Looking for BRUTAL edge play Tops in the SF Bay Area

[SFRubberLeather]

Need to connect up with a BRUTAL edge play Top in the SF Bay area. I have a need to be forced chemmed/sedated (just chemmed/sedated enough so I am completely aware of everything & will remember everything the next day) but can not resist the Top while he uses me in no safeword/no mercy/no limits/consensual-nonconsensual torture, toilet & raw cumdump session(s). He also uses various gasses & additional chems to keep me in this sedated/compliant state for as long as he needs me to be kept under his control.

Also looking to for an expert in tubing, want to expand into NG tubes & intubation (already into catheters & bardex/colon tubes), so ALL my holes will be totally controlled in the above training session(s). In addition he trains me to become his TOTAL/COMPLETE toilet/bastille pig. He also totally restrains me at times force feeding me his shit.

Checkout my profile if you need more info about me....

This is NOT some wank off fantasy mind trip I'm looking for, this is a VERY serious need I have, so PLEASE, only respond if you're a Top who's seriously interested in using me in this manner......