First time fucked. Unexpected and shocking

[BBBxCumDumpster]

13 hours ago, norefusal said:

when it comes to sex: "life is a banquette and most poor suckers are starving to death!" 🐷

Probably my favorite movie of all time!  I watch it when I'm feeling blue!

[Teeslad70]

I've been on a bit of a downer recently if I'm honest.

It disgusts me when I think about what I did. Piss in my face and letting it run in and out of my mouth. I think I did it because I am a worthless person.

But despite that feeling, I just felt valued in that moment to receive. Taking whatever comes. 

It doesn't make sense to me and it's really playing on my mind:(

[Teeslad70]

Sorry for turning this into something a bit deep and depressing.

[RubberAustria]

5 hours ago, Teeslad70 said:

It disgusts me when I think about what I did. Piss in my face and letting it run in and out of my mouth. I think I did it because I am a worthless person.

No, you are not a worthless person. You are just trying new sexual things that are not forbidden by law!! So relax. Piss play: some like it in the face, some on the body, some forced drinking, some up in the asss. Some like the smell or taste. It seems that you are into degradation. So enjoy it!  Last weekend I was  at a piss party in Munich and saw a lot of action. But I also saw that we were nice normal guys that were just talking and joking during the refill of the bladder. Big hug

[Teeslad70]

21 hours ago, RubberAustria said:

No, you are not a worthless person. You are just trying new sexual things that are not forbidden by law!! So relax. Piss play: some like it in the face, some on the body, some forced drinking, some up in the asss. Some like the smell or taste. It seems that you are into degradation. So enjoy it!  Last weekend I was  at a piss party in Munich and saw a lot of action. But I also saw that we were nice normal guys that were just talking and joking during the refill of the bladder. Big hug

Thank you. I just wish I understood myself.

[versamarried]

21 hours ago, Teeslad70 said:

Thank you. I just wish I understood myself.

It may take a while and important to not rush or force understanding prematurely. Processing through the tough emotions helps to point you to the right conclusions.

It was a good 30 long years of exploring before I could finally understand my bisexuality and kinks. There were definitely moments where I pushed my boundaries a bit too far and other times my frustrations were on times I settled for less and felt unfulfilled. It was a good 10 years after having sex with men that I was also able to clearly understand that with men I am a 100% total bareback bottom.

[Teeslad70]

So it was exactly a year ago when I was fucked for the first time as described in the first post of this thread. I didn't ask for it, I probably never would, but received it willingly and it set me off on quite a journey.

In recent weeks I have been far more willing to have my cock sucked when cruising, although my preference is still to be the cocksucker. I think the reason is partly because I can picture that student sucking me, and I like to imagine he is still meeting others. At the very least he will remember his first.

I don't seem to be able to cum when receiving oral. I always have to finish myself for whoever is waiting for the load. I'm not sure why this is, as I always get a guy shooting down my throat. Something else I need to understand about myself.

[Teeslad70]

Having thought about this overnight, I suppose it's telling that I get more pleasure from making another man cum, than cumming myself. I wonder wether this is common. It might just be me 

I mean I do enjoy cumming, but it isn't my aim when I meet. 

[versamarried]

I can relate and I think it plays into my cuckold kink as well. I feel totally happy and satisfied when a top uses and cums deep in me without me cumming at all. I absolutely also love the thought of my wife having other men cum in her holes (has happened once at least).

Over time it has become more and more difficult for me to finish with my wife because I am more into her orgasm and the only way I can cum with her is to imagine her with another guy or me being a total slut for strange men seeding my neg hole with their poz cum.

[Teeslad70]

2 hours ago, versamarried said:

I can relate and I think it plays into my cuckold kink as well. I feel totally happy and satisfied when a top uses and cums deep in me without me cumming at all. I absolutely also love the thought of my wife having other men cum in her holes (has happened once at least).

Over time it has become more and more difficult for me to finish with my wife because I am more into her orgasm and the only way I can cum with her is to imagine her with another guy or me being a total slut for strange men seeding my neg hole with their poz cum.

That would get me off too!

[descartes70817]

On 5/9/2024 at 8:24 AM, Teeslad70 said:

Having thought about this overnight, I suppose it's telling that I get more pleasure from making another man cum, than cumming myself. I wonder wether this is common. It might just be me 

I mean I do enjoy cumming, but it isn't my aim when I meet. 

I've noticed the look of ecstasy in the bottom's eyes when they know they got my load inside them, so I'm betting that most, if not all, bottoms really love it when their top is cumming inside them.

[Teeslad70]

What great weather. Perfect for some more outdoor fucking which I received today.

Not planned like before. Went with daddy to a cruising spot which was busier than normal. Got on my knees to suck a few cocks and it just happened. Watched by daddy and a few others. God what a time!

No showers to finish with this time, as it was a very different experience.

[Teeslad70]

It certainly makes me feel a lot younger 

[Teeslad70]

Like the urge for cock, depression also seems to come in waves.

Sucked a couple of cocks today, but feeling quite down about it.

Life!

[BBBxCumDumpster]

On 5/19/2024 at 12:34 PM, Teeslad70 said:

Like the urge for cock, depression also seems to come in waves.

Sucked a couple of cocks today, but feeling quite down about it.

Life!

Feeling likewise today.