From Breeder to Bottomless Pit - My Craving Flipped

[AltarOfPleasure]

There’s something I’ve been craving more and more, and I figured this was the only place that would actually get it.

I wasn’t always like this. I was a top for most of my life—breeding guys every chance I could, chasing that high of dumping my load inside and watching it leak back out of some sloppy hole. That hunger to breed, to mark someone from the inside… it drove me hard.

But somewhere along the way, it flipped.

It started when I got more into stretching. At first it was just about opening myself up, chasing that deep stretch, but I started using leftover cum as lube—slicking up with it, pushing deeper toys in. And something about that started to rewire me.

The more I opened up with cum inside me, the more I wanted to hold it. Keep it. Not leak. My body started to learn it—training itself to take more, to seal up tighter, to absorb everything I was given.

Now? That’s the obsession. It’s not just about getting fucked—it’s about retention. Plugging up, training, stretching with purpose so I can take more… and not let it go. Walking around fully loaded, my guts heavy, sealed tight, training myself to absorb it all.

Some loads hit harder than others. You can feel it when the right one breeds you—it lingers. Their cum sticks. Stays heavier, hotter, thicker. I’ve had loads that sat inside me all day, even after I’ve forgotten their face, still sinking deeper like they were meant to stay.

That’s the craving now.

Same hunger, same need. It just flipped to the other side of the cock.

I don’t just want to get fucked. I want to keep it. To fully absorb every drop. That’s what I chase now.

I want it to merge into me. Become me.

Curious if anyone else here has felt that shift too…

When it stops just being about the fuck, and starts being about what the load leaves behind.

[SissySeanetteCarey]

I too always want that load inside me as long as I can keep it.  Riding cock and feeling that cock harder more then throb and pulse and fill me full of hot stickey CUM.  Ohhh it excites me just talking about it. I also love to hold a huge load or 2 in my mouth and savor the delicious taste and texture.  So YES BABY I DO    BREED ME AND I BREED YOU   seanette55 protonmail com   Buffalo/Tonawanda, NY 14150

[AltarOfPleasure]

1 hour ago, SissySeanetteCarey said:

I too always want that load inside me as long as I can keep it.  Riding cock and feeling that cock harder more then throb and pulse and fill me full of hot stickey CUM.  Ohhh it excites me just talking about it. I also love to hold a huge load or 2 in my mouth and savor the delicious taste and texture.  So YES BABY I DO    BREED ME AND I BREED YOU   seanette55 protonmail com   Buffalo/Tonawanda, NY 14150

Mmm, I love knowing others feel it too… That shift from just getting stuffed to fully needing to keep every drop. It’s not just sex anymore—it’s transformation.