First time fucked. Unexpected and shocking

[Teeslad70]

No luck. I always seem to hit a wall at this time of year. I get bad depression which just feeds these urges.

Any tips? I'm so tempted by chems but no idea what I'm doing.

[Teeslad70]

Sunny day today, so caught a couple of cocks to suck whilst out cruising

Both older guys, who certainly enjoyed my attentions and made me feel good for once.

I am a cock whore.

[chargedodger]

first time getting fucked SHOULD be a bit scary!Starts trhe heart pounding and develops EXPECTATIONS that sex should not be pedestrian impassionate thing.I was a clueless lad but something inside me came alive as a result of that first seduction and breeding and continues to motivate me sexually to this day!:)

[Teeslad70]

2 hours ago, chargedodger said:

first time getting fucked SHOULD be a bit scary!Starts trhe heart pounding and develops EXPECTATIONS that sex should not be pedestrian impassionate thing.I was a clueless lad but something inside me came alive as a result of that first seduction and breeding and continues to motivate me sexually to this day!:)

It's totally changed me, I think. The last year or so has been a real rollercoaster of feelings.

[Teeslad70]

Just had some unexpected cock in a layby on my way home. A good load down my throat to set me up for the evening.

Sometimes it's better when you don't really try to find it 🙂

[Teeslad70]

Just over a year ago I was fucked by a friend of my "daddy's" on a boat. I've been put in direct contact with him and am quite excited by it. He's 30 miles away, but I live in hope of being his little whore. He seems quite keen in his messages, but I don't want to build up my expectations only to get depressed again.

[Teeslad70]

God, it's cold outside, but I feel very warm inside.

I met up with my friend in Sunderland today. Started with a few drinks in a pub, just chatting. Had to be discreet, but again he wanted to know about my past.

Got to the point where we went to a quiet place so I could suck him. There was a proper storm blowing, but it didn't stop me getting on my knees. God, I'd missed it.

He wants more. I'm willing. My hands have only just warmed up enough to type. I'm hoping to visit him again soon.

[Teeslad70]

Another winter dip in my mental health. The weather was a lot better in Sunderland yesterday, but no action for me.

I met up again with my Sunderland friend for drinks. Some hot chat and I made it clear I wanted his cock. Unfortunately neither of us were in a car as we were drinking, and as the weather was better we were unable to find anywhere I could safely suck his cock without being seen. The place we used previously had too many people around surprisingly.

I asked about his boat where I got fucked last year, but it turns out it wasn't his, but a friend's he had borrowed.

So no cock for me.

[Teeslad70]

Fucked today for the first time in 2025. In a guy's house, and he watched as my Sunderland friend fucked me. I sucked both of them.

It is getting longer between meets, but I feel I am just letting it happen to me. I just want to give up all control.

I'm a bit worried about where this will take me, but I want to go there.

[Teeslad70]

Why am I so fucking depressed?

[Falls727]

Once you’ve had cock up your ass you are a slave for life. The feeling of the pounding and then the rich, creamy, hot reward pumped deep inside your colon is enough to send you over the edge. I love when a top will felch my hole after and then share his seed with me. The smells and the tastes wreak of filthy gay sex. Holy fuck!! You are so lucky to have begun your journey as a cock slut. I hope your have many more experiences where you get your ass filled with that amazing juice!!

[Teeslad70]

You are right. I am a slave to it. I still get the highs, but the lows are getting lower.

I love that feeling of being the one to get a man to cum, but sometimes I wonder if I've taken a wrong turn somewhere in my life?

[Falls727]

44 minutes ago, Teeslad70 said:

You are right. I am a slave to it. I still get the highs, but the lows are getting lower.

I love that feeling of being the one to get a man to cum, but sometimes I wonder if I've taken a wrong turn somewhere in my life?

I am so sorry you are feeling so depressed. Please don’t suffer alone. Find someone to talk to. I know you don’t know me, but I’ve spent my career listening to people and helping them. If you want to send a personal message I am here to listen. No pressure! I’ve suffered with depression for years and it’s not fun. I am ER nurse. Best of luck to you.