SugarWalls

My Dom Wolf 'hate fucks' me often. I absolutely love it. I asked him outright the last time we fucked why he's so full of hate when he fucks me and he told me that in his normal life, the pressures of being a responsible father, a good husband, and well liked nice guy to family, friends, and strangers just takes a real toll on him and that I am the outlet for all of that frustration and deep rooted hate of having to be that all the time. Strangely though, his 'hate' is actually his unbridled pleasure and joy and it only can be expressed in that form. I am left bruised and very sore (from the body punches and deep bite marks and spankings/whipping) afterwards and it feels so good to me! Unlike my other Lovers, his brand of Passion is unique and I find myself in deep cravings for him and those brutally sweet hate fucks.

I always say: "fill me with your cum, make me Yours..!"

I've never given this particular position (all 4's, knees together) much thought but find that I'm often in this position when being taken doggy--perhaps because I'm a smaller build (5'9", 130#) it is easier for my Tops to naturally place me in this position and yes, it is more "feminine" which is also why I'm taken this way when in doggy (most all of my regular Tops are heterosexually-identified). So that I have more stabillity, I always cross my feet over each other too. It helps me, I guess to stay connected to the floor/bed so my Top can go in and plow away as he holds my waist. In reverse, I also find that my Tops will put me Missionary with my legs on his shoulders and my knees pressed against me. Again, I instinctively cross my feet if they're relaxed behind his head or if his hands are pushing my knees down, they'll rest on his shoulders or flat against his chest.

My one experience at the LAX CumUnion party last September was "poor" at best--I'm not one for stand and model but that night there sure were TONS of guys doing just that. I got on the fuck bench, bent over onto the "stage", and propped myself up on the fuck bed and only one cock (no cum) the whole 4 hours I was there. Perhaps the guys weren't into my slim, smooth, twink build?? I had recently cut all my long hair off so am now very young-boyish looking. I know, not everyone's idea of hot especially here in LA. Funny, I did end up meeting a guy right before I left who was straight-identifying and I ended up taking him back to my place and got a load from him that night (and for a few weeks after as well until his woman came back into town). My one experience at the TeamPig party back on July 4th was better--I did meet one Top who hogged my pretty ass all night so at least I was getting ample attention that night--on top of the dresser in the bedroom upstairs nonetheless (got to show off my flexibility with my legs up on the dudes shoulders or wrapped around his waist, and generally pointing up to the cieling whilst holding both him and me through all that thrusting lol) but again, I played with no one else and put myself on ready display for anyone's taking. Even more interesting was the fact that of the Tops who have had the multiple pleasure of a 1-on-1 play session(s) with me at my place that I ran into at both of these parties made NO moves at all to fuck (or interact with) me in public/at the parties..? Still wonder what may be the case with this observation (I have my own beliefs)... Point is, with group parties, the dynamic really does depend on the energy level of the sex happening there. I agree with NWUSHorny that the sex energy at the LAX party is quite high but despite this there still are more guys who stand and wait around than who are actually fucking (yes--I'm going off my one expereince there I know) but this is somewhat a normal pattern in LA that I have experienced and observed in many other places here which doesn't exist at the same level in other cities I have visited.

freshxtop5--LOL you're talking about Los Angeles, the S&M (Stand and Model) Capital!!

So my Alpha of over 2.5 years has since been replaced (he's moved to another city) by a straight-identified married SM/Dom Top with whom I have had an intense relationship with for the past seven months...

Happy 2016 to all of you! I have been using a few rudimentry systems: 1) my Business Pro calendar on my smartphone linked to my private email for hook ups (just his name on the date at the time encountered occured) and a handheld clicker which I reset each day (this is especially helpful at sex clubs and bath house visits!!). I then enter this info into a simple excel spreadsheet. I have just received a6uldeve84u's absolutely brilliant excel sheet for more in-depth tracking. I have just entered 2013, 2014, and 2015 breeding records into his sheet and can see definite trends and insights! I'm much more into regular connections vs anon hook ups (ie sex clubs/parties/bath houses) so to be able to see how often and regular my sex happens is amazing. I sure keep very busy and am happy and blessed for this! I will continue to use both of my tried-and-true rudimentary methods and will incorporate the new spreadsheet as a replacement for my more simple one. I wish all the rest of you much success and luck in your 2016 breeding year!! ps I must say that it is a welcomed thought to know there are others who track and record their sexual practices! It makes me feel more connected to my other "breeding misters" (and mistresses*) out there * if any one of you are fans of Frank Herbert's "Dune" series, you will note that the Bene Gessirt Sisterhood kept in-depth breeding records for all humanity in order to continue to sucessfully breed the Human Race (and to track the coming of the Kwitsach Haderach (Paul Atreides) they ministered to come to be) so--my Brothers/Sisters, Breed Well!!

Just finished my breeding records for 2015 and the final results are: 184 anal loads taken + 9 oral loads taken =192 loads taken 92 anal loads given + 20 oral loads given = 112 loads given Excited to see what my 2016 results will be!

My husband had a 00 gauge PA and, when we met, had not been wearing it for about a year because his previous partner hadn't enjoyed it. I remember as clear as day the night we first had sex--I asked him to put his PA in because he found someone who enjoys it immensely. He never took it out after that night and I loved the feeling of his big cock and the steel moving through my inner walls..!

to answer the OPs question--being used by anyone--straight, gay, bi, trans, questioning, or any other identity--is not a turn on for me at all. To be used up by someone for their own selfish aims isn't appealing to me in many capacities, and to be used sexually without getting any pleasure from it, well, y'all can keep that whether the dick is straight or gay, I'm not interested.

My guys often tell me that they're "going to get me pregnant" and it has nothing to do with HIV but everything to do with letting me know that I'm going to get filled with their cum...but I'm also trans so that may be specific to my case and to the heightened nature of our sexual collisions. I agree that you should ask him for clarification to you are certain of his meaning, and to ease your worry.

bbrts is very hit-or-miss (and has more recently leaned more towards miss) and it especially depends on your location. In Los Angeles, SF, and NYC, there are so many guys on there that the choices seem to overwhelm people and no action happens. On the flip side, some of my regular sex partners have been cultivated from bbrts but in the past year (save for one) I have not met anyone new. Lots of emails or chat but no real in-person action. On a recent trip to Montreal, I used bbrts as my only online source to cultivate action. Weeks before my trip and listed as a visitor, I generated quite a few emails and expresssions of interest and I was pretty confident that I'd be on my bed ass up for the majority of my pending trip. When I finally arrived in that large gay populated city, I met only one person for one encounter! I ended up going to the bathhouses for sex (and I had lots of it!) which I don't do ever where I locally reside. The same thing happened when I visited Toronto a week later--lots of pre-interest before I arrived and no action at all from bbrts (I expanded my online search to include A4A when in Toronto and I met two guys from there). I found myself again at the bathhouses in Toronto for sex (where I had even more sex than in Montreal!)... btw breederboy if I were closer to you, I'd for sure let you breed me all you want!! [sadly, I'm not a furry otter boy as you profess to favour but my offer is open to you nonetheless ]