joethomas

Man that is a hot experience. Hopefully you'll be going back to that store often.

If you really don't want an STD or HIV, just assume that every guy you encounter is a potential risk until you know otherwise. I've actually become most comfortable with men who are poz but undetectable, because they actually know their status and are taking precautions to prevent further transmission. The guys who want to fuck raw and insist that they're negative are the ones who scare me the most. As for guys who are on PreP, that seems to be a pretty safe risk, although even then you can't guarantee anything. Bottom line is that the odds of you getting an STD or HIV from your very first raw encounter are slim. But even then, it's not impossible.

Took two loads from a couple of huge black tops over the weekend. Black tops seem to be my pattern lately, because the last 5 or 6 tops I've played with have been black. None of them ever asked if I wanted BB or safe. One was about 8 1/2 inches, the other easily was 11 inches, and that's no exaggeration. After he got into my bedroom and stripped down and showed his hard dick in person, I almost backed out and sent him home, fearing that there was no way I could handle it OR enjoy it. Poppers helped quite a bit, thankfully. By the time he was ready to cum and saying "Where do you want it?", I definitely wasn't feeling pain.

Signed onto A4A a few nights ago and a hot, hot black guy hits me up. He's maybe 6-2, 200 pounds, light-skinned, 23 years old, solid muscle head to toe. Turns out he's an escort who's been in town a few days and about to leave the next day. It's about 3 am, he says business is slow (it was Monday night), so he says he's just looking for a good ass to pound and invites me to his hotel for a freebie. His profile and my profile both say "safe only" as well as "HIV negative." Turns out he's almost intimidatingly hot in person. I bring a bottle of whiskey with me, so we do a couple of shots and chat a little before we strip down. His dick is already hard and a solid 9 inches, but he puts me on my back and forces his dick down my throat for about 30 seconds while it gets even bigger. Lucky I had the whiskey a few minutes earlier, because he throws a little lube on his dick and in one swift motion lifts my legs over his shoulders and shoves his dick completely in my ass and holds it there for about 10 seconds before building a steady pace and, after about 5 minutes, blowing a heavy load deep inside. We'd never discussed condoms, so I was surprised but definitely not disappoited to have gotten a huge load that many guys have paid him for in the past. I got home to clean up and noticed a little blood and still heavy cum dripping out of my hole, which was already sore. Fast forward to Thursday, and I'm talking to a gay friend of mine, and I eventually show him the profile of the adonis who fucked me the a few days earlier. I didn't tell my friend that the escort had fucked me raw. My friend's eyes got big and he says, "I'm so glad you use condoms, because that guy told me he's poz and not on meds. He said that's why he only fucks safe now." So. I guess we'll know the end of this story in a couple of weeks or so if/when the flu hits. I always knew this was a possibility, and not one I necessarily looked for, but one that I accept as a very real possibility. We'll see what happens.

(And for what it's worth: Yeah, I probably would've let him do anything he asked. So I'm as guilty as anybody.)

I've said this over and over: If you bottom and don't ask for a condom, it doesn't matter if the top lies or tells you the truth. You should prepare for anything and prepare for the consequences. It's like P.T. Barnum used to say: "There's a sucker born every minute."

Sunday night started chatting on a4a with a visting guy, 28-year-old black hottie with a muscular body and perfect face. He says he wants to come over with a friend, but both only play safe. So they show up with some Red Bull, which we immediately mix with vodka, and we all get a good buzz. After about an hour of feeling up him (turns out he's an exotic dancer back home) and his friend (cute with a massive dick), we head to the bedroom, where they both take turns pounding me bb. We never discussed status or condoms. I took a load from both of them before they left around 5 a.m., with the promise of more later this week.

If you're just wanting to get drunk faster, replace your gin or vodka with Everclear. It's an incredibly strong liquor and mostly flavorless. It mixes fine with juice or even tea or cola, and it will get you buzzed twice as fast as a regular liquor.

Met a friend for drinks last night at a local gay bar around 12:30 a.m. Got a good buzz and started chatting with a group of 4 guys, and at last call, we invited them back to my friend's house for fun. It turns out I was the only bottom in the entire group, so I ended up taking loads from those 4 guys plus the friend I'd met for drinks. They had me on my back from about 4 am to 8 am. None of them ever mentioned using a condom or told me their status.

If HIV-positive men choose to stealth other men, this message board (or any other) isn't going to deter them or influence them. They're going to do what their heart and mind says to do. If you choose to somehow implicate a website, that seems rather simplistic. It sort of reminds me of all the people who say rap music or violent TV shows turn our children into psycho killers. Seems to me that people were killing each other long before TV came along. I'd imagine that gay men followed their sexual instincts long before message boards came along, too.

Those sound like amazing nights! I would love an experience like that one.

Amazing story! Just curious Poisonrod, do you keep track of how many guys you've gifted? Just curious if there's a number.

Great series so far. I hope there's much more to come!

Damn that sounds like a perfect experience! Like you, I don't go out of my way to find poz loads, but a guy with the right dick and the right look can convince me to do anything.

I'm definitely checking out Whole Foods and Trader Joe's this weekend to find this stuff. Sounds perfect. I'm always way too self-concious about being properly clean when I bottom, so this is going to ease my mind a bit.

Met up with a hot 24-year-old guy off Grindr last night. Really cute masculine dude, about 5-6 and 150 pounds with a perfect-sized dick and great body. He came to my place and we started drinking whiskey. After a nice buzz, we went to the bedroom, got out the poppers and I took his first raw load with me on my back, then took a break for more whiskey and a little chat, then he dumped another load in me while i rode his dick. We finally passed out in bed, then when he woke up this morning shot a third load in me. He said he's negative and tested, but he was so hot I wouldn't have stopped him anyway.

I've been with several undetectable poz guys and I'm still negative. A couple have insisted on condoms, but most were bare.

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Poptronic, hopefully the episode with the 19-yo is truly over and done so that you can focus on your health and your needs in the short term. Some things will always be out of your control, but it sounds like you have the right attitude to roll with the punches (although I've learned that deep breaths and repeating the phrase "fuck it!" helps sometimes, too).

I was with a top about a month ago who, as he was getting close, asked me where I wanted it. I said "Anywhere you want," so he pulled out and shot all the way up my chest to my mouth. Seemed like a waste of a great load, but that was his choice, not mine. I've only asked one top to ever pull out, but that's only because he was being a total prick and I was tired of him.

I've been bottoming for about 3 years but just bought poppers (Blue Boy) for the first time about 2 months ago. I usually take a whiff up each nostril right before the top starts fucking me. At least in my situation, I feel my face get hot for about 2 seconds, followed by an intense relaxation and feeling of arousal. As for how to buy them: A lot of adult video stores here in the US carry them.

Took 2 bb loads Friday, 1 more Saturday. Friday went to a guy's house after weeks of trying to coordinate schedules. As he's pounding me he's telling me about the hot, local and "straight" MMA fighter that he had just sucked off right before I got there. As he was talking about swallowing the straight guy's load he floods my guts with his own. Left there and quickly found a visitor on a4a in a nearby hotel. He leaves his door open for me, I walk in and see him laying in bed in a jock strap, both nipples pierced, beautifully tanned, solid 9-inch dick already rock-hard. I work it over (definitely a test of my gag reflex) before he puts me on my back and notices I'm already lubed from the previous top (which I think made him even harder). Luckily I had poppers, because otherwise my moaning would have awaken everybody in the hotel. After about 10 amazing minutes he cums deep inside. Saturday night (still a little sore from Friday night's 9-incher) got topped by one of my regular local guys in an unusually intense 15-minute session. Again, poppers to the rescue. Left there and saw a text of a vers guy I'd been talking to on BBRT. I go to his place expecting to get pounded, but instead he begs me to fist him. I'd never done it, but he coaches me and we manage to get my full hand inside up to the wrist (and my hands aren't small, but he took it like a champ). He jerked off and shot his load down my throat before I left.

It sounds as though the 19-year-old isn't concerned about being negative or poz if he's taking anonymous loads in parks. Those decisions will turn him poz at some point. It sounds like he's already accepted the risk.

Monday night was interesting. Because of bad weather I planned to stay home, but got online and one thing led to another. Took loads from 4 guys. First started talking with a guy from out of town who was at a local hotel. I arrived and found 4 guys in the room, all naked and rock-hard. Two of of them were fucking on the bed, and one who opened the door was a hot, athletic late-20s dude who guided me toward the bed, stripped off my clothes and laid me on my back. He put on a condom and started to fuck me while I felt up both him and the two guys fucking right next to me in bed. After a couple of minutes, the guy on top of me says he's close. I push him back slightly and pull his condom off. He tells me to stop because he's poz. I grab his ass, push him back into me and he cums within 10 seconds. I hang out for a few minutes but lose interest and head out. Left there around midnight, got on Manhunt and a guy hits me up who's visiting in an upscale hotel near downtown. Amazing hot body, mid-30s guy. He says he wants to leave his door slightly open, wants me to come into his dark hotel room, put my ass up and breed me. I'm feeling ready for anything, so i get there and do as he says. I walk in, feel my way toward the bed, strip and bend over. He walks over in the dark, never seeing my face and me never seeing his, and fucks me hard for about 10 minutes before shooting a huge load with my face planted in the pillow. I got dressed, left the room and never said a word. I was walking with a limp back to my truck. Then I check my texts and and see that a regular buddy of mine is home and bored, so I go over to have a drink and catch up. Within 15 minutes he's telling me he's drunk and horny, so he takes me into the bedroom and eats my hole out (I did tell him I'd already taken 2 loads that night, so he knew and might have been turned on by it). In no time at all he's lubing up and fucking me on my back, very gently, which was perfect because my ass was already sore from the anon hotel guy. He unloads in me and we say goodnight. After all that, I stop at a local gay bar on the way home for a nightcap, ready to unwind and get to sleep. Instead I meet a hot 40-something guy, very trim body, buys me a couple of beers, then one thing leads to another and I bring him back to my place to spend the night. By then I have a good buzz so I'm not feeling my sore ass, so he fucks me once before I went to sleep, then again around 8 a.m. before he had to go to work. Both times bb.

Friday night went and saw an old buddy of mine at a downtown hotel. Hadn't seen him in about a year. He knows I prefer to top, and I only get the mood to bottom once in a while, so he was pushing for me to take a load despite my effort to fuck him. He gave me a couple rounds of poppers and my head was spinning pretty quick. He kept saying "Yeah, take my toxic load" as he bred me. Saturday night went and saw a hot 22-year-old military kid I've been talking to for a long time but could never coordinate our schedules. He's poz and said he just wanted to bottom. I got to his place, started playing around and next thing I know he's lubing up and lifting my legs over his shoulders. Shot a huge load in me and made out for a little while after.