I have been following this thread since the beginning and frankly I am not sure how my opinion will be received. I am sure I will see some differences of opinion judging by the responses already.
I was pretty young when I realized I was gay. Never have been with a woman and don’t intend to start. Also very young I realized I enjoyed being fucked much more than doing the fucking. Around the age of 16 or so I stopped topping all together. I knew back then that I wanted the cum of others. Not sure how I mentally progressed to being a total bottom. Mainly because it was not something I really thought about. I experienced from that age the wonderful feeling of a superior man. This transformed me into seeking tops that were controlling and physically superior. This was not really all that easy as I wrestled throughout high school and was in pretty good shape and I was proud of my development. This left me seeking older and bigger Tops than myself. I needed to feel inferior to their superiority. Time has changed that in ways.
Reading this thread has really made me look at myself and the Tops I choose. It’s not many threads on here that really cause that. I think it made me examine the question for what it is. My answer is yes I am less manly than the Tops the fuck me and spew the seed in me. Some are bigger than me some smaller but size is not the issue and isn’t necessarily attitude either.
I seek Tops that I feel would make good breeding partners. Someone who is manlier than me. I need their cum/seed. If I can’t find what I am looking for I get nervous and jittery. I know I need what these Tops have. Pausing to look at that statement is that manly? I think not! I know I need a MAN to fuck, seed and breed me. I am not feminine but do feel less manly knowing that I can only get what I need from a MAN.
I cannot completely explain this but its a need. I have to fill it or be filled for it to go away. I have thought of ways to look at this differently. Each time I come back to the same thoughts I need the seed to feel complete.
I know I am a total submissive bottom and I think this is driven by that need. I feel that need makes me less manly. Wouldn’t you agree? Are these the actions or thoughts you manly MEN have? I know I need to carry around the seed of another man to feel whole or complete. To feel a MAN using me for his pleasure and me using my whole to please him. The reward being that he leaves part of him with me.
What I do for a living (law enforcement) is by all means manly. I work on cars and motorcycles as a hobby. I ride motorcycles and race on a sponsored team. These are all manly things but I still feel less manly knowing that for the right MAN I word shed my clothes and grab my ankles to get the seed of another man.
I feel RawTop, Matias47 and all the others have valid points but, every person/situation is different.