ADevoutSinner
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Psychology or theories behind bug chasing?
ADevoutSinner replied to a topic in Making The Decision To Bareback
I've never considered myself a "chaser" because the idea of becoming infected horrifies me. But I went through a period of occasional raw sex, including as the bottom, and I think like some others have said its partially about controlling the fear and anxiety of infection. I never knowingly asked someone I knew who was positive to fuck me, but after having raw sex I would wonder why I was doing it. In some ways it was a fantasy of being in love, in a relationship with someone where it was 'safe' to go raw cuz they 'loved me'. Realizing that behind the fantasy I was not getting my real needs met, I did some work n myself and how I was having sex to make changes. But I can imagine some guys eroticize the anxiety by seeing themselves as chasers. I watched a documentary called 'The Gift' about chasers and read later that for many of these guys heavy drug use was involved (which the movie did not address). What was interesting was how some guys would keep bottoming raw but never get tested - testing meant they would know if they seroconversion which would end the fantasy of "maybe this time I'll get it". So some bug chasing is just sexual compulsion with a 'twist'. -
I have a bud I play with who's all about my ass. He eats it out, he uses a dildo (or two), he fucks me, he eats me some more. Hell fuck me til I cum but then keep on fucking me. I had to get used to it at first, take a break and what not. To be Horst after. I've cum I just don't feel as hot to get fucked. He's so good though as he continues, and pushes the envelope a bit I eventually get hard again. Now I'll cum two or three times before he finshes up, it's all good.
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I've done that before. I used to cam for a buddy and sit on a beer bottle. Then I found when I poured the beer inside it got me wasted faster, hella fun....