Tell us about the load that changed you

[gay87]

I'll start the ball rolling

I'm still neg, but took my first load last year, and just took another load from my fuck buddy few days ago

I've been with my fuck buddy for 6 months, he doesn't care about his status and would occasionally bb 'according to his mood' (more like according to the # of sex hormones)

Long story short

I've always been a safe guy, and even went out with a condom in my wallet, and this fuck buddy would have anal me raw, if I didn't bring a condom with me(since when it's btm job to bring a condom? That's quite debatable)

For the past 6 months he will top me at his place, but recently, after a session, he drive me out for some rare refreshment and after which he drive me back home, and the next minute we are at my bed cuddling , 'it would be just cuddling' I thought to myself

But emotion and passion got the better of me, after he flipped me and rimmed me hard, and he just dive in raw! Oh my, I thought to myself, what have I done?

After 10mins, he grinned and say, 'I'm cumming!' and he blasted in me , both of us sweating and hugging each other,

This is the first time my fuck buddy drop a load in me,

I knew this guy might be positive, but I didn't care as I always bring A condom with me, but apparently that's not enough,

[rivegauche]

The first time I dropped a load in someone's ass was with this boy I'd had a crush on since high school. We actually met on MySpace, he worked at the local movie theatre and he'd let me into movies for free. His name was Kevin, he has shaggy blonde hair and a sweet smile. Years after high school he came and visited me in my apt in New York, where we had a "stonariffic weekend" basically we were baked the entire time and I acted like a huge tourist and we are great meals. We fucked that weekend on my hardwood floor, but I wrapped it. I remember he got so warm, his body felt like a furnace beneath me. Fast forward about a year, I was dog sitting for my best friends parents at their house in my hometown. He came over, we got insanely fucked up, he laid face down on the bed and I started licking his hole. He moaned like a bitch and I knew that hole was mine. I lubed up and slipped in, it was so right and wet and warm and he immediately started burning up. It's insane how hot this boy gets when a dicks inside him. I pounded his hole while sucking on his neck, and asked, do u care if I cum in u. He didn't say anything so I screamed I'm gonna cum! I buried my dick as deep as it wld go and shot abt six good pumps of cum deep inside his pussy. I can't remember anything else but how good it felt to shoot my load in a raw hole. We both commented how great it was and I licked his hole clean. Later while we made out, he spread his legs and I massaged his filled up cum hole. He knew it was mine.

[drscorpio]

This was about 1992 when I was 28. I had hooked up with an older (40ish) hispanic guy through a personal ad in the weekly alternative paper. I was quite a condom nazi at the time, but my guard was down because this hook up was just supposed to be oral. I had posted an ad for guys looking to fuck my face because I was really into that at the time.

This guy was a total top, and he could tell I was a total bottom. We started out with him on the couch with me between his knees blowing his uncut, thick 8 incher. He was a smooth and knew what he wanted. Before I knew it, we had switched places. I was on the couch with my legs in the air, and he was between my knees with his tongue up my hole. Now remember this guy had a big cock. Even though I loved getting fucked, it usually took lots of lube and a slow entry for me to take a big one. Somehow he had my hole so opened up and slick with his spit that he slipped his cock all the way in my hole bareback in one smooth motion.

It felt so good. Even though I was freaking out, I let him fuck me bare for a few minutes. Then I totally freaked. He was cool. He grudgingly put on a rubber and finished that way. He came back for seconds a week or so later and was nice enough about wearing a rubber although he asked about going bare. The third time we met though he invited me to his place.

Just like he had done the first two times, he spent a long time eating my hole. This time though, he had a bottle of poppers handy. I kept sniffing them as he ate me out. When he reached for a condom, I asked him to please go bare. He smiled really big and told me he had been waiting to here me say that. He slid that big piece into me and a few minutes later gave me the first load I had taken in many years.

He and I were fuck buddies for years. At first I was only bare with him, but soon I started asking other guys to go bare. Within a few years though, I was bareback all of the time.

[Bottom Jim]

When I lived in Louisville I was 25. I had a buddy who would call me when he was horny. One time he called me and I went over . He did what we normally did and he had me lay on my stomach. He rubbed his dick on my hole as he always did. All of a sudden he went in. He fucked me and then is realized he was cumming. He shot deep I me and I realized he was bare backing me. The feel and knowing his cum was in me convinced me never to go wrapped again. I knew the joy of a bare dick and cum in my ass.

[FatFuckPigMA]

I can't narrow it to just one cock or load. There were a bunch:

https://breeding.zone/entries/585-Sex-Pig-Diaries-Part-1

https://breeding.zone/entries/586-Sex-Pig-Diaries-Part-2

https://breeding.zone/entries/587-Sex-Pig-Diaries-Part-3

[btm2bbred]

Almost six years ago when I was requiring guys to rubber up when they were fucking me, I got stealthed by this sexy guy at the baths. He had doctored the condom somehow and flooded my hole with cum (don't really know what his status was).

I was really pissed, but I also liked having his load in my ass.

Long story short, I decided I had already gotten a cium load, I was at the baths, and there were def. more randy Tops around wanting to plant seed deep in any bottom's ass. Within the next hour, I got bred by 3 different anonymous Tops.

Although I still got fucked by guys with condoms for a few more months, I started getting addicted to have cum in my ass.

So I can thank that stealther for getting me to abandon condoms and embracing bareback sex, and scratching that continuous itch in my ass that is only satisfied when it's coated with masculine cum.

So that's the load that really started me barebacking.

[everopen1]

Hot

imhope to cya in Denver or on the west coast sometime

[curiouspuppy429]

guy last feb, was gogn to have me suck him then fucked me and pretended to use a condom but didnt. next thing I knew he was yellng ready to take my dirty load? by the time I realized and tried to get him off me he was already nutting. fortuanately I still tested neg but definitely made me realize fags like me get no choice.

[Deepanalnut]

I've never taken nor will I ever take a load. I'm 100% top. However the "load" that changed me was one I gave. I had just been diagnosed with HIV and was pretty low in the dumps. I was in a deep funk and was having a massive pity party. I figured my time with women was over, that nobody would want me, blah blah blah blah. I had a really close friend who just happened to be gay and he was the only person that really understood. He invited me out and we went to a gay bar in Toronto where I was working at the time off of Church street. Up to this point I had been 100% heterosexual. For the record I'm still not attracted to men, I just like fucking them because there's little to no effort involved and generally speaking (my current spate of luck aside) no commitment. It's just hi, wanna fuck, cum, leave. I digress, at this bar I get approached by a few guys but I give them the "i'm straight" bit which ironically makes them even more persistent.

Fast forward a few hours and my friend comes back with a very fem looking twink to join us. I figured my buddy was going to hook up with the twink. Wrong. Twink was for me. At first I was like no, not gonna happen but I have this thing with vodka and marijuana in that I insanely love both way too much. Judgement slightly impaired, he had a nice ass and I figured in a dark room as long as he shut the fuck up I wouldn't know the difference. So we went back to my condo, turned out the lights and he sucked me for a bit. I was only getting semi hard but not full fledged (no, was not whiskey dicked). I dropped the HIV bomb when I had a moment of clarity and he told me he was poz friendly and at the time I had no fucking clue what that meant. Anyways, he started gagging himself on my cock and that got me going and he was talking about how wet his ass was and how bad he wanted me to fuck him. I told him his voice was killing my boner, picked him up, bent him over the couch, spit on my cock and on his asshole and started working on his hole.

Treating him like a bitch, I was going gentle at first because I wasn't into pain. He finally told me to fuck him already and just shove it all in. Ok...so one big thrust, he gasped but then told me to go to town. I wouldn't call it a nice fuck. It was both furious because I hadn't fucked for 4 months, it was angry because I couldn't believe I was fucking a guy and it was intense because despite my HIV status, he didn't demand a scumbag. I blew really hard after about 5 minutes but just kept fucking and took another 20 minutes to dump a 2nd load in him.

That fuck changed me. It made me realize that hole is hole regardless of who owns it. I came to realize that night that I could find some piggy bottom who just wanted a load of cum up his ass and he was happy. No need for a nice dinner. No need for flowers. No need for a ton of foreplay or reassurance. He was just a cum hungry slut that wanted my cock as deep as possible up his ass and then he wanted to go back to partying and maybe find another dude to fuck him. And the fact that there was a whole lot of other guys like him made it an easy decision. That and my HIV status didn't make the the pariah I thought I would be. So I fuck dudes now all because of that little twink slut that had a cute ass and for a moment acted like a little bitch for me. Now I use guys for selfish orgasms and cum dumps and my wife (who is neg, married 18+ months and yes she knows) for the more gentle / romance laden things although she's a filthy slut as well but that's a different story that none of you give a shit about.

[Guest ff-whole]

I have bare backed occasionally but always tried to ask for status.

Last year I was several times in a Gay sauna in Santiago, and there I started to pig out... taking numerous bare loads in my ass without even seeing the persons or asking what their status was... dripping multiple cummloads out of ass and loving it... after that I had several condom fucks and disliked it tremendously... it either hurts or just doesn't feel right. The bare fucks might or might not contained positive loads and though I really want to stay negative, when I become such a pig, my mind and body can't say no to the hot sex and the cumm load.

I have been trying to get more sex (orgies and multiple loads) but it is not as easy here in South America. I have been craving for cumm lately.

[scotsfan71]

The load that changed my life, or rather my outlook was an accidental one. I have always preferred raw sex to rubbered sex, but I would never say that. I'd hint or be ambiguous when it came to requesting rubbers. I was never a condom nazi. When chatting and arranging fucks with tops, they'd ask if I had rubbers and lube. I'd say, "yeah, I've got lube," always hoping that they'd want to fuck me raw when we met. That only rarely worked. And when guys did fuck me raw, I'd make them promise to pull out when they came and cum on my back.

Well, this one time I was in my apartment in Union City, NJ one summer afternoon in August 2006, and was chatting with this hot otter who had just moved to Union City who was extremely horned up for some reason and needed to fuck. We'd arranged or him to come by and fuck me just to get it out of his system. Nice thicker latin guy, earrings, tarts, body tats, buzzed body hair. I sucked him for a little while, then got on my knees on the bed. He was standing behind me. He spit on his cock and my hole and entered me raw and just started fucking me.

After awhile, he said he was about to cum and asked where did I want him to cum? I sort of mumbled, "cum on me," but I think he thought I said, "cum in me," and the next thing I knew, I felt 6 jets of his hot cum flowing into my hole. I was breathless. Nothing happened. I wasn't struck by lightning, the earth didn't open up and swallow me. The only thing I felt was pleasure. Pleasure that that top had take such pleasure in my hole. Pleasure that I finally did what I'd wanted to for years, even if by accident. Pleasure because I'd been fucked raw and been rewarded with a thick, creamy load in my hole.

I was addicted from there on. No more rubbers for me. And my rule when a top is fucking me is, "No pulling out until you've left my hole creamy."

[rtpbbcub]

The load that changed me was with a hookup I almost didn't expect to hear from again. Not that I didn't want to, but at the time guys came and went so regularly that it wasn't really a big deal to meet a guy, fuck, and never see him again. Greensboro was just like that.get online, chat for a bit, exchange some details like status, time, and place, and presto, you're getting paid. I loved it.

Anyway, I had gone to his place and it was a very good fuck, the guy had a rather large cock, not massive by internet standards, but bigger than what I was used to. We fucked bare and he wasn't gentle. He fucked hard, but did some while keeping me in a bear hug and whispering sweet things in my ear. He came inside. We dressed and I left. End of story.

Or so I thought.

Out of the blue my phone rings and there is some guy crying on the other end of the line. I couldn't make out a damn thing of who it was or what the problem was. The call went on for a while and I finally learned that it was the guy that had fucked me, he was newly diagnosed as positive, he was sorry to the point of sounding suicidal, and felt I needed to get tested as well.

I'm a big guy, obvious from my pic, and was even bigger at the time. Like 400lbs big.

I went to get an HIV test at our student health center and was asked, through laughter, "why I thought I would need that." It was obvious that miss professional didn't feel a fat guy was capable of having a sex life. I ended up having to pitch a holy fit to get tested.

Then reality hit.

"I could be HIV Positive. What the hell am I doing?"

A good friend went through my breakdown with me, and I came out on the other side of it realizing that this is what I was doing, bareback sex, I liked it, there were consequences, and HIV was one of them.

The test was negative. I ended up having to fight just as much for the follow up, also negative.

And, little more than a decade later, I haven't had an HIV test since. And won't. I will die before I go through the humiliation of being told I am "not attractive enough" to have possibly gotten HIV.

Edited February 1, 2014 by rawTOP

[Qutto]

The load that changed me was when I hooked up with the latin guy on craigslist. I was jogging and he picked me up in his rental car because he was on a business trip. We drove to an abandoned warehouse and he parked the car. We started to feel up on each other and discovered he had a thick 8" uncut. I was blowing him. The spell of uncut musk fucking gave me a raging boner. Then he asked me if he could fuck me. I've always been freaked out by STD so I told him to put a condom on. He said okay. He was totally buzzing on alcohol and thought he could fool me. He grabbed the condom and just shoved it into his pocket. I got out and he was really paranoid we would get caught. He bends me over his trunk and spits on his cock. The next thing I know he is sliding his uncut Latino cock deep into my ass. It felt so good! He tells me it feels so fucking good. He was plowing into me for about 4 mins when he tells me he's going to cum, and where he wanted me to cum. I was so turned on that I told him to just bust inside me. The next thing I know he's grabbing my neck tightly and thrusts his cock as deep as he could and gives a loud moan. I could feel his cock twitch 5 times as he unloaded inside me. He pulled out cum was dripping down my leg. I turned around and shot a nut so hard I shot his to his face. He pulled my jogging shorts and I ran back home with a sloppy breeder hole. I was so turned on I called him up the next day and begged him to fuck me in his hotel. To which he agreed and met him at the Holiday inn where he was staying at. He fucked me raw and so hard that was the first time I experienced an anal fissure. I still try to play safe but now I beg guy to slip off their condom and blow their load inside me. Done it twice since. Still HIV negative. I now exclusively watch bareback porn. I can watch for hours. Taken 8 loads to date.

[BBDreamer]

The first time I dropped a load in someone's ass was with this boy I'd had a crush on since high school. We actually met on MySpace, he worked at the local movie theatre and he'd let me into movies for free. His name was Kevin, he has shaggy blonde hair and a sweet smile. Years after high school he came and visited me in my apt in New York, where we had a "stonariffic weekend" basically we were baked the entire time and I acted like a huge tourist and we are great meals. We fucked that weekend on my hardwood floor, but I wrapped it. I remember he got so warm, his body felt like a furnace beneath me. Fast forward about a year, I was dog sitting for my best friends parents at their house in my hometown. He came over, we got insanely fucked up, he laid face down on the bed and I started licking his hole. He moaned like a bitch and I knew that hole was mine. I lubed up and slipped in, it was so right and wet and warm and he immediately started burning up. It's insane how hot this boy gets when a dicks inside him. I pounded his hole while sucking on his neck, and asked, do u care if I cum in u. He didn't say anything so I screamed I'm gonna cum! I buried my dick as deep as it wld go and shot abt six good pumps of cum deep inside his pussy. I can't remember anything else but how good it felt to shoot my load in a raw hole. We both commented how great it was and I licked his hole clean. Later while we made out, he spread his legs and I massaged his filled up cum hole. He knew it was mine.

Fucking HOT! I'd love to give you my pussy.

[rawTOP]

And, little more than a decade later, I haven't had an HIV test since. And won't. I will die before I go through the humiliation of being told I am "not attractive enough" to have possibly gotten HIV.

Please go to the drug store and buy a OraQuick test (or order online). There's no need to deal with other people to find out if you're poz. It's really important for you to know your status.