I met a guy online and had him come over to my apartment. Guy was like 45, well hung, muscle bear daddy type. We were going to smoke some weed, watch porn, and then have anal sex with a condom (this was back when I almost never barebacked). He brought the weed, said his stuff was expensive, really quality shit, so I said okay. He had one j already rolled when he came inside, so he lit that, took a hit (mainly to get it started, he didn't get much smoke off it), and gave it to me. I thought he was just being generous with it, since he took out a baggy and paper and rolled him a new j. I smoked the one he had given me about halfway down, when I started to feel really buzzed. I've done 420 plenty of times, really strong shit, and this wasn't a 420 high. I didn't feel ill, but I sort of felt detached from my body. I was aware of what was going on, and could move my body, but I was sort of a zombie, mostly just stayed still, trying to move took too much concentration and effort. The guy seemed to wait a bit, watched me, looking back I figure he was waiting for the stuff to take effect. Then he put me on my back, lubed up his cock without putting a condom on first, and without asking if it was okay, starting barebacking my ass. I think I mumbled something in protest, but didn't physically resist. He smirked kind of cruelly and just kept going. He didn't try to make it painful for me, didn't hit me or anything, though he did give my ass a really rough fucking, like he wasn't getting off on causing me pain but didn't care if he was hurting me. I honestly don't know how long it was, my sense of time was really distorted, could have been five minutes or an hour, but he sped up, started really really plowing me, shoved in balls deep and started groaning as he shot his load deep inside my guts. Then he fucked the load in me for a moment. Pulled out, went to the bathroom and washed up. Said thanks, got dressed and gathered his things, and let himself out. I just laid there in my drug dazed state for like another hour or two, then came out of it enough to see if I was bleeding or anything. He had fucked my ass roughly enough to cause a little blood to come out, but hadn't cause any major damage. I waited three months and took an Hiv test, came back neg.
I don't consider what happened to be on par with being beaten and raped by a stranger at knifepoint. I believe I was drugged and forced into unprotected anal sex when I had only consented to safe sex, and I consider that to be rape, I know some guys here may not agree.