little late, but he was too so it was okay. I raced to get to his place. Parking my car I stepped out and saw him in the parking lot. Fuck, he was just as hot as I remembered if not hotter. He summoned me and I followed him inside. Once inside, he grabbed my hand leading me to his apartment. As soon as the door opened, he continued guiding me to his bedroom. He was shirtless and his sexy nipples, furry chest, where completely exposed. He had a great smile too, with his sexy thick beard and short black hair. He commanded I strip. Like last time, he wanted me to do it slowly.

Slowly, I removed my shirt. Taking it off one sleeve at a time and doing the signature porn star thing where I raise my arms allowing my body to be in full view. I slowly took off my jean shorts, making sure I rubbed my thumb along my skin and slowly exposing my hips. Once those where off I was in nothing but my orange jock strap. I asked him if he wanted me to remove the jockstrap. He told me he wanted it to stay on. I commented that I only wore my "orange" jockstrap because the only other one was red and I'd probably do anything, anytime, anywhere anyways. Pretty close to. He laughed, impressed a little of my knowledge of color codes. He had no idea what kind of boy I really was. After some idle chit chat he finally broke the ice.

His lips met mine, his tongue entered my mouth, and we both made out heavily. We continued making out, he grabbed my body forcefully, causing moans and gasps to escape. He growled as he held, caressed, and rubbed my body. I was completely surprised at how passionate he was being. He was a tad bit rougher at manifest. I sucked his nipples lightly, chewing on them a bit too. He continued to growl. He went wild when my tongue lapped at his pits. I slobbered all over his pits, sniffing them, tasting them. Finally we went to the bed. The bed was on the floor, so we made out while next to the bed. He gently, yet firmly pushed my body down onto the bed and eye level with his shorts. I rubbed my nose against the huge bulge in his shorts, licked and sucked at the bugle too. He slowly pulled down his shorts and licked the area above his cock and balls.

He stopped pulling his shorts down while I was licking his groin region. "Fucking tease," I thought to myself. I pulled his shorts down completely, he stepped out of them. His cock was hard, bouncing in front of my face. I looked up at him, slowly opened my mouth, and took his cock in my mouth. Slowly, I licked around his shaft, wetting his cock all around. Going down further on him, I came up, went back down making sure that every area my mouth reached was slick and wet. I pulled off his cock for a moment to lick and suck on his balls. His moans signaled that I was doing a good job. I returned to his cock and took him deeper into my throat.

In his craigslist post he said he wanted an expert cocksucker. Someone with excellent oral skills. I'll be the first to admit that I can't really deepthroat and that there are tons of guys who can suck cock better then me. But I really wanted him. Just like I wanted him that night at cumunion. Hints of doubt entered my mind as I took his cock all the way in my throat, deepthroating him. Moments of doubt, led to my throat starting to close up, panic filling my head. But then, a desire to overcome my flaws, to service him completely and in every way. "I don't care what it takes. I'm going to deep throat him, service him completely, and make Sir happy," I told myself. I don't know why I wanted him so much but I did. I was able to deep throat him completely and succcesfully. Constantly, I'd bob up and down on his cock completely and at times keeping his cock in the back of my throat and partially going up and down.

He was in overload. His growls, grunts, and moans were very vocal. He kept saying, "Good boy." That was all the praise and encouragement I needed. He pulled me off his cock, raised me to his level. His lips met mine again, we made out passionately and full of lust. He pushed me on the bed on my back, raising my legs into the air. His tongue made contact with my hole and I couldn't stop moaning as his tongue dug deeper into my hole. I relaxed my hole and pushed it out as well as holding my ass cheeks apart. Feeling his fuzzy beard tickle my hole kept me squirming as well. He stopped, and I knew what was coming next.

A small part of me thought about when he fucked and bred me at cumunion how I was bent over doggy style and using my poppers. I knew my poppers where in my shorts. I knew he was big and that I could really take him with poppers and really go wild. But i didn't want that. I wanted to feel every inch of this man. I don't care if it hurts or not. I want to feel all of him. Pain, pleasure, I don't care what it en composes. I just want to feel him inside me naturally. His thick cock head started to push into my hole. I relaxed myself completely and felt him enter. He felt perfect as he started slipping into my hole. Taking a deep breathe I pushed back on his cock taking him in quicker and in a fast motion. He was surprised and commented, "Damn. You're a horny fucker."

He slowly started pumping in and out of my ass. I was in bliss feeling all of him and looking directly at him. I didn't want to look away. The look on his face. He started thrusting harder and I closed my eyes momentarily as I winced in pain. Fuck it hurt, but it also felt so good. I told myself I don't care how much it hurts I'll fucking take it. I'll take him. And I did. I relaxed quickly and again, looked into his eyes, he looked into mine. He lowered his head and we made out while he rocked back and forth into my hole. While fucking me he also licked and sucked on my toes too. All the while I was tightening and loosening my ass muscles for him. I felt him thrust harder and pick up speed. He started swearing, breathing heavier, and becoming much more aggressive.

Hellyeah. I continued tightening my ass muscles around his cock. He started jackhammering me telling me that he's going to breed my ass. He's going to give me his load. I yelled out. "FUCK ME SIR. PLEASE SIR. MARK ME SIR. TAKE MY HOLE SIR, IT'S YOUR HOLE SIR. BREED ME SIR!". That sent him over the edge and I heard him growl and grunt, filling me with his seed. I continued to tighten my hole around him milking his cock. He commented. "FUCK BOY. YOU WORK HARD BOY. YOU FUCKING WORK YOUR ASS AROUND MY COCK!". I thought about what he said and I do work hard. Sucking him, deep throating him, working my ass muscles. But I rarely do this for anyone. No one I really feel comfortable doing it with. But I do it for him. I'm not entirely sure why. I continued milking his cock, tightening my ass refusing his cock to go soft. He continued to slowly pump away at my hole. He started jerking my cock up and down. I started to tighten up a little more too. "Sir, may I cum?" I asked.

He gave me permission. He started fucking me while I was jacking my dick. Sir's cock felt so fucking good in me. He kept calling me good boy. I was his good boy, I was his hole. It didn't take much and I shot my load. I felt my ass tighten around his dick and he pumped me a little more. He pulled out though and we made out again. He grabbed my body and put me on one side of the bed. He layed on the other and we cuddled for a while. We made out a little too. While we were making out, exploring each others bodies, I knew his cock was hard again. He broke away from our kissing, and firmly guided my head to his cock. I took his cock in my mouth with greed and pleasure. I started blowing him again. Going up and down, making his cock nice and wet and sloppy. Circling my tongue around the head of his cock too. My jaw was starting to get a little cramped but I didn't let it stop me. I wanted to please this man so fucking bad for some reason.

Suddenly, I felt myself being pulled off. He flipped me on my belly. I felt his weight on my naked body. His furry chest and body felt great on top of me. I then I felt his cock starting to enter me. Fuck it felt so good and I relaxed and allowed him to enter completely. Raising my ass, I matched his thrusts as he fucked me. He kept calling me a good boy, again commenting on how I work so hard at pleasing him. He also told me to look into the mirror in front of us. I looked in the mirror and saw the sexiest man ever pumping my ass. Him on top of me looked so right. I continued tightening my ass back and forth around his cock. I was really working my ass and my legs making sure i could give Sir as much pleasure as I could. Thank god I'm young and that my legs have more muscle and are stronger then my arms. He fucked me for quite a while, as he did when I was on my back. Finally I heard his breathing become heavy, his growls become louder. Again he told me he was going to breed me.

I begged for it again, he shot his load in me continuing to pump it into me. I tightened up again around him making sure he felt it. Of course, he did. He stayed still on top of me for a while his cock still hard in my hole. I tilted my head, he tilted his and our lips met again. We made out while he kept pumping his load deeper into my hole. Finally, I felt him pull out slowly. Fuck I felt it when he pulled out completely. We resumed cuddling for a while again. He started jacking off, so I asked if I could too. I came, and he was close, but he stopped. I said, "Let me Sir." I straddled over him, lowering my well fucked ass onto his cock. I felt him enter me again, moaning out with lust. I relaxed, taking all of his cock inside me. I rocked back and forth and immediately heard him groan.

Sir gave me a great pounding multiple times and some hot making out session. Now it was my turn. I gyrated my ass constantly, pulling off his cock, lowering myself back down rapidly several times. I could tell he was getting close from his face and the sounds he was making. He was loving it and so was I. He told me he probably wouldn't be able to cum again but wanted me to. Not a problem. I rode his cock and came over his chest. I pulled off him and we resumed cuddling again. I was so fucking horny I asked if I could jack off a few more times and I did. I came another two times. We lay still for a while but then we both took a piss. I let the load out of me while he was getting towels and damn it was a huge load.

He turned the hot water on and we both took a shower together. We made out in the shower and I sucked on his nipples, and worshipped his pits again. He loved when I made love to his pits. After we showered we chatted for a while and he told me had to get some sleep. I wasn't sure what time it was until he pointed to the clock. It was 2:30. Holy shit, I got over there at 11:30. We were really going at it for 3 fucking hours? Damn. Not even me and my former partner went at it for that long, but he would fuck me for an hour or two. We made out a bit more and chatted a little more too. We said our goodbyes. He even walked me to my car. We agreed to get together again.

Part of the reason why I wrote this was because this was extremly romantic and passionate. Not something I do with tops that much. Especially as much as we did. It was something special. I'm not sure if the next time it will be as romantic or if it will be more rough pig sex like at cumunion. But I can't wait.