RodDallas

Two thoughts. Being Alive is a small West Hollywood ASO that will use their relationships with big Pharma & local pharmacies to try to connect an individual with small quantities of antiviral meds on an emergency basis. There is no charge for the service, you don't have to live in West Hollywood and you are not required to be a client. They aren't always able to arrange a connection, but it wouldn't hurt to give them a call or stop by when you arrive. Being Alive 7531 Santa Monica Boulevard, Suite 100 West Hollywood, CA 90046 323-874-4322 Mon - Fri 10-5 http://www.beingalivela.org http://www.facebook.com/BeingAliveLA I'd recommend against AHF, AIDS Healthcare Foundation, and its physicians. Nothing to suggest physicians are disinclined to provide PrEP or that quality of care is compromised. But..... Links are about AHF and President & CEO, Michael Weinstein. A call for Michael Weinstein to resign because he called Truvada a 'party drug' while he was fighting its approval for PrEP. http://www.change.org/petitions/ahf-remove-weinstein Michael Weinstein's response in The Fight says his concern is with lack of compliance and abandonment of condoms. http://thefightmag.com/2014/05/weinsteins-stand/ AHF docs want to unionize saying AHF focuses on politics and not enough on patients. http://www.wehoville.com/2013/09/27/doctors-want-form-union-arguing-ahf-focuses-much-politics-enough-patients/ AHF statement of principles - N.B. Pornography, PrEP & Condoms sections http://www.aidshealth.org/wp-content/uploads/2014/06/AHF-Principles-of-Prevention.pdf#page=1&zoom=auto,-17,836 No speculation on Michael Weinstein's motives. Just red flags regarding time and money spent that don't seem to link to fighting HIV.

Can't imagine anyone not wantin to do this. Count me in.

Never been, but now that I know about it, certainly seems worth a visit. Don't suppose there are other places around town like this one?

So boy, u found that special daddy yet?

What cities U visitin?

Thank you so much for those words of truth. I only wish I had been ready to read them oh say 30 years ago, give or take a decade or 2. I live in Hollywood, CA now, but grew up in TX. There it was all about macho, playing sports, being an alpha, not being weak. By not demonstrating those attributes, not only was one considered weak, but also he was ostracized from the people and groups He previously associated with. That would be me. Luckily I grew up in the parks. It was a little more forgiving there. Though I was the one gettin sucked off. So I've carried the need to be a macho, alpha, strong man around with me for a LONG time. JEEZUS FUK it's a burden and it's damn limiting too. Separate and apart from the mind game side of things, I have my own physical challenges. I am 6'3" and as it turns out am pretty well hung. That often allows me the oportunity to be advised by guys that they can't see themselves playing with me because I'm "intimidating". I could argue, but well, OK they're right. FUK I've had corporate trainers tell me in front of classrooms full of execs that they are intimidated by me. All of that just reinforces the role I end up with in sex. Once a guy sees ME. I can easily see in their eyes that I'm gonna be toppin. Now don't get me wrong. I would never complain about any of that. Well maybe my felt need to maintain that perception among even my closest friends & fukbudz. But that is truly my problem. So to the point and your words of wisdom. Only recently have I started coming out yet again, this time allowing myself to be vulnerable with some of those that think they really know me, letting them experience me in a totally different role. The usual response is that they think I want them to be a top. FUK, who needs a label? I don't want them to 'be' anything other than themselves. The interesting thing is that I always thought I would feel uncomfortable allowing others to see another side of me. Though it still isn't a walk in the park for me, when I fully engage in servicing someone that thinks they know me, it turns out that I am not the problem, they are. I'm doing a lot more work. I have to let them feel the kinda servicing job I can do, but I also make sure that they feel no pressure to act in any role other than to try to allow themselves to enjoy the experience. A challenge for sure. So einathens I hope your words are widely distributed and adopted. I know that I try to take them to heart all the time. Doing so allows me to surprisingly feel better about myself. And getting lost in the moment is a truly exquisite feeling. I guess what I've been trying to say through all of the words is that during the last year my changes don't fit so neatly in the choices presented. What I believe has happened is that I've become more accepting of all of me. It feels so much better than accepting bits and pieces and glossing over the things that don't seem to fit. Unfortunately being my own limiting factor I always worried that I wouldn't know how to relate to the other guy after I played service pig for him. The reality is that the other guy usually doesn't know how to act or what to say to me. To brag a little, there have been those that afterward have shown their own vulnerability and confided that they feel they need to up their game now when they service me. FUCK YESSSSS. What a nice compliment. It is times like that when both men entirely let down their guard and allow lust and instinct, but more importantly pleasure and enjoyment to guide them that seems to lead in the best cases to an even deeper friend / fuckbudship.

Besides it sounding like a must have for my wardrobe, I'm thinking it has a side benefit. I gotta think that the more shirts, clothes or gear like you describe are seen around town the more they begin or help to normalize my sexual choice.