About Turn...

[dirtypiglet]

Please bear with me guys, I'm NOT preaching - I want to write a little account of my life of bug chasing and how i'm pleased I actually never caught HIV even though it's what I thought i wanted...

I got into bug chasing a 3 years ago and became obsessed by it. I frequented sauna's (bath houses) regularly having BB sex with anyone who would put their cock up my ass most weekends. I took a huge amount of raw loads but never went for the HIV test. I also used BBRT to meet some hot guys to breed me. I avoided going for the HIV test because I didn't want to know but assumed I may most probably have HIV.

Recently, in December 2012 I met the man of my dreams (he was HIV NEG - i thought the man of my dreams would be poz) and insisted on safe sex which i obliged (and still do to this day).

I'm so pleased I never caught HIV because the man of my dreams is HIV NEG, i think this would have thrown a spanner in the works with sex etc if i was poz and he was neg (he has no tendancies towards bug chasing or becoming poz). We both went for a test this week as he wants to consider BB sex between us a monogomous couple, of which we are. I was shitting myself during the test thinking it would be poz but thankfully (never thought I'd say that) it came back negative.

As fun as bug chasing is, and YES i STILL fantasise about raw bb sex and watch bb porn etc, i'm suprised at how i have now gone completely the other way. We all have our thoughts and feelings about this so thought i'd share mine. I know it may seem pointless and i promise i'm not preaching. It's just food for thought.

[Guest GoodExercise]

Glad you found your man. Meanwhile, damn I miss visiting HQ and Signal when I travel to Sydney. We probably never fucked when I was there, though -- or I don't think you would have come back neg. Cheers.

[Guest JizzDumpWI]

piglet congrats on your relationship. seems like everything happens for a reason. Nice post and clearly from the heart.

[wood]

Please bear with me guys, I'm NOT preaching - I want to write a little account of my life of bug chasing and how i'm pleased I actually never caught HIV even though it's what I thought i wanted...

I got into bug chasing a 3 years ago and became obsessed by it. I frequented sauna's (bath houses) regularly having BB sex with anyone who would put their cock up my ass most weekends. I took a huge amount of raw loads but never went for the HIV test. I also used BBRT to meet some hot guys to breed me. I avoided going for the HIV test because I didn't want to know but assumed I may most probably have HIV.

Recently, in December 2012 I met the man of my dreams (he was HIV NEG - i thought the man of my dreams would be poz) and insisted on safe sex which i obliged (and still do to this day).

I'm so pleased I never caught HIV because the man of my dreams is HIV NEG, i think this would have thrown a spanner in the works with sex etc if i was poz and he was neg (he has no tendancies towards bug chasing or becoming poz). We both went for a test this week as he wants to consider BB sex between us a monogomous couple, of which we are. I was shitting myself during the test thinking it would be poz but thankfully (never thought I'd say that) it came back negative.

As fun as bug chasing is, and YES i STILL fantasise about raw bb sex and watch bb porn etc, i'm suprised at how i have now gone completely the other way. We all have our thoughts and feelings about this so thought i'd share mine. I know it may seem pointless and i promise i'm not preaching. It's just food for thought.

Great post, and I hope it makes some people think a bit more before they go out and go bug chasing. HIV is permenant, like it or not, and while some people may like bug chasing for a time, the HIV will still be there is you decide sex isnt such a priority anymore. Like you I dont judge who does, but there are other aspects to a happy life than sex. But I am happy you found someone you can be happy with.

[Whitebutt]

Thanks for sharing.

[LBRaw]

Congrats on your new focus and all the best for the two of you.

[Bttm2go]

I'm glad you found your guy. I did 23 years ago and have had a lot of fun. It's great to share your life with someone special. Hope you have a long happy relationship.

[neg4poz]

probably more effective in the right section...

I am "kinda" involved right now with a man I deeply care about who is neg and scared to hell of converting - it is putting a major major strain on our sexual endeavors because it hasnt changed my disposition of wanting to be poz to be able to gift... I have not had that conversation with him - how do you tell someone that you really care about and like that your not into the sex because they have no capability/probability of knocking you up? he is definetly aware that there is something wrong with the frequency of sex in our endeavors - he doesnt know why...

[LBRaw]

Neg4poz...... the two of you have incompatible stands ... he fears it, you want to live it.... don't you see the red flag in front of you that has "Dead End" printed all over it?

The conversation will probably do nothing other than kill off whatever remains of your relationship.

[not_sure_bb]

glad youre happy. enjoy it

[neg4poz]

LBRaw thanX for your reply...

its even more complicated than that... he has professed his love for me - I invested a lot of time thus far because he has great qualities - and I like him - I have grown to love him - but I cant say that I am "IN" love with him - yet there iis something about all his good qualities and how much I like him that keeps me fostering the relations we are having... this is really difficult - I dont see him as a dead end - and I have shared a lot of extreme kinks with him and he is definetly a pig - he is actually the one who tries to initiate much much more pigginess into our endeavors - he wants SM - Bondage - dirty hole spit snot piss and BB are already on the table - but I just havent guaged how far I can push the envelope...

[rawjock]

If he's the one initiating those more piggy things, then it sounds like you are being invited to push the envelope - that much you know already. As to how far....maybe in your role play no doesn't always mean no and that's the limit pushing aspect, I don't know. But ask yourself this - if he said no and REALLY meant it, would you know the difference? If so, then the two of you share kind of trust that let's you just start pushing until you hear that no - then back off a tiny bit. It may not be "no" forever - as even more trust grows between you in time.

probably more effective in the right section...

I am "kinda" involved right now with a man I deeply care about who is neg and scared to hell of converting - it is putting a major major strain on our sexual endeavors because it hasnt changed my disposition of wanting to be poz to be able to gift... I have not had that conversation with him - how do you tell someone that you really care about and like that your not into the sex because they have no capability/probability of knocking you up? he is definetly aware that there is something wrong with the frequency of sex in our endeavors - he doesnt know why...

[fuckboy20]

To be fair, "Dirtpiglet" you were bugchasing. What do you expect. Bug chasing is probably a bigger gamble and risk than just barebacking and taking loads. Because you actually seek high viral load tops or guys that you know are poz so you can become poz. You were trying to bug chase for whatever reason and probably not the right reasons. So you aren't really preaching you are just sharing the thoughts of a bug chaser who chased and turned around and did safe sex and found a neg lover to be with. That's good for you. I did not quite bug chase before I became poz. I almost did but before I could even consider it I was poz already. I wasn't bug chasing or trying to get poz. I was having bareback sex because I love the feeling of raw cock up my ass or my raw cock in another man's ass. I love the feeling of having all of a man inside me with no barriers and the true bonding or true sluttiness of it. The freedom of it. That's what it was for me (and still is) freedom not forced or trying to be poz.

My biggest fear of barebacking was that because I'm into leather that a Sir wouldn't except me since I figured most Sir's were neg or safe only. God how I was naive back then but I met a poz leather top and he alleviated me of it. And as for finding a relationship or dating. Yes it has been a little awkward. I have to tell my status otherwise I'm a criminal even if the other guy never asks. Even though I've started topping there are many who will never want to take my poz dick. So yes dating or trying to find a relationship and being poz is tricky.

However, I've always believed that regardless of who I am and what I am whether I'm poz, barebacking, or whatever there are so many people in this world I'll be able to find someone to accept me and love me for who I am and not care about my status or be poz. And yes, even though I've had neg guys fuck me bare..I still have gotten some stigma from some neg tops and some get off on that. But now I've decided to just be honest about being poz and barebacking and completely. That and I've found a poz daddy who does care. And I'll tell you. As rough as it is for anyone finding someone, add being gay, into leather/pig sex/poz if someone like me were to find someone than that not only makes me a fucking winner but them.

The harder it is to be accepted and the more struggles and judgement you face from people. Well the easier it is to filter through that useless crap and find what's right for you. At least that's how it's worked for me.

Glad things worked out for you though