My name is Bruno and I want to share some story of my last sex club experience, I'm open for every single opinion I might receive here.
Yesterday, a couple hours ago actually, I've gone to a sex club for the 3rd time ever. I'm a stocky 21y guy, not really attractive to most ppl, but I found ppl that wanted to play with me. First I was cautious, been jerking off in front of ppl and not letting them touch me, battling my own shyness, but I also sucked some dick. Damn, I never felt so good, I love to suck dicks. Even though I'm not a sex machine, I know I'm a whore and that's my nature. I love bb, breeding, poz. I wasn't "clean" that day, so I decided to top, and apparently I'm not desirable as a top, but everyone wanted a piece of my ass. As I said before, the desire to be a whore is a natural thing, it comes every single day, hour, and no matter what I'm doing, I always think about dick, cum, piss. However, there's a thing I can't fight against called fear. I'm afraid of STDs. I live in Brazil, and we have free health care, but it might change in the future. Today some anon guy in the bath decided to open his hole in front of me, then he gave me a ripped condom thinking I was that dumb, so I left. I came back to the same place, proving I was dumb lol, due to being horny af, and he followed myself asking me to breed him, and it was automatic, I unwittingly started to fuck him raw and it felt so good.
Now I'm at home, and even though I'm jerking to the feeling and remembering everything with brighten eyes, I also want to get PEP in a couple hours. The reason I'm not doing PREP right now is because of toxicity, I got told it interacts badly with common meds like analgesics, it's bad for your kidney and might give you exclusive side effects that other PREP users might not get. In my head, doing PREP is like treating HIV and depending on medications for your whole life cuz I feel I'm a whore since I was 12, so that's not going to change ever. There were no direct influences, I just love dick, the taste of cum and I want to be breeded a lot. I want it to be part of my routine, I want to be breeded exaustly after college and work, then get home and take all the cum out of my cunt and swallow it.
And I apologize for any bad word/grammar, my language is Portuguese and I learned English just by reading the internet.