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So, here I sit, coming down from three days of partying. Feel like shit but the butt is tingling - so there are advantages. I never was very good at pointing myself. Primarily, it is because I have thin shallow veins. I can get the first one okay most time but after that it is hit or miss. Mostly, miss. Sometimes at the end of a session, my arms look like that of a hard core junkie. I started pointing back in the 80s and luckily I had admins around to assist. When I was left to doing it myself, the frustration caused me to quit. I am amazed that those of you who can slam and remain calm enough to do more slams latter on. Guys, if it is good T, I will shake like a leaf after the first injection and that's how all the other ones afterwards get blown. I try breath control, concentration, you name it to calm my self down and nothing works. After the session before this past weekend, I was firm in stating that if I keep blowing it, I was going to stop slamming (again like I did back in the 80s). So, I started Friday night. After the first slam which was okay - not the best product - I decided to do a bigger slam. I loaded the syringe, swabbed the area and proceeded at usual and as I am placing the needle to hit the vein I identified, I realize I am not shaking. Damn good hit. This went on for about 5 hours. Had a great play session. Went home and around noon, I realize that my ass was twitching. I am a bottom/versatile guy. The guy I played with the night before was a total bottom. I sat on a few toys and plugs while I was with him, but not my ass is screaming, Where is Mine? Before trolling the various sites, I decided to slam again. I knew I had better product at home. Okay I did not get the first site because the vein kept rolling, but the second was right on and again no shaking. Dudes, I have shattered veins from shaking and having the needle move on me Hot piece Saturday afternoon. I was in heaven. Sunday morning a bud was passing through town with new product he had just gotten and I was slamming by noon and continued through this morning. Now I am so toxic a slam would not do me any good, so I'll stay off for few days. Just before sitting down to write this blog, I began to think about how devious T can be. I was totally committed to stopping if the shakes and blown product continued. How deceptive the desire to keep on courting her will change physiology. I will not lie, I love the rush and the sexual acrobatics that follow (and yes, probably addicted to it). With her I keep going further than I would allow myself to go. And right now, I see no need to stop. So nothing is going to change right now. However, at least I am aware of another factor it is doing to me. But, to paraphrase a line from the Morphine's song, "Candy" "Tina says she wants me with her down in Tinaland."

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I am a man who loves chem fueled sex. Most times I never have sex unless I am on some substance or another. Well this afternoon, I had a guy over who has been wanting to get with me for quite some time, I would always put him off because I did not have any chems around. But today, I said to come on by. I wanted to see where this would go with only poppers. I let this bear dude of a man into my apartment and I knew it was for business. I sucked his thick cock while he fingered my ass with huge bear paws. Two fingers, then three, four and I felt the hilt of his fist pushing against that first ring and as I stared into his eyes, I let the hand slide right in to the wrist. I was not high and I hit the poppers and continued to stare into his eyes and allow him half way up his forearm. Ordinarily, I would have been saying things like, "take it easy" or "go slow" or some other controlling phrase, but I just stared into those blue eyes and just moaned, "oh daddy". Since I have not been having sex this way in the past, when he pulled out I was a bloody mess. We stopped, he and I both got cleaned up. He said to me, 'You see I like it rough and I think you do too." At that point I knew he was telling my truth. I said, "yes, I do." So I ask, what advice for training my ass to get into rough sex, whether it be fist, toys or what ever. I want this guy in me again and I don't want to have to stop because I am bleeding like a virgin. I am okay up to 12 to 14 inches, but where I want to go is in the 18 - 20 range. I now know that I want to be a rough power bottom. I ultimately want to be fist punched and show an incredible rosebud at the end. I want to hear from tops and bottoms.