SugarWalls

My Poll answers: I use anal stimulation as a form of masturbation regularly, If I am masturbating anally, I rarely stimulate my penis, When I masturbate anally, I always bring myself to an orgasm without stimulating my penis . In my years of Tantric Sex training, it became known to me to figure out how to achieve ejaculation and orgasm separately (in Tantra, ejaculating is the release of Essence, orgasm is the release of Energy; the former happens in the body, the latter in the mind and is just one of the many-layered aspects of spiritual based sex) and found that for me, the real thrill lay in the Orgasm. As a top, I easily learned to master achieving orgasm and ejaculation in multiplicity first through self-exploration then through partnered sex (hence being "multi-loaded"). As a bottom I have always been able to achieve ejaculation through the penis, with the hands or hands-free. A very pleasurable experience but I felt that I needed to know further, to explore that three second space that comes about right before ejaculation and see if I could experience and master that anally. So I studied and explored and found the pathways through anal masturbation, much like one does when they do the same in penile stimulation to grow the Energy and achieve Orgasm multiplied/amplified without ejaculating. It took knowing where in me it felt great, it took knowing how to pulse and vibrate the waves of energy throughout my interior walls, I learned through regular anal masturbation. Now, and as a result, I have a certain mastery of my "Inner World" and always seek to orgasm anally for myself and my partner(s). And being able to transmit that sensation to my partner is such an overwhelming thrill--knowing that I can make him cum by pulse and vibration and hum throughout my inner walls (not just at the sphincter but in the upper chambers/second hole and walls)--and being able to use his full length and girth to my advantage and pleasure, finding my "spots" and sending myself off to the highest heights and to orgasm repeatedly...the heavy breathing, eyes swirling in my head, the electricity surging through me, leaving the world for ecstatic moments, the feeling of true pleasure...there really is nothing else like it!

Oh, the hypocrisy is rampant! My A4A profile clearly states "Anything Goes" with me saying that "this is my preference, as is yours" and I get many preachy responses because of my open honesty/preference for BB sex. On my BBRT profile, I openly state my current health facts: when I was last tested, free of STDs/Hep B, C just for awareness. I get preachy responses there too because "I'm not a 'no loads refused' barebacker". Am I missing something--if you are a bottom on BBRT is it a prerequisite that you're a free-for-all cumdump?? Or on A4A if you even bareback then you must be some sexual petri dish?? Wow, sometimes you just can't win!

I'm currently in a sexual relationship with a str8 man with a girlfriend, have been for over two years now. He claims he and his girlfriend don't have sex, so I am his only sexual outlet (although I have had indications of when they have had sex over the years so I know this is only a claim and don't rest on those laurels of it never possibly happening). He also has two kids, in there teens (by women other than his current girlfriend). We have sex regularly--3 or 4 times a week. We mainly have sex at my place but I have been to his place a number of times and have had sex in their bed too. He even outfitted the garage as a "private space" complete with a couch and other furniture, and if I'm not invited in to the main house, that is where we fuck, bent over on that couch! We've gone on one out of town trip for a sex filled week-end which was great, doing it again in a few months. Last November he supposedly broke up with his girlfriend and came over on the night of their "break up" to fuck and fill me, twice! It was extremely hot but also a bit saddening for me. I felt used and tried to break our relations off because of these feelings (a few times actually). I also realized that they didn't break up, since they're still living together and have resumed their partnership. Still, we're together because our sex is GREAT. I don't fool myself that there could be anything more than our sexual relationship because he's still with her for the companionship and love and security she provides for him. Although he says he loves me, I know it's the sexual feelings he's expressing, not anything more than that. Our sex has evolved from him just coming over to find me ass up to take his load (like on the beginning) to us having passionate, affectionate encounters, lovemaking as it is. He now even kisses me, gives me analingus, and always does his favorite thing: to "get me pregnant" and fill me with his cum. It's his constant urge and need and I'll continue to happily do it because I completely enjoy that big 9" cock and those hot loads he fills my pussy up with! The day will come though when I'll end up in a proper open queer relationship and I'll have to leave him behind but until then...

The last load I took was from my Str8 Alpha Lover last night. He came over and made tender love to me for over two hours, bending and twisting and turning me every way you can think of, his "beautiful baby doll" for his pleasure. Telling me he's "going to get me pregnant", he gave me two loads so deeply delivered by his 9" thick cock that they still haven't come out (the first one was most likely our lube for the second session). My pussy literally has eaten them both up. We were going to get together this morning but couldn't because we both had Holiday plans, and there's nothing more that I love than to have some morning glory with him the very next day, more of his cum to carry and fill me up, so the desire for more left me incredibly horny all day... The last load I gave was about 45 minutes ago, to my Black Daddy bottom. He texted me this afternoon saying he was hosting and craving my big girl cock and the hot multi-loaded fucks I give him. Being incredibly horny all day thinking about my Alpha and the hot sex we had last night and knowing I had one of my favorite holes just waiting for me to fuck, I was raging hard driving over to Black Daddy. He had four loads in him already ( I love it wet n sloppy). I fucked him for an hour and a half, giving him 3 loads. He wanted his "pretty girl" to be rough tonight so I delivered a spectacular final load holding him down, cheeks spread apart, my nails digging into his mounds of ass flesh, my cock shooting volleys of cum into his slop hole... It's been a Memorial Day to remember, indeed

I'm an endurance fuck--30 minutes is a good amount of time to start with. As a top, I will ejaculate multiple times in a hot ass or pussy until I get to the "big load" (the one that ends the session). As a bottom, I like to orgasm as many times as possible before I ejaculate and can mindfully hold off for a long time; the longest amount of time I have gotten fucked with one Lover for 14 hours, with only three fifteen minute breaks along the way.

The longest is about a whole day, or until I have a movement, whichever comes first. The most I've held inside me at one time was 14 loads, keeping in mind that each previous load was merely just lube for the next guy until he "replaced" the lube himself. It was like one giant load filling my pussy repeatedly. I have one Lover who introduced me to the "Yellow Load" (piss) and I love when he does that! The first few times it was always right after his first cum load but now he straight away pisses in me first a yellow load, which I can't hold in for very long. He says he does this to "sterilize" my pussy so his cum is the only one in me. He always proceeds to fuck and cum load me up a few more times before the night is over.