First time fucked. Unexpected and shocking

[Teeslad70]

Sucked Daddy and another guy this afternoon, but my mood seems to be following the weather:(

[Teeslad70]

The sun definitely brings people out to play. I was fucked hard over a car bonnet this afternoon by a guy in his 40s. Seemed very exposed which just made it more exciting.

I think I'm past the point of counting how many cocks I've had up my arse. I know it's not that many, but it still feels like a lot to me.

Am I a whore yet?

[Alaric]

3 hours ago, Teeslad70 said:

The sun definitely brings people out to play. I was fucked hard over a car bonnet this afternoon by a guy in his 40s. Seemed very exposed which just made it more exciting.

I think I'm past the point of counting how many cocks I've had up my arse. I know it's not that many, but it still feels like a lot to me.

Am I a whore yet?

You really should  take the advice from others to get on prep and routine testing. I look really healthy, but having a woodland meet with me might see you getting a tattoo. You're throwing the dice every time, one day it'll come up double-six.

[Teeslad70]

It's up and down all the time for me really, and not in a good way. I just don't know which way to turn.

[norefusal]

2 hours ago, Teeslad70 said:

It's up and down all the time for me really, and not in a good way. I just don't know which way to turn.

you yourself hold the key. 

if you are doing all this because it's fun and you're enjoying the pleasure it brings: then take @Alaric's advice and act responsibly, take control and be a proud bottom pig. and yes, by most people's standards: getting fucked by a stranger over a car bonnet in broad daylight = you've embraced your inner whore 😜welcome to the club

however, if you feel you have no control over this compulsive behavior and hate yourself for it afterward, than it's probably a trauma response from past abuse and this is not the way to confront it and you should probably take a break or scale back. 

so just ask yourself: why am i doing this? and then act accordingly. 

[Teeslad70]

1 hour ago, norefusal said:

you yourself hold the key. 

if you are doing all this because it's fun and you're enjoying the pleasure it brings: then take @Alaric's advice and act responsibly, take control and be a proud bottom pig. and yes, by most people's standards: getting fucked by a stranger over a car bonnet in broad daylight = you've embraced your inner whore 😜welcome to the club

however, if you feel you have no control over this compulsive behavior and hate yourself for it afterward, than it's probably a trauma response from past abuse and this is not the way to confront it and you should probably take a break or scale back. 

so just ask yourself: why am i doing this? and then act accordingly. 

Thank you.

[Teeslad70]

I'm trying to take a step back from all this for a while. See if I can resist the call. Maybe spend some proper healthy time in the sun. Restore my balance and maybe my dignity.