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My journey


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About two years ago, I got into bare backing.  Love the feel of a hot load up my ass. I was still selective and would only play with guys who, "said" they were undetectable.  Unlike many here, I was not looking to get bugged, but I guess that's when it happens. 

I am not sure if I have been gifted yet.  I had some blood work done, and found out I have Hep C though.  Running another test to se if its active.  I don't shoot up so if it is active, pretty sure it came from a poz top. Dr. is retesting to see if Hep is active, and also for HIV.  Dr. says if bugged, it may just not be showing yet.  I know my body is feeling something.  Have been feeling fatigued, and running a 100+ fever for 3 days now.  Could it be the Fuck Flu?  From what I see guys bodies react different when first bugged.

Several have asked how I feel about being converted, and honestly I don't know.  I loved the suspense of knowing that it could happen to me, and if converted, that will be lost.  On the other hand, it would open up a new world for worry free sex.  I'm a total bottom but several other bottoms told me it has opened up a new world of being a top, so they could spread their toxic seed.   Will that happen to me, not really sure.

I guess when it comes down to it, I'm excited about the possibility of being converted.  Thanks to all that have privately chatted me regarding it., and your blog feedback is welcome also. I will continue this blog as my journey continues!

 

So they journey continues on 2/27.  Went for my Hep retest.  If its a recent infection, being retested for HIV in a month.

 

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And the journey continues.  The HIV test was negative, but still in the window for transmission.  My body is fighting something, not sure if HIV, Hep or something totally different.  Seeing the Dr again today, and likely she will order more blood work, which hasn't shown a lot yet.

As I said, I was never really a chaser, playing only with Prep or undetectable guys.  Always knew there was still a chance of being gifted.  That thrill was powerful, but not as powerful as thinking that I was gifted.  Proud to say that I now consider myself a chaser! Unfortunately the Dr had me on antibiotics which, well lets just say, kept me on the run.  I know my body is weak, and would be the perfect time for conversion, but don't like to play when possibly dirty.  I know some guys like that, but just not my thing.

I have chatted with several gifters, and was really excited about one from ATl.  He has a beautiful cock, and a VL n the millions.  He also wants a partner to settle down with.  Call me old fashioned, but I would like that too.  Its not a requirement, but would be nice. I also want to at least know who my gifter is.  That at least creates a bond, rather than just being 1 of 10m possible guys at a bathhouse.

I talked on phone with the guy in ATL twice for over an hour each time  The convos were hit and miss.  He has the "golden seed" and he knows it.  Says he has gifted hundreds. We actually talked about a relationship.  That's where it got a bit odd. He also likes pussy and asked if he could still breed it if we partnered.  As long as Im getting it, told him I had no issues with it.  Then it got odd as he said he likes to, and has created several poz children.  I kinda draw the line here.  For those of us seeking, that's one thing, but to bring an HIV poz child into the world just isn't right in my book.

I have also chatted other gifters, but not sure how serious they are.  Ill keep trying though.  Thanks for all your comments here, and hope you keep following and encouraging me. 

And so the journey continues....

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