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When my boyfriend and I were having anon guys over, they would all bareback me and shoot in me. There was only one exception, and it was a black guy. Such a shame he used a condom.

Took two anon loads last weekend when I stayed in a motel. The first one I got within a minute, which disappointed me because I worked hard to get him over. He turned into a psycho afterwards. The second was a married man who was into biting and wanted me to suck on his nipples. He had a nice 7" uncut cock. The first uncut cock I ever had. When he was about to cum, he got on top of me and fucked my mouth as he shot his load down my throat.

Decided I would make a permanent place to post my loads for the year. Previous loads include one from a neighbor and one froman anon black guy in a cemetery. March 4: Ended up renting a room, posted an ad but only had two people show up. The first was a 35 year old. Plans were to fuck, but once he got to the room he said he only showed up so I wouldn't post his pictures online... sure! Soon as I got his dick in my mouth he shot his load in less than a minute... said he doesn't like guys sucking him off, but when he came he was forcing me to deep throat all of him, which wasn't much, as he said "you're about to get what you wanted". I was left sad... it was over so quick... then he turned into a complete psycho and I couldn't get him out of the room fast enough! Second guy that showed up turned out to be a married man in his 40s... was suppose to be just oral, but he felt like biting me all over as I was sucking him. He had a 7" uncut cock, the first uncut cock I have ever had. Once it was hard it got thicker. He lasted a good 15 minutes, but was involving foreplay on his part. He got on top of me and fucked my mouth as he shot his load down my throat.

Had a few people email me, gave my contact info to them, but have yet to receive anything... Would love to get some to fuck into my ass. semoguy573@yahoo.com

I try to always swallow. There's been two guys that I didn't, both because there was a massive amount and I couldn't get it all down without choking and up it came. The first guy, I wasn't even expecting to cum so soon, and boom it just shot all in my mouth and I couldn't take it and let it drain out all over his cock, then licked it off. All cum taste different, but if I can, I always swallow.

I was like that for years. I would meet guys online and chat about meeting, then I would get scared and back out. I had anxiety disorder, and I started getting treatment to cope with it. Finally in 2012 I gave it a shot. One of the guys who had talked to me before had added me on Facebook, not knowing it was me until I told him... we set up the hookup for the next day... he came over... I was still nervous as hell, but had some drinks before hand to loosen me up... I sucked, he fucked, he shot and next thing I know that bitch has me sucking his toes. He wanted to come back about a week later and he was pissed when he learned I had just had another guy over to blow... I'm thinking we are not together... why does it matter. He was like, "I'll come over but we aren't doing anything!" and went on about sloppy seconds. Within 5 minutes of him showing up his dick was already out for me to take care of. That was the last time I was with him though, and kinda glad. He was kinda clingy and bossy. We stayed friends though until I became poz and he went off on me and blocked me. To this day I still get nervous at times, but mostly I just go for it. If I have them over to my place I don't get nervous at all. I seem to get nervous only when I go out to a public place to meet them, thinking it's going to turn out to be a joke or something worse... but that hasn't happened yet.

I got new good news today from my visit. The Stribild seems to be working. My VL went from 47,000 (I believe) to 700, my CD4 went from 140 to 270. She said by the time I come back in 3 months I could be undetectable. We shall see. Just wish I could get my CD4 to boost up more.

Stribild is what I've been on. I was told in December that my VL was going down and my CD4 was going up. My CD4, from the last test before I started was 140. I go back in the morning for an update, but they said it is doing its job.

I do believe I have.

And might I add. I didn't actually know he was poz until I did what I did. His ex roommate called and told me in June, which is why I got tested... but yeah, thanks.

I already have, but thanks.

Will be checking out your blog. Keep your head up. If you ever wanna talk, give me a holler. I'm 29, been poz for 8 months. It's an emotional ride. Even after a few months of letting it sink in. More young people need to do more to educate others. I knew nothing about HIV until after I got it and started doing research. It's sad to know, I have lost friends because of this... and other friends have lost their friends. One of my friend's friend told her she needed to get tested because my boyfriend and I lived in her house for almost 2 months. The part that hurt the most is that she actually went and got tested. She said she only did it to shut everyone up, but I just say fuck them. If they think like that, they are uneducated fools who you don't need as friends. Now, the only friend I seem to have left is her mother, as the actual friend isn't talking to me anymore, and even the mother makes remarks regarding the HIV and my boyfriend. Sometimes I feel it's best if I weren't here, but then who would put all of these uneducated fools in their place?

Reading this, knowing you are dealing with this drama makes me sad. I have been dealing with the same thing. I tested poz in June of last year. I didn't start fucking around until October of 2012. I got sick around the end of March, lasted for about a month before I got tested and found out for sure. Between October 2012 to February 2013 I was with about 20 different guys. I was with my boyfriend (who is poz) in December and used protection, so I assumed all was okay. I continued on with other guys until February. On Valentine's Day I was with my boyfriend without protection, thinking it was just one time, that I wouldn't get it, but afterwards I decided not to hookup with other guys. The nurse said I needed to go to police and explain all of this, so other people who were with us can get tested... yeah right!! They asked me a bunch of shit, made me make up shit, and boom, arrested my boyfriend and put lies in the headlines. They asked me for a list of guys I was with, and I gave them all I could remember, some were random off Craigslist so there was no way to give them everyone's name. One of my friends who I was with in January turned on me, told police he was having sex with my boyfriend at my house, which as far as I know never happened. Another man, who was friends of my friend's boyfriend went to police and said he was also with him, which I still doubt. He said he would have never had sex with someone with HIV. Here comes the fucked up part... my so-called "friend" later told me he lied because I had had sex with him after having sex with my poz boyfriend - with a condom. Because of something I did, my boyfriend was punished. The other guy admitted he also lied because in January I refused to have a 4-way with my friend, his boyfriend and this other guy. Even funnier, this second guy who said he would never have sex with anyone with HIV, came to me online after my boyfriend was arrested, knowing I was poz and invited me over to fuck him... pretty sad. In Missouri, according to police here, anyone can make up a lie and say you slept with them and didn't tell them, even if you never slept with the person, and you will be charged since you can't prove the sex never happened. They automatically side with the victim. My boyfriend and I were set to start treatment 3 days after his arrested. He has been in jail for going on 7 months now, and they refuse to let him have any kind of medication. In their words, he should die there since he is a criminal. Now, as for people who is saying this guy is trouble, I wouldn't call it trouble. When I got the news I was poz, I was pissed... upset... hurt... embarrassed. I put all the blame on my boyfriend. I hurt him a lot. I realized at the week went by I was the one that was wrong, and I have been trying to make it right ever since. I realized I had to take responsibility for my own actions. I wish I had realized that sooner, but the way these clinics work, they try to get you to put all the blame on the other person. I think it has to do with getting it in the news, which will have many people running to the clinic to get tested... I hope this guy you are talking about realizes he has to take responsibility for his actions, not just you.

Wow... never thought about this... sounds fucking hot... wish someone would send me some cum to suck down... can never get enough but it's hard to come by these days and in this area!!! semoguy573@yahoo.com if anyone wants to donate to a cum lover in need...

I love all cock, but I seem to want black cock more. I've only had two though, and only one shot in my mouth. The other shot on my ass... what a waste!!

This town is small, very small. I came from a town not much bigger than this, and that place seems to be dead these days too. I have come across many Poz guys in the town over from me, but after a few conversations they seem to fade away... Also come across the non-Poz ones that will do it only with a condom, but again, they fade away... I did hookup Saturday night. Only oral, again. Said he had a girlfriend. He was my second black cock I've had. Neither could host and we ended up in a cemetery. He said it would take a while because his girlfriend didn't blow him, but once I got it in my mouth, it didn't take long at all.

So, it's been around 8 months now since I've had any type of sexual activity. The boyfriend has been locked up... became depressed once everyone found out I was positive... didn't think I would get anymore action. I decided to post an ad on Craigslist, thinking nothing would come of it. I am now living in a very small town... with no wheels so I can't go to anyone... was just looking for some loads to suck out. Got a reply, and after two days he picked me up from the bar across from my house... turns out he lives on the block behind me. We went to a boat ramp around 2am... I got down to what I like doing. He wanted me to eat his ass... I was like, yeah, I've never done that... don't think so... kept sucking... before I knew it he has his ass up between the seats and my face was buried in it. His cock was so good too. He wanted my ass, but neither brought a condom... next time I will though! He said the day before he had a week's load saved up... he told me that night he had got off the night before... but when he came... so much cum filled my mouth... I usually swallow but damn... I went from his lap to out the window... still good though!! Wish I could do that every night, but he is married, so getting alone time is hard for him.

Maybe not sure. I live almost two hours from Cape, only time I get up there is to see the doctor these days. Semo seems to be dead these days. I look nearly everywhere, but everyone I find is strictly bottom. Thought about going to Pop Roxxx at Bluff, but I've heard even those are dead. I did manage to meet up with someone for oral over the weekend, lived right behind me... of course he was a bottom too, but said we would hook up for fucking... then he goes silent. I guess I comprised his Christianity. That or the wife found out about me?

Doubt I will see much attention from this... Any tops in the Semo area?? Always looking for a pounding. Can't really host myself but I know of a place (late night hours), or just get a room... It's been almost 7 months since my last pounding... I am in need. If you want more info just message me...