ohmalewhore

I'm kind of with you on this. As much as the "anonymous" idea is appealing for some things, I much prefer a little more than "just a cock and balls" when I am in the mood for sex. I want to inhale his scent, feel his body, get aroused by the hair on his chest and/or abdomen and truly kneel and worship the man about to offer up his cock for me to suck and make happy. I like knowing that in the end once his sperm is shooting all over my face or down my throat that every bit of my attention to his person - from the glances to the caressing to the actual act of draining his balls - was greatly appreciated.

If you desire to experiment sexually with men, but are in a committed and sexual relationship with a woman ... then it's not gay sex. This is just a fantasy right now. Until you embrace the idea of being sexually active with a man and then take the next step, it's just a fantasy. Once you finally are intimate with a man, it's still not "gay sex." You're just having sex with a man - that's it. You're not gay. It's not gay. But the only way you can determine if you want to move beyond the fantasy realm is to find a man and do it. Once you've enjoyed it, and keep going back to it, then you're crossing into a different territory. I know. I was there once. I was married, she got raped, I tried to make things work with her but she could not allow a man to touch her again, even me who had loved her for years. After we split, I began to explore BDSM as a submissive to women and they began to show me there was more to sex than just what straight porn shows. As things moved along, one dominatrix in particular saw something in me - a desire to explore things sexually with men. She saw how I interacted with other male slaves in her stable and how I loved watching them play for her benefit. Her and I went different ways, as she wanted to move back west to the wetlands of Washington. But a chance encounter with three men outside a tranny bar soon showed me she was right. Being dragged into a van and "raped" altered me. I put the term "rape" in quotes because the first 3 times - once by each man, I wanted no part of it but I think deep down somewhere inside I really did because after each man had a turn I begged for another go. Two of the men - the ones who grabbed me - accommodated my request and because of it they let me walk away back to where they'd taken me from with me actually happy. Then guilt set in, then denial. I tried to distance myself from that entire thing, went "straight" again and got engaged to a woman. She died at the hands of a drunk and I found myself once more floundering. Another chance encounter with a man showed me that my trip into man-on-man sex was far from over. We chatted for weeks online before he let on he was gay. We still met at a gay bar after work one evening and eventually things got hot in the bar between us. Before he could initiate the pickup, I begged him to take me back to his place. 5 minutes of a drive and an hour later I was feeling him cum in my ass and enjoying every moment of it. Again I felt overjoyed when I left, but then the guilt and denial returned .... this time not as intense. Him and I chatted about it that night and the next night and met at the same bar that Friday night. Same result - we went back to his place and he fucked me. Several more times after that we did the same thing - I would talk to him about how I was feeling guilty and feeling that the sex we had was somehow making me wrong inside, he would listen and then talk a bit and eventually we'd meet up again and end up back in bed. Finally after about 6 times of this he just came out and asked me when the last time was I thought about sex with a woman or even had sex with one. I admitted that I'd not thought about women since we fucked that first night. We fucked several more times before he got a transfer to Houston and I only rarely ever heard from him again when he'd come into town on business and want to "pound my pussy" for old times sake. But in all that time (about 2 years before he stopped calling because he got engaged to another man) I never once had sex with a woman and rarely, if ever, thought about a woman sexually. Today some 15 years removed from him I still don't see myself as "gay" but I do know that it'd be nearly impossible for any woman to ever get me hard enough for sex, let alone have sex with a woman. But when I've ventured to a local ABS and gone into the theatre area or other common areas I've always been highly aroused, very horny and very eager to become somehow intimate with at least one man there. When you can say you've given up women altogether and find 100% total attraction in every facet of sex and intimacy with a man, then you're having "gay sex."

I really crave to find a man who will kiss me - before he fucks me, as he's fucking me, and after he's fucked me. Doesn't have to be a lot, doesn't have to be intense. Just want to really feel a man behind me, his cock in my ass, and his hand grabbing my head and bending me around to deliver a kiss which is followed by dirty talk and how he's going to own my ass and make it a pussy.

Has anyone ever fucked someone with them? Has anyone ever had them and been fucked? I'm hearing that even with them, anal sex can be pleasurable but can actually add to the increased risk for HIV/AIDS.

I live in rural Defiance County (Ohio) - about 2½ hours from Cleveland and/or Columbus and 2 hours from Detroit. I had plans to attend the CumUnion party in Detroit next weekend, but real life is interfering with those plans now. I really need to meet up someplace with a top and just get bred for as long and as many times as you can! I want a man who will turn my ass into a pussy for his use. All I ask is: 1) Have a private place in mind before responding that we can play. I don't want any "let's fuck in a car" nonsense. I get that all the time on Doublelist and it's old! 2) Be D/D free (except for HIV/AIDS -- that's definitely moving you to the top of my list) and willing to bareback. I don't care about age, weight/height, cock size, race or anything. I just want a man who can fuck and knows how to open a hole and make it his. If this goes well I can make this into something more and become a weekly (or several times a week) thing for you. I prefer more dominant types but it's far from a deal breaker. I'm missing out on a chance to get used and was hoping to turn that experience into something that could become more regular - either meeting up at Body Zone regularly or just becoming someone's regular cum dump.