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this is blowing my mind! i don't even stay in one spot very long. the longest i e ever lived in one city is 13 years and that's not including the various neighborhoods i move between. quite often my FBs are neighbors, someone i run into often by chance or someone who's a quick booty call away for those late nite "you up" texts. a few lasted 3-4 years but that's about it. plus there's always the "stuff" that gets in the way. one guy made a deal w his husband that they'd only do 3ways and he'd stop cheating. i dropped out at that point. i was friendly w the husband but not attracted to him. it was actually a bit creepy how much alike we were physically. another guy, i loved how passionate and intense the sex was, but he was a holyrolller always trying to pray the gay away and each hookup was literally him falling off the wagon like i was his crack pipe.
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Tested Negative - Relived but still tempted
norefusal replied to Jm441's topic in Making The Decision To Bareback
you're not alone when i first came here after my divorce with similar stories and desires, i spent a long time scrolling around and reading and taking everyone's stories in. that helped. for my own situation, all i can say is: post-trauma addiction left untreated only leads to worsening behavior. had i not been talking more openly w people about these desires, id most probably be poz and regretful as we speak. but that's just me. usually, as w me, it all really stems from unresolved issues from childhood abuse. -
not just that, but gay porn became a huge public service network with not just a red warning at the start but often a big show was made of "look, i'm putting a condom on! i'm gonna fuck you so good!" etc
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stop trying to make "gay culture" happen Gretchen" 😜 it's especially laughable in the context of gay porn, which is basically free based str8 male desire. putting aside the fact that most of them are "gay for pay" heteros, most gay porn is a an alpha male showcasing his dominance by using, abusing and tossing aside a beta. he rough fucks the bottoms, pisses on him, slaps him, calls him bitch and slut, breeds his cunt then loses all interest in him. it's all so fucking ott str8boi culture its laughable. let's not even get into "knock me up daddy!, make me pregnant w your toxic babies" lol one time i casually told my husband i'd read the same book at 20 and at 30 and had completely different views of it. years later he gave me a copy of the same book for my 40th bday because he listened and remembered and wanted to make me happy. now that's fucking GAY 😜
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How much does your Family, contribute to the homophobia in your life.
norefusal replied to brnbk's topic in LGBT Politics
like most of society, they have greatly come around and been more and more accepting w each year that passes. when they all happily showed up to my wedding, that was a feel good moment. however.... even w my parents now gone, im really starting to face a sort of delayed reaction about just how f-ed up i am in the head from a childhood filled with unapologetic homophobia. it's like a delayed reaction, and post-trauma thriving only lasts x amount of years or something. -
so how do you deal w it? i find its very, very common for white guys to ask as a conversation starter "so where are you from?" and its kinda become a trigger for me, partly because i feel like im being gaslit. they act like its just a normal friendly question but all i hear is "i don't even know how to talk to you until i know which race you are"
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hopefully nobody is a total anything! how boring ive tasted pussy, piss, ass and cum. i might have my favs but im glad i tried them all. i think the OP was just expressing online buyers remorse. you order something off the internet and when it arrives its nothing like you imagined. but ya gotta roll w the punches. i may statistically bottom more often but fucking masc str8 dudes w a wife at home is a particular delicacy imho. just some kid's dad beggin to be bred... 💦💦💦sublime! 😜
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lol if you want to believe the USA is one big melting-pot love-fest where the average person's dinner party looks like a Beneton ad, knock yourself out. but statistics don't lie.
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depends on the situation really. 1. i'd do whatever my dom told me to do 2. since it's a survey, im assuming i have a choice. also considering the pic i imagine this is at some sort of group party situation at which point i would def take the bowl and chug it down in one go to show the others im gangsta so dont bother holding back having your way w me 😜
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all i can say is that no one gets to have it all. i too sometimes wondered if being slutty prevented me from finding love earlier but i think not. the two most significant relationships that have shaped my life both started out as random guys crushing me at the gym. when i married i was more than happy to get off the merry go round and settle down. but once divorced, although im glad i did what i did, the one regret i have is that i wasn't still whoring around during the marriage. if lightning does strike twice for me, i have a hard time believing i'd go back to monogamy
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Bottoms: Do you get fucked for the fucking or for the load?
norefusal replied to rawTOP's topic in General Discussion
100% the fucking. if i get a load, that's a perk but it's not the sole goal -
oh, i hadn't had one of those in a while. one did however help me get over the hump. i've always been a natural verbal moaner etc but when i was young the whole concept of "dirty talk" was weird to me. but one night i fucked this guy who turned out to be str8 on the DL (very pretty eager bottom, and a dad w kids - go figure) who was hardcore into it. he was literally babbling like a parrot who's owner watches too much porn but once i saw how excited it got him, i joined in. i was terrible at it, but he didn't care and it excited me to get him excited. OTOH, enjoying nurturing my sub bottom side of late, i love it when im moaning about how good the dicking is and the top harshly growls at me "shut the fuck up and just take it bitch!" 💦💦💦
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oh, the viagra does that to me now. tbh it's always taken me forever to cum but this too is something that in the 90s was a bonus but today is a liability. everyone seems to have become such a cum slut that guys start beggin for your load as soon as you impale them. the other day this guy was giving me such great head i swear i came twice but it turned out to be orgasms w/out ejaculation. i felt like a prostate cancer servivor. the bj was great for me but the guy never got his "reward"
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i've joined several meet up groups that proport to be about massage or nudity or whatever, and they are, but they all also quickly devolve into orgies. the guys who attend them all seem to be more like you so perhaps you should check some of them out. i don't agree 100% about the apps. everyone is there so it's hard to say "everyone is so..... " because there's actually a wide variety. i know i've been frustrated when looking for just the opposite. it's like dude i wanna get fucked by a stranger, not get married! 😜