Hey there, thought I saw a thread similar to this a while back but I can't seem to find it... I'm looking for some advice:
I've been in a relationship for a little over two years now, and I'm very happy with what I have. However, I've had a few slips which almost ended the relationship - he found out I was planning to meet someone for BB sex once, almost got fucked by a friend, etc. Yet, we're still together through all of that. No matter how much time goes by though, I still jack off to the idea of getting bred by a room full of daddies, or getting spitroasted, etc. Not sometimes, every time - it's the only thing I get off on, and I think about it periodically during the week as well. I think a lot about breaking up so I can go out and do these things, but I'm still in love with this guy. I'm fighting between two things I enjoy, and a part of me feels like the breeding desire is just short term happiness, but at the same time I feel like the thoughts will never go away and I'll likely cheat on him at some point and end it anyways. The constant internal arguing is becoming exhausting and I'm not sure what to do. After the close calls with cheating he's absolutely not interested in opening up the relationship (which I get).
Has anyone been in a similar situation? Any thoughts regardless?