Sub-Cocksucker

As an absolute cum lover I'm glad to see this old thread come back alive. I have never gotten sick from swallowing fresh loads. I've had at least 20 to 25 in one day. Was desperately hungry for more. However I have gotten a little bit sick to my stomach and gotten heartburn from swallowing stale loads. I have had two different Dom men that I have serviced that would save up come from them and I have no idea who else. The first Dom that made me do it told me it was a test he wanted to see how much of an absolute cum swallowing fagot I actually was. When he showed me the container of stay will come I was a bit grossed out I have to admit. But then he told me to smell it. This is what was very strange I can't say that it smelled good at all It didn't give me that come drunk high that I get from smelling fresh cum. But at the same time it completely triggered me and I gulped it down. It left me shocked and shaking.

I am still servicing homeless men on and off. Been a little while since I cruised their areas had some great luck last night. Ran into the homeless black guy that used to use me hard. Him and another black man I had never seen before both used me at the same time spit roasted me took turns swapping back and forth for a solid 30 or 40 minutes. Then as usual the main guy that used to use me hard fed me his piss. I know this stuff can get risky for a number of reasons but I told him if he wanted to sometime he can come to my place and use me for as long as he wants. I definitely have to confess it's gotten to the point that I really like taking dirty homeless dick.

Love this, you need a return visit

UPDATE: Still drinking my piss on a regular basis, and got the guts to ask every guy I suck off, if he will feed me his piss. I find more often than not, they will, some seem really into it, few seem to just cuz I ask them to. There is an older man just down the road that I suck of once or twice a week, he demands I drink his piss before I am allowed to suck him off.

The simple answer is, take cock, often. Seriously, daily, multiple times a day. Your hole will about always close back up and be tight again, BUT, the more cock you take, the easier it will open up. Even before I was taking cock and toys as often as I am now, I remember when I was younger getting to a point where I could just take it. My hole would not require much warm up, and I could just shove something in it. It really turned me on, that I could actually tell a different in my hole. But then, I also have a fantacy of having a LOOSE hole, a "ruined" hole. One that could EASILY take a fist punching.

I wanted to update here, that I am drinking my piss constantly now. I piss in a big glass, set it on my desk, and as i watch porn anything that triggers me, I take a gulp. Every time I am about to take one of my toys in my ass, i first piss in a glass and gulp it all down before.

The main public things I do are a couple local park cruising spots, not so much by choice, but, because there is cock there. Been caught sucking a couple times from a distance. And its been embarrassing for me to be watched sucking cock by a guy waiting his turn. again, I try not to get in those situations being in the closet, but I cant help it sometimes.

I am extremely submissive, love being put in my place, degraded, used, talked dirty to, called names. Even when I masturbate I try to degrade myself, or punish myself in some way, to try to put myself in my place. I would like to be given tasks, to take this further. Though, I am in the closet, and do not want to do anything public or outting. Just tasks I can make myself do in my home. An example of what I am talking about, I have decided I am going to start drinking my own piss, every single time I masturbate. I honestly hope one day I need to drink piss in order to orgasm. Conditioning like that turns me on, make me more pathetic, make me have more triggers.

I totally get this, and it happens to me often. I cant use public restroom urinals, I cant stand next to another man at one, I will start quivering, and HAVE to try to get a look, which I am afraid will get my ass beat one day. Just being in a restroom period gets me. I have been on my knees so often in them. I also have other very strong triggers, being called a cocksucker or a faggot throws me straight into sub headspace,

I would love to find out one day just how many I can swallow, and then be force fed another 20 on top that. The Premium Bukkake videos make me SO jealous of the girls. Im sure most are just doing it for the money, but I hope some appreciate how lucky they are to be fed 100+ loads.

Dirty seedy places like this are a huge turnon, Gloryholes drive me crazy, I LOVE to drop to my knees at them for hours, sucking ANY cock I am presented with. I have sucked alot of very dirty dicks, it used to gross me out, but my submissiveness just took over and I would suck them anyway. I still run into a few that are VERY dirty and catch me off guard, but I still SUCK them, and suck them clean. Sucking off dirty smelly cock just makes me feel that much more put in my place. Nothing like being on your way home, and even once home, having your face smell of cock, getting to still catch a whiff of it later that night on my face and lips. Cum also drives me fucking crazy, so any time I see it at any place like this, I loose all control. I have licked if off the wall, and sucked it out of used condoms. If I see a used condom, I pick it up and smell it, that triggers me instantly and I HAVE to suck it out of it. Its one of the nastier things I catch myself doing, still messes with my head that I do it, but I literally cant help it.

Fuck yes, more gloryhole fun please.

Years ago I spent a year or so being owned and used by a dom daddy, That most of the time, had me in bondage, and would often tie be up bent over his coffee table, And have my balls tied, and pulled down tight to the base of the table, many times I feared he was going to rip them off as he pounded me. I would be left like this for long periods especially if he had buddies over. He did this so often that my balls actually stretched some, and never fully recovered.

mmmmm being bred at a senior citizens home,,, now why havent I thought of that!?!

Nice to see my 6 year old thread dug up, Things have not changed for me, only got worse I would say. I still suck off random cocks any chance I get, alot off Grindr, and alot more homeless cocks now. Last year I found out about a homeless encampment in my town, I ended up going there several nights a week. Got to the point they all knew why i was there, and would just goto our "spot" and line up soon as they saw me there. There was 6 or 7 i was sucking off a few nights a week. 2 of them, one a big black man, started fucking me on a regular basis also. City ended up running them all off and clearing out the encampment. I was SO bummed. I miss those men feeding me their dirty dicks.

Thanks for the replies, I suppose the way I worded things could have been better, I realize they are not FORCING me to do these things. Most things in life that are fun can have a certain level of risk to them, and we decide for ourselves how much of a risk we are willing to take for that fun. This just seem to take it to another level. The scared part is mainly about how much control I let them have, and how much I am willing to submit to it all.

Bump, anyone? brillo1111, PM'd you

I'm not sure how to even express this really but, my main question is have you ever been scared or freaked out by an experience you had or a situation you have been put in? a little background on my current situation. I have been servicing an older very dominant man for several months now. It didn't take long before he was having a few of his buddies over to also use me. I love being called names and degraded and used so for the most part I have enjoyed being used by them on a regular basis. however the last couple months things have changed. He has always been very into sharing me with other men. but the last couple months he has turned me into it a cum dump. to the point where he has arranged several large parties where I was the only bottom. The last party had over 20 men throughout the night. this is the part I have a hard time expressing. I can't express how much it both scares me and turns me on at the same time. one thing I need to make clear is I am not a bug chaser. I have no desire to ever be HIV positive. I have been a total submissive bottom for years and it's not like I haven't been put in very dangerous situations many times before, but this just seems different and way more intense. it's been a very big mind fuck for me. The situation scares me I feel like I'm in over my head I feel like it's all too much. but at the same time a big part of me really likes that this man is making me do this. That he is throwing me down this rabbit hole. I have always had a dangerous fetish of dominant men making me do things I am not totally comfortable with. I have started taking prep so that this situation is at least somewhat safe. I figured it's about the only thing I can do. because I know myself well enough to know I will not walk away from this situation. I have always been submissive and always like being used by dominant men that put me in my place. being a totaled cum dump taking so much random cock and cum has very much put me in my place. And seems to have put me in a permanent sub-headspace. anyway I guess this was just a way for me to get this off my chest. I am curious if anyone else has been in this situation or is currently. I would love to have a fellow sub to talk about this stuff on an ongoing basis. I'm also open to speaking with dominant men that have put a sub through these types of situations.

I like having someone like minded to chat with on a regular basis about experiences, encounters, kinks, desires. Either a fellow sub, that is used often and hard like me, that has fallen down the rabbit hole. Or a very DOM older man that has used and owned subs. I like to report my daily sexual activity to someone, almost like a confession. And I like to have my head constantly filled with sexual kink and depravity. I just cant seem to find any good chat sites, or ways to find others to chat with. I miss the days of yahoo chat rooms.

There was a guy I sucked off on a regular basis at least a couple times a week it used to do this to me. He knew how much of a cum junkie I was and how much swallowing cum drove me absolutely crazy. as someone else stated it was my reward and he knew it. So he would make sure I worked very hard for it. he would often pull out of my mouth at the very last second and cum all over my face just to humiliate me. other times he would pull out and cum on top of his coffee table knowing full well I was going to lick every single bit of it off the table. they were even a handful of times I showed up late to his place to suck him off and he had already jerked off and came on the coffee table or on the floor and was quick to point it out to me. Of course dropped my knees and licked up every single drop and thanked him for it. sometimes he would have a second load for me and had me suck him off other times he would just send me right back home after all I did was show up to his house and lick cum off the floor. Once he took it to another level. He called me over to his place I assumed to suck him off as usual. when I showed up he said he had a treat for me and pointed to the coffee table. on the table for four used condoms. At first I was in shock and started to question where they came from. I got the idea they were not his since they all look like different types. you said doesn't matter to her cum eating faggot like you? I practically whimpered as I dropped to my knees knowing what I was about to do. carefully I'm tired each one I'm sucked out every drop of it. I felt disgusted with myself but also so horny I thought I was going to faint. I crawled over to him to suck him off he laughed and said No not tonight faggot you can go home now.

The smell of cum drive me crazy, I eat my own alot, and thats a big reason why, if i smell my cum, i just have to eat it.

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm im jealous. Cum drives me crazy, its why i eat mine all the time also, but always wanted to swallow down 50+ loads at once, Just the sight of those filled condoms is soooooo hot.

Wow didnt realize I started this thread that long ago. I can assure you,,, the addiction has only got worse over the years for sure. I still suck off ALOT of strangers for their loads, Ive been mailed used condoms, Ive found used condoms. Yes, I ate the cum out of them, I know, its (im) disgusting, but I cant help it, I literally cant help it. Luckily, I gave up caring and have accepted I am just a cum junkie.

I am a total bottom but this is a HUGE turn on to me, I LOVE a hole that looks "RUINED". To the point it makes me think the bottom has lost all control and reasoning when it comes to what he does to his hole. That his addiction to taking it in his hole has spiraled out of control to the point the constant use of fists and huge toys has completely ruined his hole.

Will be doing some traveling soon across the country and spending alot of time along i70 Looking for places I can suck swallow some anonymous loads, especially gloryholes. Will be on Grindr the whole way also.