HornyGork

I sucked my first cock at an adult bookstore. I always had a few beers to get up my courage and to deal with the feelings that I was doing something wrong by feeling ‘gay’ thoughts. I lived a straight life and would’ve been horrified if anyone knew I liked to get sucked by guys. At first I’d go to bookstores to jack off watching other guys sucking each other. I’d look though the gloryholes at guys on their knees sucking cock and taking loads of cum. One night I finally got up the nerve and sucked a guy. No one said anything. I liked that. Total anonymity. No pretense. No flowers, candy or dinner. Just raw, primitive sex. No damned drama like with women. Geez, all the BS we have to go through with women just to have sex. I loved the sexual freedom in adult bookstores. No pretense. No inhibitions. Just cocks in mouths. Thrusting, moaning and cumming. It felt wonderful to feel another man’s cock in my mouth. I loved licking it and sucking it but I don’t know how good I was. I didn’t get feedback from the guys I sucked. They were too busy feeling waves of pleasure as my lips and tongue worshipped their hard cocks. it wasn’t until fairly recently (2 years ago) when I met a guy through silverdaddies. I had met a handful of guys online before but most were either strange, cold or scary. But when I met James I felt an immediate attraction. We met at a neutral place, a bar close to where I lived. When I saw him I felt so relieved. I felt comfortable like I had already knew him for a long time. We had a great conversation and after awhile I invited him to my house. He followed me and ended up in my bed. I really liked that he could talk about so many things. We got naked and everything was so natural. It was like we had been having sex forever. What a relief. I put on porn and we got high. Pot is such a wonderful aphrodisiac! We both sucked each other in all kinds of positions. I was so horny for cock I just wanted to be between his legs lapping at his crotch, thighs, balls and cock. I asked if he’d take pictures of me sucking him and he did. I still watch those photos and jack off tp them. They were our first time together. We met every 3 weeks or so ever since. He’s married so it’s harder for him to get free time. I fell in love with his cock. I never experienced such pleasure from sucking cock before. I felt so complete with his cock in my mouth. When the pandemic hit we had to stop seeing each other. The last time we had sex was March 5, 2020. But we still write about our fantasies and have had several FaceTimes. He is the sexual mirror image of myself. We have the same lusts and kinky thoughts. When it’s safe again we’re going to act out all the pent up fantasies we’ve had our entire lives. I’m looking forward to diving into his sex as often as I can. I want to feel him facefuck me and cum in my mouth as often as he wants. Several times when we were having sex he told me I was the best cocksucker he’s ever had. That meant a lot to me because I learned he has a lot more experience than I’ve had. It was a boost to my confidence to know I’m the best cocksucker he’s ever had especially with my limited experience. But I’ve had a lifetime of fantasizing about wondering what it would feel like to have my own cock sucked. When I was a bit more limber I often laid on my bed with my legs above me so I could jack off and spew my cum into my open mouth. I loved the feeling of my tongue, lips and throat getting covered with hot, thick creamy cum. I loved the taste of my cum and would often lick it off my fingers after jacking off. I know I absolutely love sucking James! It’s almost like a spiritual experience when I have his balls and cock in my mouth. It feels so perfect. Nothing could feel better that my mouth making love with his sex. I can’t get enough of his cock. I fantasize about sucking dozens of cocks one after another. After finding such a great sex buddy like James all I can think of is sucking cock. I feel like the rest of the world disappears while I’m swallowing balls and sucking cock. It’s that perfect. I really envy all the guys in these forums who have sucked tens of thousands of cocks. One guy wrote about sucking hundreds in a night at a club. I think the men who are the most aware and even advanced are those who are the most prolific cocksuckers.

I estimate that 90-95% of my space on cloud is porn. I wonder how much porn other people have in their cloud. My favorite porn scenes are cum eating and swallowing. Taking a guy’s semen in your mouth is the most intimate act ever.

I was just out of the army and going to night classes at college downtown. After class at 10pm I’d often stop at a convenience store to get a six pack and then drive to a local book store. I’d sit in the parking lot drinking beer and watching guys walk in and out of the bookstore. I was always nervous about being seen or going in and seeing someone I knew. I know. If they are in the bookstore they are probably looking for sex too. But I was living a ‘straight’ life and I was in relationships with women. One day I decided I wanted to suck a cock and feel cum spray into my mouth. I went to work and got off at 5pm. Then I drive to college for my first class at 530pm. After my last class at 10 I went to a bookstore on I45 South of Houston. It was one of my favorites. It was easy to get into without people watching. Like a lot of guys I would go to the magazine or videotape areas and look at the pictures. I’d hang out in the straight area at first and then if no one was looking I’d go to the gay area. I loved looking at guys sucking cock. And I especially loved guys eating cum. Tonight I decided to go to the back room and find a guy who I could get to cum in my mouth. Most bookstores were the same. A clerk at the front, a video and magazine area and the booth area. It was always so erotic to go to the back. It was always very dark or lit with red lights. Shadows of guys would line the hallways. Because I was nervous I’d always quickly find an open booth, walk in and leave the door slightly ajar. It was never more than a minute before I’d see fingers through the two gloryholes or having a guy was in to the booth and ask if I want company. Often times I’d unzip and push my cock through the gloryhole to be sucked. At first I was fascinated how guys like to suck cock and eat cum. But then I began to have more and more fantasies about sucking guys. Tonight I was on a mission. I wanted to suck a guy off. One guy came into my booth and we did the minimum talking. We ran our hands over each other’s crotches and take turns going to our knees to suck each other. Once we were turned on I asked him “do you have a place?” That’s a typical line I heard a lot in bookstores. He said he has an apartment and it was only 15 minutes away. We zipped up and we went to my van and sat in the front seat together. We shared a beer and we continued running our fingers over the other’s crotch. We got in our cars and I followed him to his apartment. We got to his parking lot and I walked slightly behind him. We got to his apartment and went directly to his bedroom. He didn’t have much furniture. But he did have a large bed. We stripped down and got into a 69. We did that awhile and then I moved my head into his stomach so my mouth was by his hard cock. I put it in my mouth and suckled on him. He was obviously liking what I was doing. I felt very excited that I was giving another guy so much pleasure. After a half hour of gently sucking him he began to shudder and moan. I knew from my pen orgasms he was reaching that magical point of no return. The next moment was bliss as spurts of his cum sprayed into my mouth, one after the other. Each one excited me more and more. Toward the end of his orgasm I just kept my mouth softly around his cock. I held his cum in my mouth and swirled my tongue through it. Although his cum tasted great I slowly let it ooze out of my mouth onto his cock and balls. We made some small talk and then I left. We talked about seeing each other again but we never did. I accomplished wanted to do that day. I sucked off a cock. I fantasized about it all day long. When it finally happened I was more than excited. I was transformed. I knew I’d always love sucking cock and feeling cum shoot into my mouth. But because I was in straight relationships living in a straight group of friends I haven’t sucked another guy to climax since that night. I’ve fantasized about it for decades but I always let fear hold me back. Fear of being exposed. Fear of my feelings of having sex with guys. And fear of catching something. Now, years later all I think about is sucking cock and wanting to be able to feel a guy cum in my mouth all the time. I met a guy two years ago after years of only sporadic meetings with guys. We were getting together for a year and a half every 7-10 days and sucking each other. He’s married and I’m divorced so it was harder for him to get away to be with me. I love his cock and balls and I could live in his crotch. It’s like a sexual amusement park to me. Just as I was planning to start having him cum in my mouth regularly the coronavirus pandemic hit and we became isolated. I’ve really missed sucking him and I fantasize about sucking him off all the time. We’ve stayed in touch by emailing each other the past 7 months. One time we FaceTimed. I love reading his emails. He talks about all his fantasies and learned he is as deviant as I am. We both want to try watersports and every other kind of sex together. He told me he’d love to taste my piss. I’d like him to spray me all over too and into my mouth. I told him I’m more sexually compatible with him than I’ve been with another one else I’ve ever known. I hope someday soon this virus will be over we could continue to meet. If you have any ideas how we could safely meet I’d appreciate it. I miss his cock so much. And there are so many sexual things we want to do together. I want to swallow a man’s cum for the first time in my life. I’d also love him to guck my ass too. (I’m new to this site and I’ve always been awkward about meeting safe, nice guys. I really would like to communicate with other guys who share my experiences and fantasies.)