This site, and reading stories like those above, give me peace of mine that I’m not alone in the world and not crazy—and they get me insanely horny too!
I started having sex just before the AIDS crisis. I discovered right away I had a huge fetish for cum, especially chugging it, but I also got fucked and bred, including one gangbang (it was Crisco party—that’s how old I am!). I wad spectacularly promiscuous, sex almost every day. (Even now in my fifties, my libido is through the roof.)
When safe sex started being a thing, I tried condoms, I really did, but they took all the joy and excitement out of sex for me. I love cum, when I suck cock I’m in it for the load. I’m one of those gross guys who sometimes will lick it up off a bathhouse floor, or rub it in my beard. I suck off guys I find physically repulsive just so I can get another load down my throat. Totally twisted about it. So I kept going, and frankly living in denial.
And then a friend I sucked off many time died. I completely freaked out. Went celibate for over five years, while at the same time I was afraid to get tested. It was terrible. My dead years, as I think of the, when I was in my prime of life. Tragic, honestly. It haunts me, all the loads I didn’t get. Eventually, I began to realize I didn’t have a life. I didn’t even date, because we guys always have sex on the first night, and I wasn’t ready to have that conversation. I didn’t make a decision to start swallowing again. One night I sucked a guy off in Riverside Park, and I just knew I was going to take his load. When it came, it was as exciting and fulfilling as I remembered. And—it didn’t freak me out! In fact, I then continued cruising the park until I got another load. And literally overnight I was back to my old habits, and much happier for it, honestly.
I still didn’t get tested for years, but when I did, it was very shocking to find out I was negative. I chalk this up to the fact that nearly all of my load intake is oral. Which goes to show you. I’ve done the math, I know I’ve swallowed thousands of guys, many of them are poz, no doubt. So when my doctor urges prep—at my age, after all my experience, I say no thanks.
I sometime fuck guys bareback—love doing that—but never get fucked, even with a condom. I wish I could be as uninhibitedly piggy as some of you, get gangbanged again. But this is the compromise I’ve reached for myself.