Just a Place to Stay

[mancoco]

 

I finished up at work and left early. I went to my classes and then I had my appointment with the health clinic for a follow up.  I met with Rob, the same nurse counselor I had the last time.  He seemed happy to see me.

"So how are you doing?" he asked

"Good" I replied

"Tell me what you have been up to in your relationships. Still with men and women?" he asked

I looked down.

"No, just been with men since we last talked" I replied softly

"Ok cool. It's fine. No judgement here. Men, women, trans, its all ok. I am gay too if that makes you feel better" he said

"Oh I'm not gay, I'm just you know" I said quickly

"No I don't know." he said

I paused and thought.

"I guess yes, I am liking being with men more. At least sexually its been great with men." I replied

"How so" asked

"I feel more fulfilled, intimate, way more pleasure with a man." I told him

"Can you explain in more detail" he asked

I told him, first it was the touching by another man. The way I was touched and how good and sensual it felt. As an example just being touched in my inner thigh and how I was so aroused. Being kissed by a man and also being held and in some ways mentored in erotic touching and sex.

It was both sensual and erotic I explained.  Also being eaten out was amazing. I never knew having my ass eaten out felt so good. 

"Sounds like you have been introduced and have explore male intimacy. It's fulfilling?" he said and asked

"Yes it is. I have never felt orgasms so intense and strong. Especially having my ass played with, eaten and even fucked" I said

"You like your ass played with and fucked" he asked

"Yes. I also have never orgasmed without touching my cock" I said feeling comfortable

"You mean from anal intercourse?" he asked

" Yes. The orgasm is so intense" I said

"How so" he asked

"It starts from deep in my groin area and spreads and just have energy and electricity going thru my body. I have a difficult time just cumming from jacking off", I said

I could see his look change at me. I could see some desire in listening to me but keeping it still professional.  My cock was hard as he noticed looking down and smiling at me.

I could see his hard cock too.

"Is there anything else you like about anal sex and dont' like" he asked

I paused

"I like the feeling of him cumming in me." I said

"What do you like about it" he asked

I paused for at least 20 seconds to think.

"The feeling of that hot spurt in me and being filled. Also I think having his cum in me. I don't know why or explain fully what I am feeling but yes having his cum in me" I said

"Has Rick been your only partner" he asked

I looked down, "No" I said

"How many partners have you had" he asked

"I don't know" I said

"Oh ok. How many do you think you have had" he asked

"Maybe 6 I think. I am not sure." I replied

"You don't remember each one? Where you at their place or yours or other" he asked

"Rick was one, then one of my Professors and then I went to an ABS" I said

"Your Professor? He coerce you?" he asked

"No nothing like that at all. I think he knew I found him attractive and he me. He invited me over to swim at his place and we ended up having sexy. It was totally consensual" I replied

"That's good to hear. Sometimes its not a fully consensual relationship. There is a power dynamic there that can be unfair." he said

"So at the ABS you had multiple partners? Safe sex?" he asked

"Yes I think it was four. I think 1 was safe with a condom and 3 were not and 2 may have been HIV positive" I said

"Have you been taking your PEP regularly" he asked

"Yes, I have." I said a little conflicted

"Why do you sound unsure" he asked

"I have taken it. I am confused about wanting to continue" I replied

"Yes I remember our discussion about having sex with HIV positive men without protection" he replied

"What are you confused about still" he asked

"Whether I want to keep taking it.  Why at the ABS I don't know why but I came without touching myself both by the POZ tops" I said

"Did you know they were POZ" he asked

"One I did and one I didn't know" I said

"How did you feel about that and what was it like and why was it so pleasurable?" he asked

"I do not know. One just the way he fucked me it was so intense and primal and I could feel him fully shoot in me. I came without touching myself. After I came, he told me he was POZ and shot in me. He said he could feel my pussy cling to his cock and squeeze it. The other when he told me he was POZ I just started to cum. He also said my pussy was sucking the cum out of him." I said reciting what had happened.

I could see him listening with interest and aroused.

"I even asked Rick after why. He suggested it was POZ tops fuck more wild than non-POZ in some cases" I said

"I also didn't care for the married guys especially the one with the condom. It felt good but nothing like bare cock" I said

"It sounds like you like to have men who are HIV positive have anal sex with you. And orgasm and cum in you" he said

I paused

"I don't know. I do not want to get HIV" I said

"Are you sure? Your cock tells me otherwise and so does your actions" he said looking down at my cock

All this talk made my cock hard and it was poking thru my shorts and I had a small wet spot on my shorts. 

"I noticed your cock. It got hard when we talked about male intimacy it got soft when we talked about other men it got soft again but as you talked about having anal sex with you and cumming in you especially POZ men your cock grew" he said looking down. He reached out and put his hand on my thigh.

"And that's ok if that is how you feel. There is no judgement here. I have many clients who have faced the same crossroads as you" he said

I paused and looked down. 

"I know I am confused. My body enjoys being fucked by a man and even more HIV men. It seems they push my buttons more and make me feel more pleasure more sensual" I said

"I don't know what it is" I said

I went on to recap again to him how watching those young me getting fucked by Rick and begging for his POZ cum in them made me both aroused and jealous. 

I told him how there is something intimate about allowing a man to cum in you and for his seed to be in you.

"What do you find arousing about being with an HIV positive man" he asked

"The act of the sex is primal. They fuck is better and is more aggressive, sensual and erotic at least the few I have been with. Second I think is the intimacy with another man to have him fuck you bare and cum in you. His cum in my hole. And I this may sound weird but having his HIV cum with his DNA marking me and infecting me. He will always be a part of me. I know this sounds weird but having his baby." I said

"Look down" he said

My cock was throbbing now pulsing on its own. The wet spot was bigger.

"I think it is also a turn on to give myself to a man. Offer me to him. Have him take me. There is something erotic about that. And then the connection of his body to mine. His cum swimming around in my ass trying to impregnate me. Being filled with his seed." I said sighing and then grabbing my hard cock.

"What do you mean by getting pregnant?" he asked

"Having his POZ cum in me making me infected with his DNA and impregnates me with his DNA. Its like giving myself to my man" I said

"I first hated when they called me ass a pussy. But now I used to it. Even like it I think. My ass has become a pussy. Wanting to get fucked and cum in it." I said

"Sometimes some gay bottoms get assgasms or pussgasms or some call them sissygasms where they experience intense orgasms from their pussy. And can orgasm multiple times. Have you had that?" he asked

"Yes it was incredible" I said

"I guess I do like the thought of being a gay bottom whose ass is now a pussy for men to fuck. It brings me so much pleasure" I said looking at him

"I can tell" he said his hand now on my hard cock. 

"What brings you pleasure?" he asked

"Giving myself to my man, letting him take me for his pleasure, receiving his seed in my pussy. Its fulfilling, intimate, sensual and makes me feel good, beautiful and sexy." I said

 

"Sounds like you have made a decision kind of" he said

"Maybe" I said

"Is it any man or a certain man to give yourself to?" he asked

"I think for now its Rick. He is the one who introduced me to male intimacy, pleasure and connection." I said

"Ok what can I do for you?" he asked

I guess I need an HIV test to see that I am negative or POZ.

"Are you hoping for one or the other if I may ask. And you do not have to answer I am just curious?" he asked

"I hope I am negative. Rick wanted to keep me on PEP and make sure I take it everyday." I replied

"Ok lets do the test", he said

He conducted the test and said I could wait in the waiting room.

I left and went to the waiting room. I used my back pack to hide the wet spot on my crotch. There were a few other students and one teacher in the waiting room. 

I hope i am negative. 

[kitpig]

Oh wow… Dan’s mind has finally caught up with his body… masterful writing @mancoco… and I hope when Rick returns that the notion of pep will be gone and that Dan’s pussy will be open to all!

[plisken]

So - Dan hope he's negative, so he can let Rick make him pregnat ...

[Docebrown]

Looks like Dan has finally decided wahat he needs. Hope he is neg. Then Rick and the professor can poz him

[pozpopperpig]

Dan is falling for all of Rick's tricks, hook line and sinker.  Rick is so adamant about Dan taking prep because HE want to be the one that converts him or at the very least be the one that chooses who converts Dan.  Fuck, I love this series!

[cman54]

This is just an awesome story. I thank the author a hundred times over for putting the work into it that he has. I'm sure many of us can relate to Dan's feelings and we know he will eventually stop the pep he is taking and actually embrace getting knocked up. We all want it to happen for Rick and Dan. And I'm sure it will. Much like myself I have been on the fence at times about it. But I know it will happen at some point. And I will embrace it when it does.

[Nypiss31]

So hot

[barebackrnb]

Another excellent chapter that gives us insights into how Dan is processing the conflict between his sexual desires and his rational thoughts.  @mancocooffers an wonderful recitation of feelings and thoughts that many chasers have experienced in some way. I agree with@kitpigDan's mind and body are syncing on the same page, but not completely yet.  Dan still has small vestiges of rational thought of being HIV negative, or is it, like what @pozpopperpigsuggested, Dan hopes he is still negative, so Rick can poz him and they will have a bond that Dan alluded to?  Either way, I trust @mancoco to make the next chapter(s) more erotic and arousing for readers. 

One concluding thought: The evolution of Dan's view of himself and body from chapter one to the present is truly realistic and a 180 degree change.  He admits that now he likes to refer to his ass as a pussy.  A major advancement toward Dan labeling himself a cum dump! 

[jagmanaz]

Dan has emerged from the page with all of the care and emotion that has hooked us all.  You have us rooting for him as he meets his struggles, maybe not head on, but how each of us do ourselves.  His journey thus far is amazing and we look forward to the next turns and triumphs he faces.  Thanks man!

 

[mancoco]

He called me back in.

"Good news, you are negative" he said

I was relieved and my eyes watered up a bit. 

"Thank you" I said

"You should have about a week left of PEP, correct?" he asked

"Yes I think so. I have 6-7 pills left" I said

"Okay keep taking it regularly if you want to stay negative.  I will give you another packet of 14 pills that way you don't have to go to the pharmacy." he said

"I just need to ask you a few more questions since you took the test. Some I have asked in our session but now I have to ask again for a survey." he said

      How many partners in the last 2 weeks?  Six

     Gender of your sexual partners? Men

     Did you practice safe sex with all your partners?  No

     How many did you practice safe sex with? 2 maybe

Did you provide the condom or did they?  They did

Did you knowingly and consensually have non safe sex? Yes

What kind of sex did you have (oral, anal, other)? Oral and anal

Did you know the HIV status of each partner? I think so.

Elaborate? I knew 4 were HIV positive and 2 were not. 

Do you know if the HIV positive men who you shared bodily fluid with are on any medication? I know one is not and the other 3 I am not sure. 

Was there an exchange of bodily fluid and if so how?  Yes they came in my ass and my mouth

Did you take PEP everyday and at the same time? Yes everyday and generally the same time.

 

"Thank you for answering the survey. Oh sorry I forgot a few demographic questions." he said

    Do you identify as straight, gay, bi or transgender?

 

I paused and looked down. 

"Bi I guess" I said

"Ok a few more questions" he said

    How many female partners have you had sexual relations with in the last 4 weeks? None

    How many male partners have you had sexual relations with in the last 4 weeks? Six

    Have you masturbated in the past 4 weeks and if so to what gender and type of material (porn, pics etc.)? I paused.  Gay porn, and BBRT profiles. 

 

He paused and looked at me.

"Are you attracted to women" he asked

"I don't know" I replied

"Do you look at them, check them out, fantasize?" he asked

"What do you mean" I replied

"Like if you saw a hot female student and she was wearing tight spandex or a short skirt, would you stare before you met Rick" he asked

"Yes" I replied

"Before you had a gf would you flirt and try and pick them up? You have casual sex with them" he asked

"Yes and I was good at it" I said smiling

"And now after you have had sex with these 6 male partners, do you look at women the same way?" he asked

I paused

"No I guess not" I replied

" I am sure you have seen women on campus in tight or short outfits. Any flirt with you?" he asked

I thought

"Yes one of my coworkers she wore tight and short outfits. I could even see her panties and sometime she showed camel toe. She even used her foot to rub my cock" I replied

"And how did you react" he asked

"I didn't" I said

"What do you mean you didn't? Did you get hard, flirt back, hook up, anything? He asked

"No I didn't get hard, I got embarrassed and...." I said and paused

"And what?" he asked

"I tried to hide it cause the Professor was there and I didn't want him to see or ...." I said

"You think he would have busted you both?" the nurse asked

"Yeah and..." I said

"It is okay I just am asking question to help you with your answers" he said 

"And I think I want to help you be self aware" he said as he put his hand on my knee

"And I was worried he would see and I think I was more interested in him not thinking I was liking it cause I wasn't" I replied

"So you were more worried about the Professor liking you?" he asked

"Yes I guess so" I said

"Is that the same Professor you had sex with?" he asked

"Yes" I replied

"Is he HIV positive?" he asked

"Yes he is" I said

The nurse looked down at my crotch. My cock was hard.

I paused

"I think I am exploring sex with men and male intimacy but probably going to stay with it and maybe I should just answer gay instead of bi." I said

"What made you change your mind?" he asked

"Just talking to you and realizing how far I have come.  I want to see where this goes. I can always change and go back to women or both. I think for now I like men" I said 

"Good for you" he replied. 

"Back to the issue of PEP and HIV and don't forget other STDs there are many health risks. I see the conflict in you and it is up to you to decide what is best for you.  Just make sure to do it with eyes wide open. I like you am a gay man. There are fantasy and feelings and sexual and erotic explorations but, in the end, it is your health and it is real with real life consequences. It isn't a sex novel, it is real and real life. Ok?" he said.

I nodded.

He gave me the second PEP packet and I left. I felt more comfortable about being me. 

[negchaserlooking]

love it

[kitpig]

Again, Masterful writing @mancoco... and I think we have all experienced the last comment after talking with close friends 'I felt more comfortable about being me.'... in my case only a year or so ago... and I sooo wish I had met a Rick type figure when I was back at uni to help me understand me :)