I don't wanna be Poz (yet!)

[Bottomlad]

This post has got me lost now and confused 

[NegggFaggg]

You should post the video duuudeee

[Txyyxxxb]

Apologies for that. My accounts kept reaching the daily posting limit and couldn't be bothered to keep making new accounts. 

Anyway, with regards to the meet yesterday. I got cold feet. I didn't go. 

In regards to my health and how I'm feeling today, symptoms: sore throat is much better. Yesterday I couldn't drink beverages, plain water would feel "fizzy" at the back of my throat. Today I can drink just fine. Cough yesterday had a lot of flem and mucus and when I say a lot, I mean A LOT! I guess that's more of the throats way of naturally healing itself. Today I have far less mucus at the back of my throat and also my nose as well. Besides that, I don't have any diarrhea or burping anymore. Temperature has also stabilised. I no longer feel randomly cold for no reason. Night sweats are also not there anymore. No more headaches. Energy levels are good but rest is still important for me to get back to 100% asap so no more gym until then. And this is all within 5 days of my encounter with the tranny.

Whether I think I am Poz or not. I'm still not sure. I hope not. What makes me skeptical is that I have deepthroated before but I have never got my throat rearranged in several places by doing it. I believe either the wounding of my throat made it easier for bacteria to form and that coupled with the cold weather of winter made me sick or her cum which may have been toxic made me sick. That I am 100% certain about! Whatever it was the encounter with her caused it but whether it was because she was HIV+ that I don't know.

[Txyyxxxb]

On 11/23/2019 at 2:40 PM, Pozlover1 said:

I was taking loads for years when AIDS came out so I assumed I had it. And with no cure why get tested? 

Your case is different, you can get tested and go on PrEP.

Or go ahead and get it and start stressing over new and different things. Your choice.

Just make a conscious decision. 

This one guy may be lying, and frozen cum cannot have live HIV in it. 

You will almost certainly get it real good in that bath house. 

Frozen Poz cum is debatable. Some guys say yes the virus will still exist others say no. However, the guy was Poz himself and from what he says he's not on meds. In the screenshot he shows me a 12 second video which he deletes where he is verbally pozzing some guy saying shit like you want that Poz cock? 

He was Poz. He wouldn't say those things if he wasn't. 

If anyone wants his contact details. He's a male escort from London UK so.. you can PM me if anyone thought those screenshots were hot and want to do it themselves lol. 

 

Edited November 24, 2019 by Txyyxxxb

[Txyyxxxb]

On 11/23/2019 at 4:01 PM, Bottomlad said:

This post has got me lost now and confused 

I know. Me too. 

I didn't go to the meet. I managed to regather my senses and think I will.. just wait for the flu to subside and maybe get tested? I'm already say, 75% better.

Edited November 24, 2019 by Txyyxxxb

[viking8x6]

Txyyxxxb, sounds like you need to calm down and get yourself sorted out. Conversion isn't the kind of decision to be making on impulse or insufficient information. And to repeat what others have been saying (we keep saying it because it seems like you're not listening), you come across as profoundly (and I might go so far as to say willfully) ignorant. Educate yourself!

I'll start: IF your escort was HIV poz, your chances of getting it in a single oral receptive encounter would have been about 1 in 200. That's pretty slim. So, wait your six weeks, get yourself tested, and decide what you really want to do with your (sex) life.

[Txyyxxxb]

3 hours ago, viking8x6 said:

Txyyxxxb, sounds like you need to calm down and get yourself sorted out. Conversion isn't the kind of decision to be making on impulse or insufficient information. And to repeat what others have been saying (we keep saying it because it seems like you're not listening), you come across as profoundly (and I might go so far as to say willfully) ignorant. Educate yourself!

I'll start: IF your escort was HIV poz, your chances of getting it in a single oral receptive encounter would have been about 1 in 200. That's pretty slim. So, wait your six weeks, get yourself tested, and decide what you really want to do with your (sex) life.

I wouldn't say ignorant. I know the chances are small, there's guys here who have taken Poz loads and are still neg. I get it. But I'm just going off what I feel.

To fall sick, extremely sick and almost having the premonition of it happening after being throat fucked hard, which inevitably caused wounding or sores or whatever.. and then swallowing HIV cum (I'm not sure about that yet) on top of that WILL increase the chances of getting the virus significantly.

I'm just panicked and trying to make the best of it. And sometimes when you're trying to make the best, you make even more impulsive bad decisions. Which, thankfully I dodged a bullet last night. 

I am getting better now though.

One question I will admit ignorance to, is testing. Considering the fact that the encounter was 5 days ago. Should I get tested now or in six weeks time? Because I know sometimes it takes time for the virus to show up in a test. 

[Txyyxxxb]

Also you're right. I need to re-evaluate what I want from my sex life.

I don't want HIV. I have been an inactive member of the forum for a while. There was a time where I was big time into this fetish. But for the longest time now, I managed to "come clean" and haven't looked back since.

The only reason I came back to the forum was because of this encounter I had, which lead me to be fearful, which in turn the fear lead me to the fetish I once had. Crazy how a fetish never really goes away. It's like a negative feedback loop on your mind that cannot completely go away. 

But yeah I already know what I want in my life. I don't want to be Poz. Why be Poz? The fetish is hot for a minute when you're bed bound and horny but when you get up and actually have to live life a Poz man, I question if the reality is the same which we all know isn't.. that's why many chasers get cold feet when push comes to shove. We all know, it's isn't what it's made out to be. 

I want to socialise, meet people, have fun, being safe you can still have a lot of fun, then eventually find a girl and settle down with family. Being Poz makes 99% of that more difficult. 

[Pozlover1]

That makes sense

[Txyyxxxb]

80% better. All symptoms healed except for some minor wheezy coughing and a bit of runny nose.