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What did it for me, and the effects seem to be permanent, was to wear a CB2000. There's a bit of a twist to this though. At the time I had a Canadian girlfriend and we played around with BDSM, she said she didn't trust me to behave when she wasn't with me. It was actually me who suggested I get a CB2000 and could wear it when I went out and send her photos before I went and after I got back home. The idea of me wearing it turned us both on and she suggested I become her oral slave and only serve her like that no matter how often she went out with other guys. She sent me a small padlock from Canada and when I was drunk one day I asked her the next time I went out which padlock I should use. We were playing her telling me how I was going to only ever perform orally for her from now on as she was playing with herself, and as she orgasmd told me "use my lock M ... please use my lock now" and that was that. I was kept locked up for 5 years while we had a distance relationship. She would visit me and behave like a total slut I would only ever kiss and lick her, strangely it became very loving because the pressure of sex was gone and I was always wanting to please her. She also moved over for 6 years and we lived together. The side effect now is that I cannot ever get hard no matter how or what I try. That relationship ended in 2012 and I still cannot ever get hard no matter who I am with or what I do.

I'm a brat. I do as I'm told which, as I like random outdoor sex, I never know what's really going to happen. If I'm told to get bent over the tree/bench/etc I just do as I'm told and take whatever's given. Sometimes I am asked if he should wear a condom and I always say "yes please", and occasionally my dreams come true and it's a more assertive type top who asks me for one and when I say I don't have any just tells me "tough, I'm having you anyway". Forces me to bend over and holds me down as he fucks me. Leaving me mildly struggling and begging and moaning "please Sir, not without a condom" until I'm slapped and told to STFU. It's even better on the odd occasion when there are two or three tops around at the same time and they all take turns holding me down and using me how they want.

Do as I'm told to do. Even better if something unexpected happens.

Is anything happening about this? I am willing to set up a Huddle for a closed group or a Google Group.

I'm interested too please. So count me in. Sounds like we need more tops lol

That's a hot one. Always hope something like that will happen to me

Thanks Eros, I'll see how the next date goes I must admit he was great, I just wish he hadn't have been asking me what I wanted in the middle of me satisfying him. I'd have been happy if he'd just said "I'm going to use your mouth to finish" - you know what I mean. We've kind of agreed on a once a week meet so far, that obviously depends on real-world getting in the way so it's a good aim. One thing that's bound to happen in a few weeks time is that there will be someone else turns up and wants to get involved. It'll be interesting to see what he does there. I've not been with a "proper top" I wanted to see again for over 30 years, just met some for very occasionally for one-off sessions, that guy really was dominating and aggressive, so maybe you're right. I think I'm more disappointed than I would have been if we hadn't talked it in messages before meeting. I'm kinda getting my head round it better now I've thought about things a couple of days.

Keep you're hands off. He's mine lol

I met a top last night for an outdoor scene. We'd exchanged a few messages during the couple of days prior to meeting and he was asking me what I wanted, what I liked etc. I kept telling him to please just use me as he wanted to and not to be asking what I wanted because I was there to satisfy whatever he wanted to do and however he wanted to use me, don't ask me what I wanted and not to accept me saying "no". It finished off with him saying "ok, in that case after you've sucked me and I'm ready to cum I'll finish deep inside you" When we met I was sitting on a bench in the woods and he walked up to me, undid his trousers and pushed my head down (lucky he had the right person there lol), he was a lot bigger than he looked in the photos haha. He gave me orders "lick my balls", bent over "lick my arse", "harder" all was going well. He lay down along the bench and told me to suck him, which I was doing and really enjoying pleasing him. Then I kind of lost momentum when he said "Where do you want me to cum? In your mouth or your arse?" I thought I'd already made it clear he wasn't to take "no" for an answer and just do with me as he wanted. I moaned and sucked him deeper and he asked me again. He asked me again. Then said "I'm going to cum" and he filled my mouth. I swallowed everything and loved it, I also kept on going gently to lick him clean and make sure he was empty. What I was really thinking when he asked me was "just pull my pants down, bend me over the bench and rape" We had a hug and he said he'd like to meet again (they always say that lol) I said to him "please don't ask me what I want next time, just tell me" and we left it there. He did message me this afternoon asking when we could meet again - woohoo - how can I train him to be more assertive and stop asking what I want.

Add me in, might not go, but I'd be interested

After joining here, I finally decided I needed to get out more. I've posted the odd add on Craigslist, but never really followed any of them through, but the urges have been getting stronger recently, so I finally agreed to go and meet someone who replied to an ad. We'd had a few email exchanges and while initially he said he wanted to do me bareback he did agree to wear a condom when I went round. After work in the evening I went to his place, he really was't my type at all, old - pushing 70, very fat, but I don't think he cared much. He made me strip and as agreed I was wearing tights for him (he'd already told me to so he could tear a hole in them and have me). He pushed me to my knees and just pushed his cock into my mouth so I was made to suck him. He got quite big and started to ram it down my throat, but it's been so long I was choking and gagging, it didn't stop him. After a while he had me lie on my back and squatted over my mouth making me rim him. After a few minutes he tells me to turn over and lie on my front, ripping a hole in my tights he starts to massage my hole with lube, not really entering with his fingers, just making me soft and wet and slippery. Sitting in an armchair, he pulls me up to my hands and knees and holding my head really drives into my mouth and down my throat, I'm getting totally into being his slave now and after a couple of minutes of being used like this I bed him "please, cum inside me", "where?", "please inside me, wherever you like, just fill me". Laughing he left the chair and pushed my head right to the back of the chair and into the cushion and pushed into me unprotected. He must have been close to coming because it only took him about 30 seconds of opening me hard that I felt him go really deep and start to pulsate in me. I was totally dripping when he pulled out. I got dressed and left. I don't know if I'll see him again, if he orders me back to his place I think I will probably go.