Overcoming fear to be his cumdump

[Guygonebad]

I would agree with above. I’ve written on BZ about my journey from Mostly top, always safe, to mostly safe bottom, to total bottom on PReP, to CumDump to totally raw No PReP CumDump.  I’ve been a total raw CumDump for past 5 years, gave up up PReP last year and now I’m FREE!!! Best sex ever!!!!

Yes, if you are a bottom, for some of us, serving top men, becoming a total slut CumDump is obsessive, we crave it, need it. Learn to enjoy it, not fear it, but just love what you get to do! 

[Guest NottsCollaredBoi]

Thanks for the advice guys. So since last time I've had a load from him a few weeks ago and another session tomorrow. I am becoming a complete cum slut lol. I can't stop thinking about his load soaking into me, taking over me. Still nervous but I trust him more each time 

I hope this never ends 🙂

[Guest NottsCollaredBoi]

From our recent session... 😉 

[nullebor]

In England & Wales although not routinely supplied on the NHS, there is currently a "study"  that you could probably enroll on to get Prep (free of charge) from your local (or a near by ) GUM clinic. Alternatively you can buy it online through www.iwantprepnow.co.uk for around £40 a month. I should add that in Scotland the NHS do routinely provide free PreP at GUM clinics virtually on demand.

One further note, pulling out does NOT prevent you catching HIV, it is present in pre-cum and there is always the risk of minor bleeding. So if you want to play "safe" I would recommend condoms or Prep (or both 😄).

Or like a number here, enjoy the risk factor.

[Guest NottsCollaredBoi]

Think I'll take the later. Currently got a load inside me now 😉

[Guest NottsCollaredBoi]

Hey all, update for you. So I am now completely addicted to his cum. We met two days ago and we fucked for ages.

Then he asked me where I wanted his cum. I could do nothing but moan 'inside me'. 

He then shot an 11 day load inside me. So hot. My own cock spurt everywhere at that point lol. 

Meeting again in two weeks time. I so can't wait. I'm completely addicted now! 

Edited October 9, 2019 by NottsCollaredBoi

[HardaddyMA]

Any updates? Any changes in your thoughts? Tell us how good he fucks you BEFORE he gives up that hot thick load that you now obviously crave?

[Guest NottsCollaredBoi]

On 11/9/2019 at 5:51 AM, HardaddyMA said:

Any updates? Any changes in your thoughts? Tell us how good he fucks you BEFORE he gives up that hot thick load that you now obviously crave?

Hey, thanks for checking in. So we had a few more sessions. Then I caught Gonorrhea from him lol. At first I wanted to stop, but we both got checked and cleared. We're still talking though. He says we can go safe, but I know that I'm just going to pull the condom off and beg him to cum inside me. 

I desperately need his cum in me

[Guest NottsCollaredBoi]

From the session where I got infected 😉

[spunky58]

Hi there, I remember the first time I let a first time lover bareback me, I was so hot for him when he asked me if I wanted him to sleeve up I said no. He was a gay man with a partner and I did not know his background, but being so turn on and desperate I let him cum in me too, it felt so wonderful. I had many of the feelings and concerns that you have gone through, so took myself off to the clinic for testing, fortunately negative. 

I know want to take positive loads (on prep) for some unknown reason! I think I am attracted to the risk of it possibly going "wrong" and me ending up Poz - then I could BB with gay abandon?

If your are unsure then use Prep - you may find local clinics still running free trials? at least it will help you rest easy that while enjoying the moment and the rewards that you should be protected by the prep.

 

[Ozpig]

I didn't have a choice I was either my ex's cumdump for him and whoever to fuck or I was out the door. But, despite repressing it for fear, I also knew I wanted to be a cumdump so irrespective that would have been where I ended up anyway as I am just addicted to cock and seed.

[Guest NottsCollaredBoi]

Sounds good. I know he is taking Prep now. Will consider it for me. But he's also been more open about any partners he had in the meantime so I can decide to take the risk or not

[Guest NottsCollaredBoi]

So having had a break over Christmas, looks like we're back on track. 

Going to be meeting him Wednesday for another session. We've talked about staying safe and using a condom. However, he's only been with one guy in between and that was safe. 

I've also started watching stealthing porn; so fucking hot and the poor bois have no idea. We might use a condom tomorrow but I've said that if the moment is right to stealth me. Either way, that load is going inside me 😏

[Guest NottsCollaredBoi]

Hi all :) 

So latest update; we didn't get to meet on that Wednesday as work got in the way. However, we've carried on talking and the conversation came round to talking about playing safe. At our last meet, he wore a condom, but as I rode him, I ripped the condom off. However, I came first and got off before he could cum. 

We've talked about how hot that was. He's also been getting interested in stealth porn and I was saying how hot it would be to get stealthed. That's given him some ideas for our next meet... 

I've also been tapping into my submissive side and, in a rather hot and horny messaging session, I relinquished my control over whether we would play safe or not. It's up to him if he wears a condom or not, and I have a feeling that it's going to be bare all the way now... 😉 

[StockingsBB]

I have a number of regular lovers who all fuck me bb and cum inside me.  Once I started with raw I never went back. For me the desire for cum and my role as a Btm overrides other thoughts. Submissive cum dump is my role.