buddy. Ive had HIV since 1988. I got full blown AIDS in 1995. once I came out of my sickness and revived, I was still a mess. The disease left me with spinal cord damage and I cannot feel my feet and I walk with a bad limp.
Before all of that I was the STUD on the dance floor and I could fuck anybody I pleased.
It took me 10 years to get my mojo back. I was extremely self conscious of the way I walked. But Ill tell you this. I took a big deep breath and threw myself out there again.
Sometimes I run into hookups that dont like that Im not a marathon runner, and yeah they arent attracted to me. But many more bottoms have no problem with my slight disability and are perfectly happy being my boys.
The difference I made in myself is that I said "fuck it"
This is how I am. If you dont like me. someone else is right behind you in line that will like me. I market myself. I take good pics of my body and cock. and I became aggressive and available again.
People smell shyness. They smell fear. The can detect stage fright. Guys want excitement too. You have to teach yourself to get over your self consciousness and at least appear interesting and then youll see a change.