I got raped on a couple different occasions . I don't remember how many times when I was young, a taxi driver that used to pick up a blind guy across the street from me initially would give me a quarter to kiss him , but I remember later on but still around the same age he drove me to a spot and pulled out his dick and had me play with it . I still remember him telling me to open my mouth and had me drink his cum , this happened more than once with him . And another guy raped me in a bathroom at an amusement park, I remember this a little better since I was around 10 . I remember him playing with me and sticking his finger in my ass, but it hurt . But I think this is why I'm more attracted to gay sex , not nessasarrily attracted to men .