I don't wanna be Poz (yet!)

[Txyyxxxb]

2 hours ago, ThirstyPozchaser said:

Get tested, get on prep if still neg and while you are at the doctors get a fucking education on hiv transmission 

Not really interested in Prep because I don't do this thing too often. I wasn't even expecting it to be honest. Just in the heat of the moment she asked to cum in my mouth and I was like okay. I am yet to be tested. Definitely early next week. Unfortunately I missed the window for PEP. So that isn't an option as someone above mentioned.

[Pozlover1]

10 minutes ago, Txyyxxxb said:

Not really interested in Prep because I don't do this thing too often. I wasn't even expecting it to be honest. Just in the heat of the moment she asked to cum in my mouth and I was like okay. I am yet to be tested. Definitely early next week. Unfortunately I missed the window for PEP. So that isn't an option as someone above mentioned.

Then start accepting that you will be poz eventually, and catch other things along the way.  

[Txyyxxxb]

9 minutes ago, Pozlover1 said:

Then start accepting that you will be poz eventually, and catch other things along the way.  

Maybe you didn't understand. I usually play safe and would like to keep it that way. What happened recently was just an impulsive decision. I didn't even expect her to cum because most Trans escorts don't do it unless you pay extra for it which I didn't.  So yeah, guess my naviety got the better of me. 

[Txyyxxxb]

I knew it lol! I knew I was on the verge of a fever. Just the whole way my body was feeling even more vulnerable than being on accutane, I could tell something was about to come crashing down in a couple of days that I couldn't do anything about. You know, it starts off with the ever so subtle queezy feeling mentally like something is about to wear you down and you wish to god you won't wake-up with fever but at the same time you know it's inevitable.

So I woke up in the middle of the night, cold as hell! You know the typical fever symptoms when you feel colder than you actually are. Not long later did I develop night sweats, I guess because my body was trying keep me warm but yeah I started sweating moderately. Wasn't too annoying. Then I started weezy weezy coughing with tons of flem in the back of my throat and nose had the same amount of flem jammed inside it. At that point yupp, I knew I had a fever exactly as I expected when I first caught hold of the symptoms. 

Whether this is HIV or not, I don't know. What I can say is, I went back to sleep about 45  minutes later and woke up fresh, hours later i.e. now. When I say fresh well, I kind of mean it. I don't feel cold anymore, I didn't wake up sweating, the sore throat and weezy coughing is there but I don't feel like my throat is so fucked up like someone rammed Legos inside it, like last night (kind of felt like my throat was healing itself through excruciating flem and pain, which makes sense because now it feels a lot better and coughing is no longer a death sentence) temperature and headache is noticeable, but is not bad; I'm not bed bound. I feel like the fever is subsiding and won't come back (again, I just have that bodily feeling that this was a one and done episode and with more rest I'm going to better and better, my intuition isn't always right but 99% of the times it is.)

But yeah, this typical flu can honestly be fuck flu and even though it's only been 4 days I was fine before this, didn't have any sex with anyone else and in fact that day was the only day I have went outside the entire week because I work from home (besides the home gym in my back garden which could have also given me this flu because cold iron.. man. I have been consistently going however despite the cold weather, maybe it just caught up to me now I don't know, but from the symptoms to go from zero to hundred over night.. I don't know if th gym caused this). so it's a shocker that I caught onto the flu really bad at this moment. 

One other thing, as guilty as this sounds, in order for me to go back to sleep again in the middle of the night, I was actually stroking over the thought of a guy today to load me up and maybe hit the baths later. I mean, this is the time that many people consider 'best' and even the mere thought of it made me find peace, solace and a deprived sense of horniness about the whole thing made me feel better. I don't know if the guy is Poz, but someone at the baths may be. I do like the thought of not knowing makes me feel better! It almost feels kind of gives me a way to 'seal the deal' without entirely slamming the door shut. Leaving that little inkling of doubt to spread itself.

The bottom line is, I don't know if it's HIV or not. But the way the symptoms just came down like that overnight, is pretty telling. 

 

[cman54]

I would let the feelings in my dick take over if I were you. Meet guys have fun. Go to the baths and enjoy yourself. Don`t worry about it. You seem to be ok with it happening now.

[Txyyxxxb2]

Ughh, so I had to create a second account because I reached my daily posting limit (seriously?)

So anyway I'm still laying in bed, stroking and so horny about the whole thing. I have a feeling that thread is about to take a downturn fairly quickly.. I am sweating rather profusely now. I'm pretty sure I already bitten the bug. I just don't know it yet. 

[Txyyxxxb2]

1 hour ago, cman54 said:

I would let the feelings in my dick take over if I were you. Meet guys have fun. Go to the baths and enjoy yourself. Don`t worry about it. You seem to be ok with it happening now.

Haha, I think that's actually what I'm about to do.

[Txyyxxxb2]

God the guy I was talking about is willing to breed me! I got this planned for today and then hopefully afterwards I'm going to play in the darkroom of the baths. I have never been to a bathhouse before, so this and the guy willing to breed me with frozen loads seems like a whole lot of fun! I'm actually feeling better about the whole thing already. The newly found plan is to take as many loads as possible today and get my HIV test on Monday. Will keep you all updated. In a way I'm actually kinda grateful this happened. I'm thrilled just thinking about how perverse I've become literally overnight! I'm going to use it to my advantage and have some fun. Life's too damn short and confusing as it is to worry about all this. 

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[Guest CuriousDallas]

A lot of the symptoms you have sound like what I’ve been going through for the past three weeks...have loose greasy stools, upset stomachs, nausea, exhaustion, sore/scratchy throat, chills/fever. Done two rounds of prednisone and antibiotics and can’t seem to shake it. I am on Prep but admittedly am not consistent in taking it..,usually take it before bed but if I’m hooked up with a guy and at his place don’t take it and if I’m drunk/high forget to when I get home. I’ve been taking seed from at least three guys I know are detectable but also from a lot of guys where I haven’t asked their status. I tested neg in October and am not due to test again until January but am thinking maybe I need to sooner. Of course it could just be the semester taking its toll on me...been a tough one.

[nymidtowneast]

Way to embrace your destiny, get knocked up then make sure to share it! 

[Txyyxxxb2]

22 minutes ago, nymidtowneast said:

Way to embrace your destiny, get knocked up then make sure to share it! 

Thanks nymidtowneast. Things just got more interesting. See the new screenshots.

I never knew he was Poz detectable! But had to ask because I am so horny right now just thinking about it. 

I'm literally just sitting around mentally preparing to go and see him. Still 3 hours mehh.. I feel like such a slut. 

[nymidtowneast]

Fuck that’s hot! Enjoy taking those toxic loads. 

[leatherpunk16]

I'm a bit confused by all this.

First you suggest that you might have the fuck flu after a potential exposure in a short time frame. You don't want to be poz. Then you decide "eh, what the hell" and just go with it and actively try to get it. That happened awfully fast. I don't buy it. Sounds like you are just jumping into it based on information you don't have yet. That you're not mature enough to make this important decision. 

If it's really what you want, I won't say any more about it.  But based on all that went before it, I'm not sure you know what you want.

[Txyyxxxb2]

Just now, leatherpunk16 said:

I'm a bit confused by all this.

First you suggest that you might have the fuck flu after a potential exposure in a short time frame. You don't want to be poz. Then you decide "eh, what the hell" and just go with it and actively try to get it. That happened awfully fast. I don't buy it. Sounds like you are just jumping into it based on information you don't have yet. That you're not mature enough to make this important decision. 

If it's really what you want, I won't say any more about it.  But based on all that went before it, I'm not sure you know what you want.

I just feel like I'm already Poz tbh. So why not go all out? I mean these symptoms suck. I know I've caught something and I believe it is the bug. I don't know what I want. But I'm almost certain I'm already Poz anyway. So who cares. 

[Pozlover1]

I was taking loads for years when AIDS came out so I assumed I had it. And with no cure why get tested? 

Your case is different, you can get tested and go on PrEP.

Or go ahead and get it and start stressing over new and different things. Your choice.

Just make a conscious decision. 

This one guy may be lying, and frozen cum cannot have live HIV in it. 

You will almost certainly get it real good in that bath house.