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It's scarey and then finally the needle is in. http://www.positivelife.org.au/images/560x300/slamming.jpgThe plunger is pulled back to show a good draw of blood. Now that Tina and you have mixed, the plunger is pushed in and you feel the rush building in your vein. You pull the tourniquet and raise your arm: Warmth, Dreaminess, Amazement. Your erotic brain is on and free of needless constraint. You are fully alive and sensual. You are there to be held, to be touched, to be bitten, to be kissed, to be a fierce lover, to be electricity, to be totally on. I am finally alive. That self-critical part of me is finally set far back in the rear of the bleachers to watch but not interfere. I can give myself fully to the moment. When I top, I am both lover and rapist with my partners. I am free to give them all of me or to take everything they want to give me with Tina's permission. Together we fly and we soar. We are Gods of Sex! We are what we were meant to be. We celebrate who we always were and what we were meant to be. http://pnphiker.tumblr.com/post/132805619184

Tina kicked my ass. We became a scary couple as we twisted up together. I loved Tina, my best friend and soul mate. She was a fine companion and an even better teacher: She taught me I could have Awesome Sex; Freedom from Depression; and Handle Any Danger or Fear. Tina told me I was so Cool; I was in control of everything and I had complete acceptance of being me. However, Tina brought me to meet scary and dangerous people who were not recreational users: People who no longer cared about themselves and would do anything for Tina; People with guns who would shoot you for looking at them funny; People who were into Torture; People who were Never Responsible; and who were Emotional Vampires. The scariest revelation was I could be any or all of the scary people if I continued to use. She told me I could no longer be happy unless I gave Tina more and more of myself to her. She told me it would be horrible to lose her. I stopped giving myself to her because with her I started to I feel terrible fear and distrust of every good thing in life. So I took gave more of myself to Tina and I started hearing cell phones ring when they were not and I saw shadows leaning in to get me. I ws running in a circle of despair and I had to break free. I started getting call and Instant messages from friends. They told me I would be fine and they would show me the way. Tina knew about my friends and told she would ruin me: You will wallow in misery without me; you will know depression so intimately you will pray to die; and you will do anything to let me take over your life. I made a break for my friends. Tina had tried to tie me in knots but I ran to people who gave up drugs and alcohol completely. They knew the bitch all to well and said I could do it. I just had to keep wanting to be away from Tina completely. I am now 4 days sober. I had my first sleep on Tuesday night after being up for 3 days. Now, I sleep and it is the best sleep ever. Before I got some sleep I was fearful, crying, anxious, and told friends I was scared to go to AA or Crystal Meth Anonymous Meetings. CMA. I can think again and I have to avoid fantasizing about slams. I will start feeling the meth in me and want to raise my arms up as if I had done a slam and I am waiting for the cough. I actually pray to be protected from my thoughts. and meth in general. If I don't pray, the meth fantasies feel like they are happening right now if I don't ask to be released from these. I run to rational and spiritual thoughts for protection. I know now I cannot go back to Tina. 90% of users are addicts and I have become one. I can never go back and use without consequence.

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It's scarey and then finally the needle is in. http://www.positivelife.org.au/images/560x300/slamming.jpgThe plunger is pulled back to show a good draw of blood. Now that Tina and you have mixed, the plunger is pushed in and you feel the rush building in your vein. You pull the tourniquet and raise your arm: Warmth, Dreaminess, Amazement. Your erotic brain is on and free of needless constraint. You are fully alive and sensual. You are there to be held, to be touched, to be bitten, to be kissed, to be a fierce lover, to be electricity, to be totally on. I am finally alive. That self-critical part of me is finally set far back in the rear of the bleachers to watch but not interfere. I can give myself fully to the moment. When I top, I am both lover and rapist with my partners. I am free to give them all of me or to take everything they want to give me with Tina's permission. Together we fly and we soar. We are Gods of Sex! We are what we were meant to be. We celebrate who we always were and what we were meant to be. http://pnphiker.tumblr.com/post/132805619184

It's scarey and then finally the needle is in. http://www.positivelife.org.au/images/560x300/slamming.jpgThe plunger is pulled back to show a good draw of blood. Now that Tina and you have mixed, the plunger is pushed in and you feel the rush building in your vein. You pull the tourniquet and raise your arm: Warmth, Dreaminess, Amazement. Your erotic brain is on and free of needless constraint. You are fully alive and sensual. You are there to be held, to be touched, to be bitten, to be kissed, to be a fierce lover, to be electricity, to be totally on. I am finally alive. That self-critical part of me is finally set far back in the rear of the bleachers to watch but not interfere. I can give myself fully to the moment. When I top, I am both lover and rapist with my partners. I am free to give them all of me or to take everything they want to give me with Tina's permission. Together we fly and we soar. We are Gods of Sex! We are what we were meant to be. We celebrate who we always were and what we were meant to be. http://pnphiker.tumblr.com/post/132805619184

I had my first slam a few days ago and it was amazing. Feeling was amazing: Nervousness, the Plunger was pulled back, plunger pushed, it hit my veins, I felt a weird drip in my throat and coughed, and then stillness of warmth and wowziness moved through my body! I opened my eyes to see a bear sucking down my Tina cock and fingering my ass for his cock. I was totally connected to everything.

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I love going to the Baths. It's just like fishing. You never know what your are going to get. A slow night can be awesome and a busy night can be lonely. Today, the pace was slow. If it looks like it is going to be a bad night, I will goon out on some Maximum Impact and stretch my ass to get it ready so I can take my first fist. If it looks good, I will take some Viagra and walk around. I often run into an aggressive bottom. He is swishy, a poor cock sucker, and he really doesn't know how to milk a cock with his ass. Sometimes I will give him a mercy fucking and that's what happened tonight. He is kind of a sweet man but he really does not want to be coached on how to be a better cock sucker or bottom. I fucked him hard but I just couldn't cum and I kicked him out of my room. I showered up and cleaned out my ass and lied face down on the bed with ass tilted up. Soon a goofy guy with a strange smile and clothes on came in and pulled his cock out along with a nice bearish Italian man wearing a towel. Soon I was sucking off each cock and sometimes both. I loved going balls deep on the Italian guy. The goofy guy was either psychotic or on drugs. He was smiling in an odd manner and suddenly announced he was going to leave to get more people. When he left, I closed the door and asked the Italian guy if he would fuck me and he said "Hell ya". I was in a doggy position and I was taking his thick 7" cock and I was stroking my 8" cock while I was balanced on two knees and one elbow. My Italian guy loved the way my ass pulsed around his cock and soon he was giving me a hot load. I didn't come right then but I did turn around and cleaned off his cock. Goofy guy came back but my "new" Italian friend and I were heading to the showers where I jacked off. It was a very nice night.

The gate problem. I would contact whoever handles gay rights in your area and let them know you want some help on how to handle building management on how to get the gate code changed and if you might want to get an Order of Protection. The most important thing is to save your ass and down the line you can worry about your reputation. Just be careful. My brother's 6th grade teacher and teacher's lover were killed by some rough trade so be careful.

I have given a few guys piss enemas. It was really awesome adding my piss to my cum in their ass. I can't wait to give someone some chem piss and I want my chance at drinking some chempiss or taking some up my ass. I just started blowing clouds a few weeks ago so this is all new to me.

This is why there is still a place for bath houses. They are much safer than going to a stranger's home or having them over. It's always good to have a good relationship with the staff there and have them keep an eye out for you. I almost never invite people into where I am staying whether it is a hotel or home. I have had one too many guys try to rob me. I do keep pepper spray on me and I make a ritual of disrobing to help screen out the dangerous psychos and criminals. If they pull something, they get pepper spray in their eyes and I am out of there.

I grew up in ST Louis but now live in burbs of KC. I became poz about 30 years ago and I became the sober good safe sex guy but after my lover died and then all my poz friends had gone back to barebacking when the new HIV meds came out. Although I have relatively good looks, negative guys would turn me down because I was poz and poz guys just wanted me to give up being sober and bareback anyone anytime. I was confused and horny. My friends in AA said you will met the right guy but it wasn’t happening. I started going to sites like BBRT and Breeding Zone. I finally broke down one night and went back to the baths. It was great to fuck without rubber to feel my cum go down a guy’s ass and to take loads too but now guys were offering me serious drugs. Pot made me goofy but I always fantasized about doing Meth. All the stories in Breeding Zone made it sound incredible but there were also the risks. I finally decided I didn’t care and I hooked up with a guy who was having supplied delivered to house. He wanted to help him slam and I agreed if I could smoke some Tina. He got out the glass cock pipe put a few shards in and lit the torch took a hit and showed me how to do it. Soon I was shotgunning with him and was incredibly horny. I tried to slam him but his veins were bad so his supplier came in and slammed us both. He started to give me the same amount as my new found Tina friend but I told him this was my first time. He slammed with a much smaller dose and then the supplier slammed himself and gave us some extra Tina if we would fuck together. My partner and I agreed and we were up from 7 at night until 4 in the afternoon fucking and fisting. We had Gatorade and lots of water and took some vitamins earlier. I felt tired and had a bit of a headache but I am kicking in big time for the stash next week. I don’t know where this road will go but I am enjoying the ride. I cannot pretend to think I will be a normal user but who knows? http://www.asspig.com/home