kinkygradstudent

The approval studies for the drug only found resistance when the person had been hiv positive at the time of starting PrEP. Meaning, in my opinion, that a lot of the fears of resistance are unfounded...

BBRT banned me (paid member) for mentioning that I had a fantasy about k9 in my profile... apparently that's even more taboo than bug chasing LOL

I'm putting on a workshop on addiction and D/s relationships for our local conference on Dom/sub relationships. I'm curious what sort of experiences y'all have had with addiction, 12 step, and other forms of recovery -- particularly as it relates to D/s, kink, barebacking, or leather lifestyles. And what kind of things would you want to be covered if you attended such a workshop. Feel free to reply on the thread or by private mail.

Yeah, I found that over-the-counter Claritin did wonders for the itching, at one pill a day. And trimming and filing my nails completely down meant that even in the few cases where I did scratch, it didn't break the skin.

And back on the original topic - so, I've been on acyclovir 800 mg 3x/day starting on Monday, and things are starting to feel a bit better after 5 days of this. The doctor said they should clear up within 10 days. I asked if he sees this condition a lot (he's a doctor at the local college's health center) and he said he sees a case of it almost daily - so this is something he's pretty familiar with. He said that he uses a much higher dose of acyclovir than most doctors, and has had much better results with that - but you don't really want to go above 2400 mg per day. As for the irritating the sores thing, I found that vaseline was useful to keep the area moist without chafing. And I used baby powder --- not on the sores -- tried that, terrible idea! - but on the area sort of downwind from the sores that was getting wet from the fluid drippping from them and then starting to chafe. Lying on my side seemed to work better than sitting or on my butt. Standing on mass transit instead of sitting down was often helpful. And taking two days off work this week definitely helped as well. Also, someone said that because of my hemmorhoids and sensitive ass, I'm more suspectible to STDs such as this -- so that if you have a particularly sensitive anal area - you might want to be more selective about who you sleep with and to be prepared for something like this to happen.

I asked because I'm running some 12-step groups and a workshop about addiction in D/s relationships at our upcoming regional M/s conference, and wanted to see if you had any ideas for what I might incorporate into that.

No, I've been on acyclovir since Monday morning.

What program are you working?

I don't have insurance. I'm on acyclovir 800 mg 3x/day. Been on it since Mon and they are still leaking and itching and super painful when I walk or sit.

@jizzdumpwi. I'm already on acyclovir as well as an herbal antiviral... What I'm more asking is how to walk, sit at a computer, etc...without the sores rubbing against each other and spitting fluid down my legs and soaking my underwear. Like, how are they gonna heal if I keep doing that...but I got stuff I gotta do, can't lie on my side in bed all day...and even then I still got to turn over...

I'm on both herbal (licorice root) and western (acycolvir) antivirals. i'm also on painkillers for the pain. and claritin for the itching. and flexeril for the muscle tension, and meloxicam for the inflammation. and famotidine for the stomachaches (they literally put me on 7 new prescriptions), and an antibiotic to keep the open sores from becoming infected. I more just need some way to keep the sores from rubbing up against each other and my body and my underwear and my pants. LIke, they get more and more aggravated and inflammed anytime I sit down or anytime I walk or anytime I shit ... and like, I gotta do all three to live, ya know? :-) So, yeah, I'm on all the right meds and taking the right herbs and such. Taking a multivitamin and some fiber too and even some vitamin c for good measure. So still ... what do I do about these fuckin sores that are driving me craaaaazy?

So, I guess I was wrong... it turned out to be a herpes outbreak. And the sores are itching, burning, and painful anytime I walk, sit, etc. But I have do an awful lot of both during my day, unless I stay at home in bed, and it's the second to the last week of the school semester... I tried various types of creams on the sores, but the creams burn even worse than the herpes - i tried diaper rash cream, antifungal cream, antibiotic cream, hemmorhoid cream, steroid cream ... all of them felt kind of like putting bengay on your balls ... just this deep deep stinging and burning. And the sores ... itch all night. I barely slept, was up almost every hour to walk around just to take pressure off of them. I got up at 5:30am, and then went to work over an hour early just because I was so restless and couldn't stop moving. And they itched and itched, and then kind of calmed down from standing up all day at work, but the moment I got off work and sat on the subway they starting hurting again... and now it just fucking hurts. I guess i always thought hsv2 wouldn't be that bad, cuz i've had hsv1 for years at i mean, its unsightly and tingles and itches ... but this has been hell - slight fever, headaches so painful i had to page my doctor for advice, stomaches so bad i felt like i was gonna throw up, muscles so tight i had to take 4 showers per night ... and now the itching, pain, and burning. I mean, I know this is the invariable consequence of casual barebacking, but I sooooo wasn't prepared for it. Especially not at the end of a school semester. Fuck, what do I do? How do I get these damn things to heal? How do I get to te point where I'll even touch something that touched my ass, let alone touch my own ass again? Will my libido ever recover from this? I'm scared, confused, worried... The current guy I'm dating is pissed and won't talk to me about it ... I sat in the corner of my favorite coffee shop crying for an hour last night. Help...?

Right now the last thing on my mind is taking cock. It hurts even just to sit down, I can just imagine what taking a cock would be like.

I got a second opinion - he thinks its herpes, started me on acyclovir. could be bacterial, so also started me on an antibiotic just to be safe. and took bacterial and herpes cultures of the sores. I"ll know in a few days. Really freaked out by the notion of having bleeding, infected, pus-filled sores on my ass :-( Anyone have any words of wisdom?

He said: "Little pig, little pig, let me come in" ... as he was pushing his cock into me for my first breeding...

Yeah, I was worried about herpes, but the STD clinic said it wasn't that.

I don't have insurance, though. So an urgent care clinic isn't really an option.

I've been having a lot of itching and burning in my ass, so I went into the STD clinic for a test on Tuesday. While I was there, I asked them to look at this particularly sensitive spot just outside my ass. The nurse said it was a fungal infection and to put antifungal cream on it. I did that for three days. Thursday, they called me back saying i had gonorrhea - but it was in my throat, not my ass. I asked again about my ass, by now bleeding and super hurting. A second nurse came in and said it was an infection, but not fungal and needed antibiotics. He said I had to go to a doctor for that, and promised me a list of referrals. He came back out with a list in which none of the resources actually applied to me, and none would be open weekends anyway. Because of my work schedule, the soonest I can get in to see my primary care doctor is Wednesday. It's also $160 to see her, which I don't have right now, but she could bill me. I have all weekend free but no doctors are open. Would it be reasonable to go to the ER for something like this? I mean, it hurts everytime I walk, and itches like crazy. And I've got the time to wait. But, work is really gonna suck if I'm constantly worried about my anal pain instead of what I'm supposed to be doing. And what can I do for self-care for an infected anal area? Warm water baths? Epsom salts? Neosporin? steroid cream? etc? And is this something that was caused by anal sex, or is it just that it happens to be in that area? Any advice for me would be fabulous, or emotional support, or hugs, or even just sharing some experience of yours that this reminds you of...

I was reading a study a while back that showed that "seropositioning" - e.g. the neg guy tops the poz guy, but bottoms for neg guys ... was not an effective prevention strategy (around 15% reduction in risk, but not statistically significant). Exclusively topping was reasonably effective, maybe about as effective as monogamy. (around 50% reduction in risk). If anything ,it might be safer to bottom for poz on meds guys than "neg" guys who may be recently infected... just something to consider.

Could we get some free-form fields to enter other instant messengers or profile sites? I have a lot more that I"d love to list on there, but there are no slots to put them in...

The map doesn't show anything when I look at it - the entire map is missing. i'm using the latest google chrome on linux.

I was reading this article about "deaf wannabees" which is people who get off on pretending to be deaf, wearing hearing aids, or sometimes even intentionally deafening themselves. There's also the gainers, who get turned on by gaining weight. For some people things like gaining to the point of disease or immobility is what turns them on.

Got a message this morning inviting me to a gangbang. I politely declined, and later I message the bottom to ask how it went. He said it was a little awkward, and that he still hadn't blown his load. So I invited him over to breed me. We hung out and talked for about 45 minutes and then started with him fucking me. After about thirty minutes it was clear it wasn't working and he wasn't staying hard enough. I said, I think I should be fucking you. So then it turned into one of the hottest fuck sessions I'd ever had, six different positions, him riding me, me riding him, me fucking him, spanking him, slapping his balls. Quite a way to spend christmas eve :-)

Gave a three day load to the black bottom again and then felched it out of his hole and kissed him. Then got my hard cock back inside his hole with me on my back and him him riding it while he jacked off and shot all the way to my mouth. Afterwards, we had a nice chat about how he's going to be TA'ing for a class on sexuality and race. I told him I thought he'd be excellent at teaching that class ;-)

I'd love to have some breeding zone folks on my fetlife friends list and news feed ;-) Any of you on fetlife? I have the same name on there - kinkygradstudent ...