Mysterious faggot trance

[CumdumpAmsterdam]

I've talked about this subject before but now I have decided to discuss it openly with you. Because I don't hear or read about it anywhere at  a forum or other websites. Not even among the real hardcore faggots.  It's about some kind of trance I've been falling into during cumdums. It has been happening much more often lately.

After work I go to the same rest area every day in 'active faggot times'. When the bus arrives, I walk from the bus stop to a picnic bench. While walking I take my first sniff of poppers. I immediately feel my throat and shoulders relax. My body already knows what is going to happen. I discreetly dig into my crotch because my penis is trying to get hard. Of course, without success. I have been locked since November last year. The cage is doing its work. Sexual frustration makes me entering a faggot stage without shame or embarrassment.

After smoking my joint and frying my faggot brain with poppers I walk into the overgrown area at the back of the rest area. I'm always being triggered by the sound of a belt being unbuckled. For me, it is linked to sperm consumption so my mouth opens and my tongue comes hanging out. Making it clear I'm available. They usually start fucking my throat as soon as I get on my knees in front of them.  After a couple of strokes I enter this peaceful and satisfying trance-like state-of-mind. My throat relaxes completely and that's the point where my throat changes into an open and public cunt. Throat slime production starts to kick in. Lubricating his cock and the cock sleeve it is fucking. My faggot brain is shutting down quickly. I feel my throat adapting to his cock and his way of thrusting. In this trance, all what's left of me is my throat serving its true purpose: being a sperm drain. 

I stay in this cock-zombie state for a certain amount of time after the man that caused it has long left. Still on my knees with an open, slimy cunt. Ready and available for next use. Giving the other Men the opportunity to mount me also. I still need to clock the time between being used and waking up but I'm guessing it is about 10 minutes. When the next man is done with me, the 10 minutes start again... and again... until I haven't been used for about 10 minutes. I really wake up from the trance. Finding myself alone, still on my knees, throat fucked open, burping up semen. I know i had a couple of good throat fucks when there is a curtain of throat-slime hanging off my beard, slowly dripping onto my shirt.  I simply endure 'the male rut' during this mysterious faggot-cock-trance, accepting the cock thrusting down my throat, waiting for the sperm being dumped down the drain.

I can't be the only one entering this trance-like state during cumdumps. I really want to know more about it! So speak up my fellow faggots! Someone else recognizing this phenomenon?

[CumdumpAmsterdam]

Just had a good night sleep and I think I already know where this is coming from. A couple of months ago I started to train the hypnosis trick from FagMaster where you stare at a cock pic en tick your fingers on the palm of your hand. But I only train for it for 2 weeks and it was months ago. I do still tick the palm of my hand when I arrive at the rest area. Could this be the reason? Can it be it is not a trance but hypnosis?

[CumdumpAmsterdam]

This topic doesn't seem to be very popular. Not a problem at all but it feels strange to me because it has such a big impact on my life as a cumdump. I'm amazed by it! I had no idea it would have such an effect. Again, it can't be that I'm the only one experiencing this, can it? (am I the only fag in the village? hahaha)

To finish this post and moving on, I'll have one more comment for documentation reasons. Perhaps in the future there will be another faggot who experiences the same thing as me and is also looking for answers. I hope it finds some answers in this post.

I've been testing out this trance-like state I have been experiencing a bit these couple of days: arriving at the rest area without flicking my hand and the next day I did flick my hand. The third day I started without and flicked my hand halfway the evening. The tests made it certain: it is indeed the hypnosis I talked about in my previous comment. 

I experience it as being in a 'dreamy' state. There is only one extreme focus. All inhibitions disappear. But still aware of everything happening in a blurry kind of way. The feeling of happiness I always experience is twice as intense. Zoning in and out of this blur from sheer happiness during use. 

I did put up my phone once on a sheltered spot recording myself to be able to check wether I remembered all that what happened later. Thank god I remembered the amount of men using me. Otherwise, it would be difficult to keep track of how many loads I've had this year. I have to keep in mind that this may also change if I continue the hypnosis training and probably make the effect stronger.

The video I made of myself also brought me insight of my behavior during the hypnosis. If I had to describe my behavior: Actively looking but calm and almost confident in attitude. Offering myself to every man in sight, getting on my knees with my mouth open. There was no room for doubt about what I was for. Some men walked away but most men looked around if anyone else was there and unbuckled their belt. As I mentioned in the original post, I would stay in this hypnosis for a while after use. It turned out to be around 17 minutes. Resetting the clock every time I got used until not being used for more than that 17 minutes. In the video I could see myself get on my feet and walk towards my phone to check the video like nothing happened. 

The next step is to investigate how it affects my daily training routine getting into the hypnosis at home while fucking my throat on my dildos. And I will pick up the hypnosis training again. Let's see how deep this can get. When anyone is interested in the results, DM me 😉

[blackrobe]

I wouldn't discount simply sliding into subspace. 

Like hypnosis, daydreaming, etc. subspace is a trance-like altered state of consciousness that experiences and stimuli can help us access. Maybe hypnosis greased the wheels, maybe not. Everyone has a baseline level of susceptibility and for some people it's easy to make the slide into trance. Wanting to be in trance is a BIG part of getting there. 

 

[408curious]

On 4/18/2024 at 9:23 PM, CumdumpAmsterdam said:

Just had a good night sleep and I think I already know where this is coming from. A couple of months ago I started to train the hypnosis trick from FagMaster where you stare at a cock pic en tick your fingers on the palm of your hand. But I only train for it for 2 weeks and it was months ago. I do still tick the palm of my hand when I arrive at the rest area. Could this be the reason? Can it be it is not a trance but hypnosis?

Could explain more of this hypnosis?